POWER TOOLS

Bought  Dremel 3000 its a rotary hand held power tool I also bought some some extra sanding and cutting discs need to order some router bits and some engraving pieces can also but a router attachment for it .I am going to try and do some wood carving I have a few designs that I would like to do .

I also bought  Mac Alister sliding compound mitre chop saw from B&Q it cost only £90  so is bottom end of the market , but so far so good it seems ok . It was easy enough  to set up and is cutting fine it is accurate and not that noisy is easy to move its not too heavy  and It is cutting clean and square .

I ave wanted both of these items for ages they say he who waits well both are a godsend and differently make life easier .

CAMEO

Bought a curtain pole for the bay window from Dunelm I have fitted  it so it goes across bulk head rather than around the windows, also got three voiles with hassle edges they look good .
We also bought new cushion covers and pillows  a paper lantern for the bedroom light  and a new lamp for the side board that is  in the window recess and three small black photo frames all  from Ikea .we stocked up on meatballs and mash for tea.


Downloaded some designs and new fonts for the Cameo Silhouette library we spent around  £40 and we got quite a few decent designs which hopefully Helen can use , print out and make some extra cash .

We have it set up and working and we cut our first design which was of a  Chicken , Pig and Cow stood on top of one another with the words egg , bacon and milk etched in to the animals , first cut was not aligned right second was right we had trouble transferring the design to the backing tape we did it the wrong way round learning from our mistakes. I think it is trail and error we had issues sticking it to the wooden chopping board the vinyl sticks to glass and plastic no problem wood is a different medium specially if it has been oiled .Best thing to do would be to cut out a stencil then paint it black instead and  the stencil can always be used again .


Went to my daughters house she did Helen's hair it was cut and coloured  she also cut mine grade one whilst she was waiting for  Helen's colour to take ,  I cooked  us up bacon sausage and tomato
sandwiches .

My twin sister is in Pontefract Hospital she had her toe straightened it has been cut opened and then  pinned she was suppose to be in a day . But is being kept in hopefully for just one night because it won't stop bleeding every time she moves it .

COKE COST MORE THAN FOOD

Finished painting Helen's parents bathroom and bedroom all is done ,the bedroom looks pretty damn good .

I started painting our living room the walls a few weeks ago that I painted a charcoal grey are now Puppy Love brown the other two opposite walls and ceilings are white , can't beat freshly painted walls it is looking good .

Helen bought a mantle clock from Laura Ashley it was reduced from £75 to £37 she painted it grey .

A long with some wooden candle sticks .We need a new rug to match the greys and my chair needs reupholstering .

The Silhouette  Cameo three was delivered  Monday but we have not had any free  time to set it up hopefully we will before the end of the week . Helen has quite a few readings booked in over the next few days .

Went to Toby Carvery once again for dinner they had a fifty percent discount if you had the app installed on your phone I downloaded the app and we had dinner the two glasses of  Coca Cola  cost as much as the food .

TWO BUFFETS IN TWO DAYS

WEDNESDAY  - Helen went for her nails doing I went and got her a new coil atomizer for her e-cig and a bottle of liquid  after we went for a Chinese buffet at the Trinity centre the food to be honest was not that good the selection was poor some of the dishes on offer was empty and some of the food was cold I doubt if any of the dishes where freshly prepared at best it was filling the sweets and  deserts where ok and the decor looked ok but a little bit dated also some of the plates and dishes where cracked it was nowhere near as good has Chao Baby buffet that we had a couple of weeks ago the price was ok we have passed it on our visits to the Trinity centre numerous times I think we will keep passing it ,

THURSDAY - Went to to our local Toby Carvery for dinner  IT WAS 13.30  they was a few people al ready dining  . Helen had roast turkey and gammon I just had the pork with Yorkshire puddings and there was plenty of roast potatoes and mash w have not had a Carvery for a while it was nice to have a proper roast dinner mid week .

I bought a bigger aluminum water bottle it is at 750 ml it is another 50%  the 500 ml was not lasting my full shift at work the extra 250 ml should be enough if not can always fill both up with my dilute orange and mango drink it keeps it cold for a good 18 hours special the amount of ice I put in .

P&D

FRIDAY - Christ have to go to work at 14.00 instead of 18.00 that's making a big cut into my day at least I get o finish at 22.00 it as been a while I know parking is going to be hard and I am already counting on having to go out and move my car at four o clock  , and I bet it will be raining cats and dogs sods law it will .
Least I will get to see some people I have not sen for ages and get to go home at a reasonable hour for a change .

SATURDAY -  Went over to Helen's parents home I am painting their bathroom and bedroom they are doing the bedroom a baby blue I rang out of paint before giving it all one coat will have to go back Sunday , we got cooked for us us pan fried battered  fish and hand cut chips for dinner thank god for masking tape and paint rollers .

SUNDAY - Left alone they went for more paint for the bedroom I started to decorate the bathroom all white apart from the back wall rang out of white paint they had brought me another tin of blue so I finished the bedroom will take one more day .

Helen is saving up for a Silhouette Cameo 3 she should have enough by the end of next week it is basically a machine that cuts out vinyl letters and stencils using a software application which you install on a pc or Mac.

MONDAY - Back to my 18.00 -02.00 shifts which suit me better won't have many left to do so more the merrier .

OP 2

Well another weekend over and done with got to admit they are not what they used to be use to look forward to nights in the pub then on to a club leave the club at chucking out time and then on to a Blues . Now its coffee , Netflix and Spotify and early nights ,  how I have changed . I honestly don't think I could afford night club prices and I wouldn't even like to guess the price of a taxi home .

This Friday I am doing 14.00 - 22.00 be weird doing my old shift pattern the girl who is on maternity is having a KIT day or other wise known as a keep in touch day , keep in touch with yourself more like  it is a total waste of time but management think otherwise never mind at least it is on a Friday .

TUESDAY - Went to see my surgeon he has agreed to do another hip replacement operation number 2  this time it is going to be my right hip which seems worse than my left hip was , it  should take place in May or June hopefully late June I need another x-ray this should be in the next few weeks .Fingers crossed it is all plain sailing as it was last time which was Jan 2017 .

Update my Android to Pie photo gallery playing up not syncing to cloud or downloading to phone should have left well alone , was way too soon jumped the gun I guess .

Need to do a hospital list for my three night stay at the Spires in Elland need to download a Netflix series to watch , a book to read and music to listen to late at night in case I don't sleep .

MY INNER SOLES

The Bose are really  good I know they are nowhere near the best you can get that are currently on the market but for my needs and for the type of music listen to  and of course the You tube videos and Netflix etc that I watch both on my Mac and phone then they are brilliant a big improvement . The noise cancelation is a first for me and this feature alone makes a big difference in the sound  quality , also just to relax and not even have any music playing is very tranquil and peaceful sounding like a Buddhist now , but are they worth £300 maybe not the are expensive . Will I get my money out of them I know I will so they will be cost effective. My last pair of Phillips bluetooth on ear headphones cost me £20 this was more than five years ago and are still going strong good value or what .

Ordered some , well a pair one for each shoe some gel rubber inner soles hopefully to combat the plantar fasciitis that I am suffering in my left heel I want to have good mobility before and after when  I have surgery on  my right hip .

The wind is still blowing and the rain is still falling roll on summer please come quickly .

Watching on Netflix the F1 series "Drive to Survive " used to be into F1 and would follow every race buy the mags and keep on track if you like with all the media coverage I have not had a serious interest for the last few years the season starts this weekend might try and get my interest back .

SATURDAY - Had a bit of a sleep in got up just before ten so a good seven hours sleep which is very good for me will be in bed for tennis tonight so will get even more sleep playing catch up usually get to be for three a.m and updrafts for half eight .

Took Helen to Wortley in Leeds she had two readings to do I sat in the car watching Ricky Gervais in "After Life " awesome enjoyed every episode .

DEADPOOL WHO ?

Helen is  still in pain from her on going leg cramps the calf muscles are aching hopefully this will ease over the next 48 hours , Helen needs to get off her arse and move around more before she totally seizes up , everyone knows what happens if you park a car up and leave it .

Watched Leaving Neverland I think the two accusers had there chance in court bur let him off so move on , I do think Michael Jackson was a groomer and an abuser even though he has no convictions for any of these crimes , I think it needs more victims to come forward , some of the blame must go to the parents of these kids , what gets me because they where all male children the parents did not think they was at any risk , no parent let there seven year old daughter sleep over but for their sons it was different matter which is something that  I can't get my head around .why was this so was they totally brain dead parents  apparently so .

SUNDAY -Went to the Royal Oak at Copmanthorpe for Sunday dinner we meet her parents their at midday the both of us had the roast beef it was good had a pint of cloudy cider to wash it down .

MONDAY - Went to Meadow hall Helen wanted some sweat shirts and other shit from Primark .
I went to the Bose shop bought a pair of Bose QC11 in limited edition midnight blue for £299 they are awesome to say the least . They can connect to more than one device and so easy to swap over to another device and the noise cancellation excellent.
Bose even gave me a ten percent discount voucher which made them cheaper than Pc world who are selling the other two colours less than Bose , which was gratefully accepted .

My daughter arrived back safely from her friends hen party in Portugal they flew out Friday and from the photos she posted I am pretty sure they all had a good time .

TUESDAY - Went back to Meadow Hall Helen had a pair of jeans to take back as they were way too tight . Even though the other two pairs she bought at the same time from the same store fitted perfectly .

Went to Chao Baby Thai buffet restaurant we have been before its very good , I had the Thai beef stew , ginger chicken and fish pieces fried in batter all with noodles rice and chips not all at the same time or on the same plate .The desserts was ok but of course  its the main courses that you go for .

Helen had a photo taken by me with  a life size model of Deadpool , honestly she had no idea who he is this is someone who has never watched an episode of  "Game of Thrones" or "The Walking Dead" I kid you not .She does watch 'Harry Potter though.

JUICED

MONDAY - Back to work I had a email I am doing my current hours of 18.00 - 02.00 until the 5th of July , Jess who is currently  on maternity leave returns to her regular nights of 22.00 - 06.00 on this date .

TUESDAY - Bentley went to the vets this morning we was late he stayed out all night and was late returning I called the vets they was ok about it.
The operation went ok they called me to ask to pick him up early he was stressing out post op so I collected him after a few hours he was given some oral pain killer solution and is booked in for a check up this Friday at 11.30 .He does not have any stitches the wound is small and is left to heal naturally hopefully it won't get infected .

FRIDAY - Bentley had his post op check up he is fine all is good . Bought a bottle of Caleb Treeze organic leg cramp juice made from cider vinegar garlic juice and ginger juice its supposed to be very good and getting rid of cramp it cost £16,95 hope its good the feed back looks ok Helen is suffering bad with leg cramps through the night .

Watching - Alex Honnold in "Free Solo".

O2 WHISTLE

Bailey is booked in to get his coat washed and cut the full platinum treatment teeth nails the full Monty , also Bentley is due to go to the vets to get castrated this to stop him spraying on the new sofa can't afford to be forking out another £425 , for some strange unknown reason I thought that  he had already been done not long after we adopted him .

Went to the garden got a pot and tray for my bonsai tree that I am attempting  to grow from seed not sure how the planting of the seeds will take I have five fibre  pots hopefully one or two will start to shoot if they do the need to go in to the fridge for three to six weeks to germinate them will also have to get some feed and hopefully late Ron some bonsai shears or scissors .

Went to the White Rose shopping complex in Leeds , Helen wanted a pair of white Nike Air force trainers last weekend we tried to get them from the Wakefield store and  they refused to sell us the junior ones Helen takes a size  five they are exactly the same trainers but £20 cheaper as you don't pay vat on children clothes shoes etc and they didn't like that we was saving £20  it so we walked away they did not get a sale but the Leeds store did not have problem they sold her the junior ones without any issues.

Bidding on some Marshall 3 blue tooth headphones in black my highest bid is £52 they end tomorrow fingers crossed I get them for less than that .

My work paid £400 in to my bank hopefully it won't happen again they might still owe me some money they don't intend to pay the full amount out standing so might have another £25 - £35 paid on this months wages .

O2 is pissing me off big style I am getting charges for a news and information company this month was £15 they was supposed to have stopped it yet I am getting charge last month they refunded me the money on to this months bill now they won't do this for this months bill saying I have to phone up the company to get a refund why you was supposed to block the number I was told I would by O2 that I would get no more charges I have paid for the standard charge I have on my contract if you pay the company your fault don't pay them you know its a con if this continues and is not resolved  I will terminate the contract myself and O2 can whistle and they won't call me because I will have a new number .

NEW SOFA

WEDNESDAY - Drove to my daughters house she cut my hair for me again  a grade one on the back and sides and short on the top she also did Helen's colour  and trimmed the ends as well as this she also bless her cooked stew and pancakes for our tea which was a nice surprise she is not a bad cook she does ok .

THURSDAY - I have an appointment to see the surgeon who replaced my left hip I am seeing him on the 19th of March at 10.45 until then not sure what happens or in what order , or even how long I will have to wait hopefully it will see me being off through the summer .

Helen goes to Pontefract hospital tomorrow at 08.00 am she is having a colonoscopy she had breakfast this morning then he'd no more food she had to take 10 Senna tablets and a sachet and half of powder laxative she needs a empty bowel for the camera to be able to see clearly .

FRIDAY - Went to the hospital at pontefract the procedure to over an hour and half but she got the all clear no sign of anything untoward which was good news went to  farmer Copley's farm  shop bought some lamb and nice piece of pork for Sunday dinner to be honest it is no better than our local farm shop .

Got home to fine the cat at spayed all over the sofa will never get the stink out it had soaked through and got into the foam no good to it to the skip that is the sofa should have took the cat , £425 for a new two seater at least we machined washed the covers so we have a spare set just in case and expensive trip out ., just paid £325 off the card as well from last month , would have been in a dilemma if I had not had the card always said it was there for emergencies which is what today was .

Wages owe us around £450 which might go on next months wages if I don't get it paid tonight by bacs transfer .

BAD WEEK.

MONDAY - So sad the day , my first proper dog Bandit a female Jack Russell that we bought from a dog rescue centre was put to sleep hopefully she had no idea and felt no pain . Both my daughter and son was with her to comfort and hold her including the hours before she was put to sleep .

They took her to the vet and then  they stayed with to the end of life  then they brought her body home she will be buried near Lara the cat no doubt  , hopefully they are together again in heaven .The both of them each had wonderful long and happy eventful life's .

I use to walk her for miles across the canals and nature reserves I would take my iPod listen to the likes of Snow patrol , Coldplay Razor light and R.H.C.P and wander of in to my own private world day dreaming and wishing . I saw her out run a Greyhound around a field and out face a dog three times her size yet she was never nasty to any dog or cat unless they threatened her happy memories .

I saw her for the last time a few weeks ago when I picked my son up to take him to his dentist in Manchester , of course not realizing it would be the last time .

TUESDAY - Did not go to work yesterday my good hip and left foot is playing up in pain a a big part of the day I have an appointment at the doctors Thursday .I will stay off work until next week hopefully will get some anti inflammatory tablets and stronger pain killers and a referral to the surgeon who replaced my left hip a few years ago .

BYE BANDIT

Need some white trainers for summer and new sliders with thicker soles  , also need a few Ben Sherman t-shirts , I am ok for shorts I bought a few pairs last year when we went to Ibiza .

Two years ago January 2017 I had an hip replacement on my left hip the right one is now causing me pain and it seems to be getting worse .I have made an appointment to see the doctor who referred me last time hopefully we can get the same surgeon Simon Jones and the same hospital to get the same high quality treatment that  I had last time .I don't know what the timescale will be not sure if I can have the op , if I do I will be double bionic two titanium and ceramic hips .

Helen did a couple of readings so treated herself to a 50ml  bottle of Armani Diamonds and a diary and pink  leather writing case .

For the first time ever they have messed up my monthly wages I have been paid a flat basic wage no Saturday enhancements and no night rate which is around £400 I don't have going in to my account , I have emailed the payroll and so far not had a reply.

SATURDAY - Went over to Helen's parents at Acaster Malbis for dinner it was a Sunday dinner but on a Saturday afternoon  we had roast pork with all the trimmings including Yorkshire puds and roast spuds followed by which was a big plus a home made trifle  they moved here exactly one year ago on this date amazing I thought it was longer .

Tried some Voltarol gel for my hip pain I rubbed some in and amazingly it seemed to work and I was pain free as it gets to work in minutes which is a lot quicker than taking tablets , the gel is around £15.99 , there is a Boots chemist where I work and we get a whopping 10% staff discount , well its better than nowt .

Bidding on eBay for a pair of black Beats solo 3 wireless headphones in black current bid £16.99 six days left doubt I will win them but who knows a last minute bid could seal the deal , these cost between £249 and £299 on the Apple web site.

SUNDAY - Had a call from my daughter my old Jack Russell Bandit is being taken to the vets to be  put down tomorrow morning ,  she  has gone blind over the last couple of days and is constantly bumping and walking in to things plus she is having trouble walking anyway and will loose the use of her legs which is no good . Bye Bandit R.I.P.

FAKE PODS

SUNDAY - Got rid of the outside fish tank a friend is swapping his chimney for it, I  went out to empty the water this morning and one of the four fish was floating on the top not sure when he died it looked fresh so can't have been long ,got the water out cleaned it out put the three fish in a bucket just has he pulled up in his works van to be honest was glad to see them go .

Moved the water feature we had round the back to the front buried the power lead from it under the soil cant see it .

washed the bay windows outside all the windows are now cleaned  and sparkling won't stay that way  a few days at least we have the cleanest windows on our street .

Finished off by cooking some lamb steaks and mash potatoes for dinner a bit boring no Yorkshire puddings .

MONDAY - Bought drill bits 10 x 2mm , 10 x 3mm and 10 x 4mm for seven quid pays to have small drill bits was able to put the brackets on the door to hold the bottom of the blind .

Did some food shopping bought two whole chickens , two gammon steaks and a packet of chicken breast to do a stew in the slow cooker along with  some smoked ham and fresh pasta to do a carbonara  we have more than enough food to last till pay day on the 27th .

Work is a pain we have that many staff off covering all areas is a struggle every day we need more employees it is getting serious .

Have been looking at getting some fake air pods I 1O TWS they are a third of the price and the reviews are giving them great feed back I lost a pair of Akg and I can get them for £6 I would like some wireless ones for out doors and a decent over ear ones for use in the home .

FITTED UP

Friday - Helen went to Pinderfields' hospital she had an appointment  to have a camera down her throat , she was given an aesthetic injection and manage to complete the process .
On the way back we went a different route found a B&M bought more grey bedding and some cereal bowls , as well as scrub buddies and other bits and pieces including two ice trays that make ice cubes that will fit through the neck of my stainless steel drinks bottle .

SATURDAY -  I Went to the chiropodist like walking on air again money well spent .Have lost my Akg headphones for my Samsung s8 annoying to say the least and I lost a brand new polo Gel pen as well .
Finished the rest of the blinds mange to cut three down to fit the bay for the price there where mega cheaper I think the biggest one they sell is still only twenty quid they are very good they fix and cut down easily and are now all up and fitted .

IF IT WASN'T FOR BLINDS

WEDNESDAY - Helen bought blinds for each of the windows in  the van didn't start to fit them until this after none had to go back out and buy some white pre painted mdf architrave to bring the blinds forward off the wall so they clear the window we have two in grey and the rest in white the bay window I will leave to last .

THURSDAY - Fitted more blinds prefer the grey coloured ones rusher than the white one of the blinds needed reducing in width had to cut ever blind slat with the blind trimmer very tedious over one hundred cuts but got there in the end .Anyway you know what they say if it wasn't for blinds it be curtains for us all .

Valentines day we went out for fish and chips late in the afternoon we was supposed to go out for breakfast but was way too busy doing the blinds we have also bought one for the glass door which is just the right width .

Helen's rocking horse is all stained waxed and polished ready for valentines day which is why I bought it for her it looks a lot better the bare wood  .

ROCKING THE HORSE

Helen has had a coil fitted to regulate her periods and make them less heavy she looses a lot of blood every month and suffers terrible pains and aches hopefully this Merena coil could even stop her periods altogether , might even stop her mood swings hehe.

Bought two Yankee candle wax burners one in black the other in white it was only when Helen took one to the checkout and was charge half price did we find they had been reduced , the quickest U-turn ever to the shelf with the other  burners  on , which was near to the check out and in easy reach o pick up another one a case of buy one get one free .

SATURDAY - Went over to Dobcross garden centre bought a clock for the kitchen wall its black with a white face .They was selling off a wooden rocking horse it was knocked down to £199 I bought it for an early valentine present for Helen she has wanted one for years so I bought it for her .

On the way back we called in at Compo's fish restaurant at Holmfirth we had not eaten all day and it has been a while since we have eaten here as always the food was excellent .

ROCKING THE FISH TANK

SUNDAY - Went to the aquarium shop in our local garden centre bought three bags of black gravel some new stones and some wood a plastic jelly fish and flora which under the blue light is day glow  all in all just under £100 , we changed the water cleaned out the pump and washed all the pads and filters took over two hours a full 100% water changed , a pain in the arse to do but worth it for the benefit of the fish .

Helen's Law of attraction planner / journal she got off  Amazon arrived it was left  on the porch when we got back from shopping this planner is around £30.00 and apparently if you use the correct pen you can put it in the microwave  for around 20 seconds and it erases all the content if you write with a pilot frixion pen .

Cooked a pork joint with the fat on with mashed carrot and swede roast potatoes and Yorkshire puddings , Helen had a reading at six so we had a late dinner .Got to admit when pork is cooked right it is a great taste and texture specially the crackling.
I went in the bedroom with my laptop headphones and a very large brandy , coke and ice watching YouTube .

MONDAY - Back to work hard to get back in the swing of things caught up with my emails and tried to cover the next three weeks rotas as there is a load of the workforce of on annual leave have left or are on long term sick not a easy task.

TUESDAY - Went back to the aquarium suppliers bought a hand made concrete triangular rock  with holes which sits at the back of the tank it did cost £40 but it sets off the tank , and it is beneficial for the fish we also bought a new Fluval digital thermometer  ,  looks dynamic think we will get more fish at the end of the month .

After the water change the it was looking cloudy shit always blows out once the tank is primed 48 hours the water is crystal clear no debris no discolouring the tank water  looks like you could bottle it and sell it as spring water .

LIFE MEMORIES

SATURDAY - Got up went over to Meadow Hall at Sheffield it was very quiet the roads clear parking easy . I had a gift card for Fat Face and Helen had one for White Stuff we both  ended up buying under wear ,
Helen also bought a padded hooded winter coat from Next and a baby blue and pink sweat hoodie top also from Fat Face.
We wandered over to the Apple store I got to admit the new  IPhone looks a lot more nicer than the Samsung S8 that we both currently have contracts end in August the displays look a lot more clearer and brighter all and all looks a nicer phone I think we have both decided after a few weeks of using the S8's that we will definitely do a switch back to the  IPhone we both regret the switch and both miss Apple.

Washed the car salt from the gritted roads makes the car look like something out of Mad Max it was warm enough to give it a wash its back to its lustrous metallic red , the inside needs a vac which I left .

EVENING - We went to the Corn Mill Hotel at Leeds we was invited to a celebration of life  , an event  for our good friend Graham who sadly passed away due to complications brought on by cancer  before Christmas .There was a good turn out  of people , and food was laid on continuing of various pizza's , fish and chicken goujons , sausage rolls chicken skewers and jacket potatoes  topped with cheese all very nice and appreciated .They had four easels with photos of  different stages of his life ,were all going to end up on a easel board in a room for people to few , in a nut shell all life is all about making memories ,

THE REAL THING

THURSDAY - The car this morning  was well iced up but nothing like they are getting in the U.S.A and it was  also foggy we was driving to Ikea in Leeds  , we was going to meet up with my daughter and her friend Jade whom she is opening the hair salon with in a couple of months time .

We bought some glass coffee cups and some glass beakers , as well as a rug and a door mat with three hearts on it  we also bought new dog blankets in grey and 100 night lights , and a really good fake orchid in white for only £10 .00  they was selling real ones for half that price.
I bought a bag of Ikea meat balls the same as they sell in the restaurant  , some mash potatoes gravy mix and a jar of loganberry all set for tea , I also bought two cans of Ikea pear cider which was the very first pear cider I ever tasted .And of course we all had hot dogs and milk shakes after leaving the check outs ,

When we got home the Amazon echo dot  Helen bought online was on the decking Helen had bought it for my daughters birthday it was suppose to be delivered earlier in the week but better late then not being delivered at all , After a quick call to my daughter to confirm she would be in we drove over to her house and got it set up she cooked us both tea  ,bless her  I think she was genuinely happy with her new friend Alexa .She also let me use her family membership for Spotify which is nice .

FEBRUARY  FRIDAY - A dusting of snow yet again but to be honest it is not that bad went to the supermarket bought some essentials lamb steaks and rump and sirloin steaks as well as  chicken Kiev's and chicken  breast in breadcrumbs , I also bought asparagus sprouts and broccoli as well as frozen mash and some crinkle cut chips  , a block of cheese chicken tikka spread and three cheese spread , a packet of both red and green chillies I also bought a med jar of coffee and a large packet of t-bags and a six pint bottle of semi skimmed  milk  and a  med size bottle of Coca Cola the real thing  to go with the whiskey and brandy that I still have left over from Christmas .

from the farm shop I bought 2 doz eggs half a dozen fish cakes 2 trays of minced  beef and a tray containing  two large chicken breasts and two pain au chocolate that I need to bake in the oven for about  15 minutes.
Well my week off from work is nearly over it has gone not too bad not really fast and not too slow  which I was off till summer driving in winter too risky .

A PHEASANT PIE

MONDAY - Went over to my daughters neck of the woods meet her at the salon hopefully she is getting the lease on it does need some work doing but the infrastructure is all there .Yes it needs decorating and new doors and skirting boards and some panelling doing but its nothing major the biggest expense maybe the air con unit they want,

After wards we went for breakfast to the Midland Hotel which is also a pub for a cooked breakfast it was ok . Early evening Helen went for her nails re doing at a nail bar in Wakefield she has not been there before , whilst I had a wonder around the city centre just browsing the shops and used phones outlets , was tempted to go to Starbucks for a white chocolate mocha .
After her nails we went to Asda and bought some salted caramel ice cream lollies they are like Magnums but much cheaper and as nice , I bought some chicken breasts and wraps  which I will cook for tea.

TUESDAY - Helen had two readings at eleven in the morning , after we had to go out to buy cat and dog food as we was running low .
In the evening we went to the Kaye Arms for tea  for starters we both had shredded beef with onion gravy poured into a freshly made Yorkshire pudding for main  I had chicken and pheasant pie with hand cut chips  which had a pie crust top and Helen had the beer battered  fish both meals was excellent as always , for a local pub the food is always of a high standard .We was back home for quarter past seven , during the night it snowed the first of the year,

HAPPY & SAD

FRIDAY - Bought Helen a triple dressing table mirror only to unbox it at home to find one of the beveled edge pieces and splinted , lost the receipt seeing as we are only exchanging it should not be an issue .
I also bought the biggest sized candle holder to go with the other two sizes we have it is the first time ever they had them in we had been told that it had been discontinued .

Had another three piece dinner from Marston's chicken shack as always excellent with spicy mayo and chunky chips .

Ebay orders three pilot gel pens , 1 X 100 pack of plastic cd wallets , carbon fibre RFID wallet credit card holder and many clip  and one charcoal echo dot which Helen is buying for my daughters birthday the delivery is going to be after her birthday which is Sunday hopefully we will have it Monday or Tuesday .

SATURDAY - Took the mirror back  to Huddersfield we got it exchanged even without the receipt.
Then we drove over to the Trinity at Wakefield went to the Pandora charm shop and  bought  a Pandora safety chain for my daughter's charm bracelet her birthday is tomorrow she will be twenty seven years it will be her first birthday without her mother but I think she has pre written birthday cards for her as well as a happy day I know she will be sad too  .

Helen had five readings to do tonight  .Bought some brown sugar and some  Dolce Gusto cappuccino pods for my coffee machine then I sat in the car for three hours  and watched  Luther .

DECORATING

This Friday is the first pay day since Christmas which is about time .Its a good job I got my overwrought facility in place and credit card as well as Helen doing readings and of course the best money saver she has stopped smoking no cigarettes for a month a saving of over £250.

Will go to the farm shop and stock up on chicken breast I am also looking forward to getting a mixed fish curry again .

We are also getting some wallpaper and paint and we are going to decorate the van through out and decorate the bathroom and toilet and our bedroom which has never altered since the day we moved in which is a bit of a no no really.

break up Friday a whole nine days annual leave so no  work , no doubt we will be going to Ikea and the Range .

HAND CRAfTED GIN

SATURDAY - Four hours sleep had to be up to go over to my daughters salon where she works doing clients hair .
we had to be there for 9.00 am Helen was getting her colour done again and cutting and I was getting my normal cut .By this coming May she will have her own salon with her partner Jade .
They has a Bose mini sound bar speaker highly impressive not cheap but great sound quality .

Went home we stopped of at the Farm shop and bought some mince and onions carrots and potatoes we made a mince pie with  suet pie crust on top we did a bowl of gravy to take , and we also mad a mincemeat pie for desert with ice cream both called mincemeat weird I know. The original pies did have minced meat in them going back to the thirteen century as well as fruit , nutmeg and  cinnamon  , they don't know contain the meat ingredient  but still contain suet that is made from animal fat.

This was the meal we was taking over to my daughters house for a late tea or supper at seven o clock Saturday evening .

SUNDAY - Went over to Acaster Malbis near York it is Helen's mother birthday we bought her a bottle of Whitley Neils hand crafted rhubarb and ginger gin £26 a bottle it was way cheaper at Christmas  .We had to go to two supermarkets to get a bottle Sunday shopping always seems to be the worse day of the week to go buying the  car parks and exit routes out very busy as well as the tills  which delayed us getting over to her Mothers house .

LONG MONTH

For the last week or so we have been having porridge for breakfast just bought some maple syrup and pecan which was really nice not sure its any good for those with nut allergy but I liked it . Also bought the plain variety that's just straight normal porridge and a treacle box should be enough for 15 breakfast having one each , we make it with semi skimmed milk .

Have a weeks annual leave coming at the end of the month hopefully the weather is half decent .
Might go to Leeds it has been a while since we visited the city be nice to go for a decent lunch maybe a steak house or a Chinese buffet we have a couple of gift cards to spend both the outlets we need are in Leeds as well .

My daughter picks her mothers ashes up either Thursday or Friday I think it will be a comfort to her knowing she has her mum with her again people might say they are just sat but it is a mother regardless .

THURSDAY
Helen had three readings starting at eleven am so I went out
Went to Marston's chicken shack had chicken and chips with spicy mayo dip and  as always could have eaten it again the chicken skin is delicious the meat moist just perfect they must take a load of cash each day they literally queue out of the door all day 3 piece and chips with dip £5.50 great value .

FRIDAY -
Thank God it is Friday , work next week than a whole nine days off  annual leave another plus it is pay day its been a long month because we got paid a week early its been hard to make it last , its been a very log month too many days not enough pay.

NOWT GREAT

It  is amazing how we  all take things for granted like  the birds and the bees , flowers and the  trees , sunset and sunrise yet we walk around not really noticing them .
We really should look around more and notice all  nature  as to offer myself included to see the sun rise and sunset the beaches and oceans lakes and lagoons and wood land and forests

you all should have the bear necessities to eat nice food or at least eat three meals a day and to have a warm house and a job ,

We should all top moaning  fuck Brexit ignore the politicians that liar and cheat feed us bull shit stop the killing of wild  animals and totally stop destroying the planet and stop fighting all wars .

We need top spending money on arms and weapons of massive destruction and spend the money sorting  out the millions of people that are starving each day  , and build houses to home people that have no where to live who have  no where to sleep or even prepare meals .

The planet has been brought to its knees in the last 100 years and for it  to survive another 1000 years which is highly unlikely , we all need to change our ways or  the earth will be one mass grave.

FRIDAY.
My daughter got the flowers we had sent using the online flower delivery service Bloom and Wild first time I have used them got to say there were excellent flowers with next day delivery so easy and great flowers the are boxed up and the box goes through standard size letter boxes  .

Went to the Range store it sells home home decor like  mirrors and vases etc we bought some mirrored photo frames and a small stainless steel clock for the bedroom .
Helen saw a nice tribute fold dressing table mirror which looked really good I said I would get it for he come next payday .
Went back to work I never mind Fridays as it nice knowing its almost  the weekend and in a few hours I will be driving home .

SATURDAY - Helen had a reading in the afternoon had a lazy day chilled out .

SUNDAY - Went to the Trinity centre at Wakefield did a bit of food shopping went home and cooked the last of the turkey joints we got for Christmas , had an early night catching up on sleep had twelve hours which is massive amount for me .

PRESSING MEALS

Bought a Panini  press was only cheap £15 reduced from £20 and it works fine , Already had chicken breast bought some red and green chili's shiitake  mushrooms which are the best mushrooms to buy  and a jar of ready mixed Patak's curry paste  I will be making wraps tonight .

Spent Wednesday night in A&E Emergency department with Helen ,  I had to leave work half through my shift it was just before 05.00 am when we got back home she was given a letter to take to her doctors hopefully to make an appointment with a neurologist expert to sort out a cure for her neuralgia , hopefully the following treatment will be successful .

THURSDAY - My daughter and sons mother funeral took place to day in York I was eventually invited but had an appointment to take Helen to the doctors at the very same time , it was nice to be asked .I have seen some photos already she had a beautiful wicker coffin with lovely flowers decorating it I know she would have loved it .

My daughter wore her dress and coat which was a nice gesture hopefully it will be a very ,very  long time before they are both  reunited in heaven .

I sent my daughter some flowers I have to admit it was Helen's idea they should be delivered today .

Our friend Graham had his cremation today it was family only we are having a celebration of his life on the 2nd of Feb .

My Brother in law Alan his fathers funeral was yesterday in Brighton may he also rest in peace although I never got to meet the man still sad news .

p.s the wraps were spot on I mad two and have enough chicken to make two more with yogurt and mint sauce excellent .

WEEK TWO 2019

Helen is really sticking with the e-cig we have had to not buy a single packet of cigarettes in twelve  days this is a great achievement and what a great start to the new year if she can do a fortnight which she will  she can do a month fingers crossed saving over £240.

Work is the normal pain they want me to do more cleaning audits at night even if it is doing areas already done . I think they must think I sit in the office all night drinking coffee if only they knew .

Made another quiche using fresh eggs tomatoes and bacon getting quite good so far everyone as come out tasting really great and of course eating it when its still warm is the best .Another thin I cooked was a nan bread pizza using tinned tomatoes and cheese and ham always tastes better than shopped bought ones will do another one using tuna.

I got my tax from the tax man it clears on Friday just in time for the weekend which is great timing .

Not sure why I have been getting a pain in my left heel when I walk it is bad when I have rested and get out of bed in the morning not sure why have not injured it in any way . My walking is not good as every step is uncomfortable  might have to book in at the doctors .

My ex -wife's funeral and cremation tomorrow at 15.00 I know when I was at my mothers service one of  the thoughts I had  was this is the last time we are all going to be in the same room has her , a very sad thought . Hope my daughter is brave she is one of the pallbearers the final thing she can do for her mother ,




Listening to  - Mumford and Sons new album "Delta" and Anne Marie 'Speak You Mind".

Watching - Luther the  new season five.

TWO IN ONE DAY

First weekend of the new year this week as already flown bye after Sunday only 51 weeks of the year left can't believe it will be valentine's day before we know it then Easter .

Took Helen over to Bramley Saturday afternoon she had three readings to do for three young lady hairstylists which was at 3 0 clock .I waited in the car watched a film I had downloaded of Amazon which took the time to after five o clock  , it was dark and cold .
I went in for a coffee it is a hair salon but as well as cutting hair they also drink and make coffees .

After wards  we Called in on a friend who's partner had died  , yet another death from cancer he died from pneumonia once his immune system was knocked out he caught a viral strain of flu which is what really killed him , he died  on the 21st of December and  his cremation is on the same day as my ex wife which is next Thursday.
He use to keep small Owls in an aviary in his garden he also made a decent curry and loved going out with his metal detector , he will be missed .

I did not know you don't have to be buried or cremated in a coffin you can be cremated or buried  in a shroud or just your clothes or even a card board coffin and if this is someones wish then why deny them.
I don't think I have had two people that I know who have been cremated  on the same day it has never happened yet  they must be thousands who die any given day.

RETHINK

Well things are picking up hopefully Helen as three readings booked for Saturday over in Leeds I will have to amuse myself for a few hours whilst I wait for her to finish .

I think I under estimated the tax rebate I am getting from HRMC I might be more in the region of £300 I do hope so fingers crossed be a good start to the new year it is my daughters birthday at the end of the month would be nice to go out for another Indian meal to a restaurant were we live.

I am also thinking about changing my bank account to one that gives me an option of an over-draught  facility should I ever need it  (like today ) in this day and age I think I am the only person at work who does not have an over draught facility  or credit card .I am aware of debt and the pitfalls with the both of these but I am also aware of we need to eat and I the fact that I also need petrol for getting to and from work .

I think one of my New Years resolutions is to always have access to money without getting in to  spiralling debt .  If I did get a credit card it would not be used to fund luxury items like a new iPhone or paying for a holiday it be used only when money is tight and for only essential items although some of you out there would class a new iPhone and holiday as an essential item .And they would both be zeroed out when I got paid.

Middle of the week hopefully tonight will be more motivated its been hard the last couple of nights returning to work mundane does not cut it , fucking boring does I feel I am working to pay the bills to pay my taxes to buy food so I can go to work to continue on the same path .I need to rethink my life live differently make changes alter my outlook , see the good and the positive things that happens .

HAPPY 2019

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE HOPE 2019 ROCKS FOR ALL .

Well the decorations and Christmas tree are packed away for Christmas this year they will remain in their box until late November early December hopefully we are around to unpack them and see them once more . there will be some out there that won't set their  eyes on them again which is sad , some of us have had our last Christmas that's why it is important to always make it count .

Washed and waxed the car it as not had a proper clean for ages I think it was the dirtiest it has ever been back to looking new again .

Was he all of the vans windows should be good now for a couple of months .

watching season two of "Stranger Things" , I also watched the Netflix film " Bird box " which was ok stuck with it until the end did get a little boring .

Had a turkey roast dinner Helen did her roast potatoes again which was a hit on Boxing Day meal .

There was a few close friends and relatives  that did not make it to 2019 Helen's uncle Ken passed away  a friend graham who gave us the marine rocks for our fish tank , My Brother in law Alan , his father sadly passed away in December and of course my ex wife who passed the day after Boxing Day may you all rest in everlasting peace .

NEW YEAR LOOMS

Totally skint but not really bothered we will manage we always do money helps make life easier is is not the answer to everything saying that I wouldn't say no to a £250 scratch card win , not that I really do scratch cards won a lucky dip on the lottery and £2.60 in cash hopefully the lucky dip will be lucky they never seem to be , I don't think I have ever won on a free lucky dip .

My daughter took us out for a Indian at Kippax we went a few weeks ago the food was just as good this time round , I took four bottles of cider because as it is not licensed for the sale of alcoholic drinks which keeps the price down. I had onion bhaji and a chicken tikka masala with boiled rice and for once manage not to get it down my shirt always a good sign.

SUNDAY
My ex wife's body is now residing at the chapel of rest with the funeral directors who she is entrusted to . She will be cremated on the 10th of January 2019 , may she now and forever rest in peace and hopefully live on in spirit to watch over her children specially her daughter  who as been her pillar and rock over these last few months and weeks especially .

Helen's son was supposed to call round with his mothers gifts for her birthday and Christmas did not happen another no show , needless to say she was upset . So from three grown up sons all working s for Christmas and birthday combined  one fucking present some bath and hand towels from Primark which are not the ones she had asked for so are a totally useless gift more like a slap in the face they will get passed to friends if we are not too embarrassed , binned  or I can use them to dry the car off when I have washed it .

MONDAY .
Bt engineer called this morning just after eight the line running to our box had broken it is now fixed and we are back online running 39 mbps but that will drop.

Need to wash the car it is looking like something out of Mad Max better get the towels ready. I go back to work doing 18.00 - 02.00 for the foreseeable future hopefully after nearly a week off hopefully the first shift back won't drag .

SLOW AGAIN

Happy birthday Helen all the best to my fiancee big hugs and kisses I really  hope you that you have a great and fantastic day I know you will .

My daughter bought Helen  a pair of Cloud Nine hair straighteners , she was overwhelmed she had been wanting pair for ages and had no idea she would be getting a pair  for her birthday she had tears of joy running down her face it was very moving , she looks on my daughter has the daughter she never had which is how it should be.

Surprise surprise broadband playing up again engineer is coming out on Monday New Years eve , if they think it is something we have done  or contributed to its a £85 charge on our next bill , funny how when it was first installed we was getting over 30 mps now a sad 2.85 mps not really fibre connection that we are and have been  paying for is it Bt.

The words below written by my daughter for her mother after she had passed over ,  this was posted on facebook to let her friends hear the sad news of her mothers death
she received 241 likes and 168 comments .

A million times I've needed you , a million times I've cried
if love could have saved you , you never would have died
In life I loved you dearly, in death I love you still
 in my heart you hold a place, no one else can ever fill
it woke my heart to lose you , but you did not go alone
part of us went with you the day he took you home .
27.12.18 the day my mummy turned into an angel  🙏
mum was very peaceful and didn't suffer ,  me and Graham held her hand
I hope your are at peace now mummy I'm so proud of you . I love you so much 💕 forever and ever

NEWS SO SAD

Christmas Day
Finished work Christmas morning at  two a.m yippee  , the turkey went in the oven on a low light as I was setting off from work Helen wanted to wake up to the smell of turkey cooking away .
The sprouts and veg roast sweet potatoes and parsnips we did an hour before we was eating the sprouts where hard not sure why they was boiling away long enough the dinner was fine and filling .
My Daughter bought me two lovely Ben Sherman t-shirts and a bottle of Armani diamonds black carat which smells excellent and a grow your own bonsai tree thank you .

My Ex wife made her Christmas Day dinner with my daughter it was touch and go she made it to the restaurant even if she did not eat loads she had her last ever Christmas dinner , so sad and touching the nurses reckon she will go down pretty fast in the next couple of days ,is  not what anyone wanted to hear.

Hope everyone had a great Christmas time and had good food and drink and hopefully some nice thoughtful gifts , may you all have a brilliant 2019 .

Boxing Day -
Helen's parents came for dinner the pork was cooked perfect the roast potatoes excellent we cut some fresh rosemary from the garden to garnish them whilst they cooked in goose fat .
Helen opened the rhubarb and ginger gin I opened the Jim Beam bourbon .


Wednesday
Went to Trinity and bought Helen a Arc Mini E-cig and some blueberry liquid at 1.0 she thought she was not going to get one she wants to quit on her birthday tomorrow the 28th it is the exact same tank that my daughter uses , hopefully this will help her quit smoking I do hope so .
Hopefully its the best present she will have ever received and will improve her life quality and will give her added years which will be the best gift ever , and it just might save me money as well fingers crossed

Sad sad news my ex wife Angela passed away just before midday today the 27th of December my daughter rang to tell she went peacefully and hopefully pain free at St,Lenards hospice in York  and is now at rest .  Hopefully she is passed over to a better place and is looking after and watching over our daughter which is a Nice thought to have .

TURKEY

DAY BEFORE Christmas Eve - Sunday appoint at the chiropodist done I always walk better after a visit here it is money well spent I now go around ever eight weeks this will be my third visit .

Went to the farm shop bout two turkey joints they are not crowns bit rolled bread its all meat no bones I also got a joint of pork for boxing days meal , and a Stan pie which is a big pork pie along with swede , sprouts , carrots , sausages and milk .

After getting home Helen wanted  go to Asda she also wanted a turkey with legs not sure why we never in twelve years had a full turkey but manage to get a 14lb which is small turkey  the others are in the freezer for new year the food is all bought the presents all wrapped and under the tree we need nothing else , not sure I could afford anything else , I dare not look at my bank account no of the bills and standing orders have been taken out yet ,hopefully I will have a few hundred quid left and the cheque from the tax man arriving in the next several days .

The image below is a painting allegedly a Banksy , and a reminder Christmas is not just about presents its about being with family and being happy for what you have .

STREET LIGHTS

Finished work last night at two went to Asda bought some Jim Beam bourbon thought I would have a change from J.D . Also bought eight bottles of Koppaberg and 10 cans of cloudy apple bottle a bottle of Baileys for Helen ,Christmas cake and a stollen still no Christmas puddings .

Went to the Range shopping outlet and bought some silver chargers for the plates only £1.99 each also got a small carriage lantern and some other silver decorations for the top of the fire place .

Went to visit Helen's son's Kris and ste , Ste is living in a new house with a different partner so much better than the crack head he use to live with , and  the house is more of a home with a garden hopefully he will live there permanently and settle down he also as a new job , doing house removals which is good pay .

Went to my daughters house last , stopped off and bought a fresh pizza to cook for our tea we exchanged gifts and went to see the house lights in Rothwell , which was very good to say we are not in the U.S.A they did the street proud apparently the lights were better and more houses added lights to their homes .

NIGHT SHOPPING

Finished work at 02.00 a.m my pay cheque had gone into my bank thought it be good idea to go to Asda supermarket and get some shopping in for the festive period bought Helen a bottle of rhubarb and ginger gin  by Whitley Neill inspired by the exotic flavours of Africa so it says . It was half past four before I got to bed .

At half past nine we was on our way to the Trinity centre Wakefield the cars queue to enter the car park was long we finally got through the barriers and found a space .
I had to go to Pandora for a charm for my daughters Christmas present , I also  bought some perfume and two bottles of aftershave from Next for family members and for I bought Helen a pair of brown knee length boots and two pairs of jeans .

We also Called in at Sainsbury bought some after dinner mints and some new grey oven gloves , pillows and an grey striped apron and a set of three tea towels also in greys .

On the way back home we stopped at our favourite fish restaurant for dinner got home another three hours and I will be setting off to work .Going to watch a couple of episodes of Stranger Things .

Tonight  after I finish my shift at work I will be back at Asda getting cider and whiskey and other bits and pieces we still require .

IT'S LOOMING

well Christmas is really looming are we ready are we fcuk , another year we are lagging in our preparations we get caught out very year and every year we say next year will be different well it ain't.
we need food all we have bought is cranberry sauce because with rushing around the supermarket its usually forgotten about .
We need the turkey crown we need the veg including sweet potatoes  and sprouts , we also need the pigs in blankets , stuffing maybe a joint of gammon and a beef or pork joint for Boxing Day .

I get my wages paid into the bank Friday morning when I finish at two in the morning I might go straight to the supermarket and get some of the things we need than just go to the farm shop for the meat and turkey .
I also need to go to Pandora to get my daughter some charms for the bracelet her mother is buying her .

Helen sold her antique clock for £60 she is going more modern she also did a couple of readings plus  she also gets her wage paid  from the phone lines .I am waiting for a cheque from the tax office so we should just about scrape through money wise this year ,But  I am getting paid nearly a week early which means next payday is further away fingers crossed.

I don't know if I should get another bottle of spirits I usually get a whiskey and a bourbon I received a bottle of captain Morgan gold from staff at work I do like plenty of liquor coffees at Christmas so decisions decisions . Roll on the new year .

Sad news my brother in law Alan who we went to Ibiza with  his father passed away  on Tuesday one  week before Christmas , he had to go down to Brighton he made it to the hospital and spent the day with him before he passed .

WISHES

Watching the series Cobra Kai its the follow up , to the film the Karate kid watched the first two episodes its quite good.
Have also started watching "Stranger Things " got Helen hooked she watched the whole of season one in one night .
My ex wife is going to come out of hospital and into a hospice this coming Monday  my brother in law's father is also going into a hospice this Saturday he lives down in Brighton ,  hopefully both will get to see Christmas .

Baked a jam pastie and an extra large Christmas mince pastie both of them  turned out excellent the jam pastie reminded me of the jam tarts my mother used to bake back in the day .

Went over to a wooden lodge near Church Fenton Helen had sold some Laura Ashley  bedding online  and we was dropping  it off , we was going to visit Helen's parents so a little detour but it was more or less on our way .
We had our dinner shepherds pie and apple crumble and custard to follow was very nice could have eaten  it again .

Had a very nice surprise the tax man is sending me a cheque out for £130 wished it was for a lot more but it was totally unexpected and being Christmas extra cash is always needed ,

My Daughter is still with her mum in hospital she has hardly left her side for the last week . Hopefully she is going into an hospice this Monday which should make life easier  , She also seems to have improved she is out of bed more and her speech is more coherent she even drank a gin and tonic hopefully this will continue and she will get to spend Christmas with my daughter one last time I know  if this was possible it would make my daughters Christmas wishes come true .

EARNED HER WINGS

Helen had a reading last night and has one tomorrow afternoon she also sold some Laura Ashely bedding which is being picked up tomorrow she wants to buy some grey curtains for the van .

Defrosted some haddock for pan fried fish and chips with a bread cake and baked beans the fish was around £3.50 for four pieces she made some batter and I hand cut  four medium size potatoes for the chips turned out a really nice meal at low cost , I don't know why we don't buy more fish as it is really easy to cook. Still plan on doing a fish curry Indian style need to find an online recipe and get cooking.

Christmas is looming fast need to buy gifts I need to get my Daughters present and a couple of others it is also Helen's birthday on the 28th of December .
We also need to buy all of the food specially the turkey crown .I am working a six - two Christmas Eve I will be home at around two thirty Christmas morning then I am off for the whole of the week.

 A Polish friend at work keeps bringing in bottles of mead  for  me the medieval honey drink that dates back hundreds of years ago it is very nice  tasting drink and of course it is sweet I have a bottle in my car boot which I am saving for Christmas ,I  might also get a bottle of ruby port and a bottle of Bailey's Irish cream and a bottle of pink Gin for Helen , a fair swap.

My Daughter is still keeping vigil at her mothers hospital bed she as been a rock for her , how she is doing it is beyond me she is constantly at her side I don't really know how she does it she is in to her fifth day . I can only guess that  it must be very hard and exhausting physically and mentally and of course extremely upsetting ,but  she is determined to stay with her until she passes over goes without saying I am extremely proud of her , I know she as made a few friends with the nurse looking after her Mum to whom she is extremely grateful to the are doing a great service .

Of course I remember us taking our daughter home from the hospital after she was born it was cold and snowing even so it was a happy day , I remember having to go out in the snow for nappy's and baby milk I had to walk to the shops as the car and roads where snowed in .Twenty seven years later she is with her mum in hospital waiting for her to die , I think she as earned her wings ten times over .
She also went with her for her radiation and chemotherapy treatment she did not miss one appointment plus all the other things she has done , she finds it hard not to cry if she needs to she saves it when she is out of hospital room so her mum does not see her .

LIFE AIN'T CRAP

My daughter phoned me she was distraught she was on the way to York Hospital her Mother had been taken there by ambulance she had collapsed and was unresponsive they thing she had a stroke .
When she got to hospital she was asleep she stay asleep until she dies or wake up or wake up but not be herself.

I really hope she wakes up so that my daughter can spend one last Christmas with her it is unlikely that this will happen but Christmas is a time for miracles or so we are lead to believe so fingers crossed and hopefully prays are answered .

SUNDAY- her mother is doing better she is talking and acknowledging that they are there she is also asking about Christmas and her shop in Pocklington and Jenson her grandson and her cannabis oil  , a

 Her blood pressure is good and she is on a drip but most of all she is battling on and hopefully she will continue to improve and get home for Christmas which would be the best Christmas present that she could give to everyone around her and that knows her.

People say you leave this world with what you come with I have the above tattooed on my right lower leg , I will take my tattoo's with me when I die .


As the day progressed she was given Morphine my daughter stayed with her think she is staying at the hospital I know she laid on her hospital bed by her side she texted me to say her mother held her face and gave her loads of kisses , she said she was happy and peaceful and was in no pain , my daughter told her when ever she wanted to go it was ok to let go I said similar words holding my mothers hand whilst she died , She also rubbed cream into her feet and legs and face which she greatly enjoyed  .Someone said to me today "ain't life crap"  , and I replied  "life ain't crap it's dying that is shit" and cancer is the devil .

I know sometimes people improve they seem  get an extra lease of life a last hurrah , they can get out of bed unaided , watch tv and communicate normally and remember things from their past , but this can also be a sign that death is not too far away .

A BETTER PLACE

Imagine being afraid to go to sleep scared in case you don't wake up then happy when you do knowing you are still alive for at least another day  .
Imaging knowing you have had your last Easter , spring and summer you will never see the leaves on the trees turn brown and drop on to the floor a blanket of multi colours or seeing your last winter of snow and of course Christmas .
 .
All the things that are  left undone you're time finished and you never completed  the book you started  reading , or the film you turned off half way through to go to bed because you had work in the morning and never had time to re watch it ,  its sad we should do the things that we want and don't make excuses for those we don't do we should  live life to the max and retire when you can , down size ,  cash in sell up and spend the kids inheritance  . I know I should follow my own advice who's to say I won't .

They are also in the next few days going visiting a Hospice's basically so when the time comes it is supposed to be more familiar. So  basically you going to see the place were you will die and staff that will  help you to pass on don't think I could be that brave .

Last night at work we had a D.O.A  that was coming via a private ambulance with a police escort they think the deceased was poisoned by his wife and the body was going to have an autopsy performed on it .

Also last night when I was going home at 02.00 am there was a twenty something lad in the lift who was missing his left leg from below the knee he was having a prosthetic limb fitted  the following day he told me that he jumped off a building in the city centre but survived he said "he was in a better place now" .

THREE IN ONE DAY

MONDAY -Primemark  Ikea and B&M all in one day should get a medal can't even remember what we got from B&M .

Ikea shopping bought a light grey sofa cover and a grey rug and some grey seating pads for the kitchen chairs .we also bought some gin fish bowl glasses and other glasses .

TUESDAY - My Mothers birthday she would have been 100 years old .

Ikea two days running took the light grey sofa cover back and swapped it for a dark grey  which I did say when we saw the light grey it was way too light , we also took the rug back we will wait and get the bigger size similar to what we have now but  in grey , which I also mentioned when we placed it in the trolley fcuking typical

Joined Netflix thirty days free was a member years ago thought I would give it another go it cost the same as Amazon prime both combined is still cheaper than Sky or Virgin ., will tide is over for the Christmas period .
Watching The Christmas Chronicles on Netflix and Expedition Happiness which I followed on YouTube , and The Haunting tv series which is hard to follow but not without its good bits .

PAINTING AGAIN

SATURDAY - Went over to my daughters house at Kippax we all went to a local Indian restaurant had a chicken chat and main dish very small but the food was excellent we knew what to expect we had a take away from there during the Summer for six it was just under £90 .
After the meal we went back to her house she coloured and cut Helen's hair and did a grade one on mine thank you .

SUNDAY - Went over to Helen's parents hose painted the kitchen and did some repainting of the decorating we id the previous Sunday one more days work they know want the bathroom white .



CHRISTMAS  - People ask what I want for Christmas I have no real need for anything if I had a load of cash and had to spend it on me what would I get .Guess I could do with some new jeans and trainers and some long sleeved shirts , I had a long sleeved shirt on the other week and my daughter bless her really loved it beats wearing t-shirts all the time so half a dozen shirts would be nice .Along with some nice fitting comfy leather loafers in a nice brown colour a few pairs of comfy warm  wool socks in a nice pattern to go with a nice wool overcoat .


Some high quality Bose headphones and a new mp3 music player instead of using my phone maybe a  Astell & Kern AK70.I think I am more likely to get a iPad Pro than a new Mac book .Other than tech a nice five year diary or a pair of leather gloves other than that spirits and chocolate are always good .