Two more sleeps alone then its Thursday and she flies back home . I finished work early tonight at six o clock due to a meeting so I left the car parked at the hospital and walked in to town. its only a ten minute walk to get me to the other side went to No1 Chinese buffet and pigged out had chicken and sweetcorn soup to start with plus prawn crackers loaded my plate with loads of deep fried chicken pieces , noodles and chicken wings also fried mushrooms , chips, and curry sauce twice over , it was followed by three scoops of ice cream and a bottle of Woodpecker cider

Cant believe it is nearly here as the first week went way too slow been like a kid waiting for Christmas , this week has not been that bad compared to week one and its gone faster especially since last Friday but its still been fourteen days too long and fourteen days that i can never get back , but i am going to have a good go at doing it.

I think we should go and book a holiday for next year even if its self catering as long its somewhere half decent and hot , i know if we decide and book then we will save up and go , if we don't book it we wont budget for it , although we are going to the Isle of Mann to her brothers wedding for a week i think next June or July .

Got up this morning and within fifteen minutes i was in the car on my way to work getting excited all ready and Helen does not fly back home until Thursday night, and will arrive back in Leeds at around half past five i don't think i will be getting much sleep myself i know i am going to be on edge until her plane as took off and landed safely.

Things i have realised since Helen has been gone.

• I don't want to be with anyone else.
• I made the right decision to be with her.
• The house is too big without her.
• Shopping for one is sad.
• The bed is way too big without her.
• Dont want to be a startfish any longer.
• A house is not a home without her.
• Going to bed early is no get out clause for missing her.
• There is no subsitute for having a Bum to slap kiss and cuddle up to.
• I truly appreciate more than ever what she did to be with me.
• She's the one that makes happy glad and most of all makes me smile.
• doing what you want when you want doesn't make it easier .
• No other woman comes close.
• She is unique individual that cant be replaced.
• watching TV on your own is boring.
• Not having a conversation makes for a quite house.
• The time we have together is precious.
• I never want to be without her

Saturday
Went to work Helen text me she has blisters on her back and had to go to the clinic for some cream also something to make her go to the toilet she has not been for seven days . I worked from seven until three o clock which made the day go faster , when i got home and did some cleaning the kitchen and bathroom and vacuumed the rooms and hallways i also cleaned Button the Rabbit out and feed him/her i can never remember what sex we bought
phoned Helen's mum i have been invited round for Sunday dinner one o clock tomorrow
watched TV had a call from Helen which made my night , cooked some tea a frozen pasta meal did some chips had a bottle or two of pear cider and watched Stigmata on Sky TV then went to bed .

Sunday
Work up just after half past eight no work today its going to rain again , i put the weeks washing and i did some did ironing read a text of Helen sent her one regarding us going to Vegas her in white satin shirt with pink fish nets it was something i said to her a few years ago and it still rings true she will understand what i am saying . rearranged the tracks on my Nokia phone listen to them on a night whilst i am cleaning away take me to another dimension not really there when its sunny and i am listening to some good tunes its amazing how music takes you to where ever you want to go depending to what and who you are listening to and where it is you want go to and who it is you want to be with once you get there it works for me, i cant believe not every one has a i -pod or mp3 players and there is people out there that i nohow don't own a digital camera even though they have a pc weird or what unbelievable.

somethings i have not done whilst i have been on my own

• Had fish and chips
  
• gone to bed after midnight
• burnt any oil or incense
  
• bought any cigs ( i don't smoke , i do buy them for a certain lady)
• had a kiss or cuddle
  
• woke up beside any body
  
• made two cups of tea
• heard no one talking in their sleep or snoring
  
• had the central heating on
  
• gone midnight shopping at Asda
• laughed out loud
  
• made love
  
• had to wait for the bathroom
  
• watched certain TV programmes
• snuggled up to a certain voluptuous warm body
  
• lighted any candles
• gone to Ikea for hot dogs
  
• bought anything for the house
  
• rushed home from work

Went round to Helen's parents house dinner was spot on roast beef Yorkshire pudding roasted sweet potatoes and parsnips boiled potatoes and home made gravy only thing missing was of course Helen she was in the Red Sea snorkeling looking at all the beautiful fish and marine life tomorrow she is off swimming with dolphins and turtles nice work if you can get it .

Rain , rain and more rain for today and the rest of the weekend grey and gloomy , usually I want the weekend to go slowly, but this one I want it to fly by and for it to be Monday the start of the last week and final few days before Helen returns home. I think I am going to be more worried about her flying home than I was when she was flying out.


I just want to know she as landed safely and to hear her key turn and open our front door , or to get a phone call from her asking to pick her up from where ever she might be no distance too great to travel.

Need to get in to town over the weekend i need a hair cut and need some t-shirts and other bits and pieces want to get a couple magazines to read.

Have been thinking since last weekend about deleting the whole blog and starting again i have saved the whole of the blog to pen drive so the last few years will be recorded as a personal diary which i can read when i like and in a way its nice to start a fresh , i know i did it in real life i will think about it over the weekend before i permanently delete it or leave it and continue with it .. should it stay or should it go .

Feel better this morning the next four days are going to be cloudy dull with showers and rain which will suit the way i feel I want to get to Friday night without it dragging as the weekend will go faster , and i am working Saturday and if i can will do the Sunday too.


Bank holidays are coming up and i have booked some extra days off from both of my jobs, the first is a week this Friday Helen should be back in Leeds at around five am.

Also because its the bank Holidays, we get both the Monday and Tuesday off we get paid early which is a bonus.
Meet my Nephews in the local pub to watch the Leeds game i have no interest in football but would have liked to have seen them win but they lost so no promotion for another year.
Was i good night have arrange to meet mark again either Sunday or one night next week a cheap curry and a pint sounds good to me .

Helen sent me a photo she looked gorgeous cant wait for next week to finally get here, she also looks well relaxed and chilled ,and i bet she get the holiday blues big time when she flies back to rainy, credit crunch England , and hopefully she will insist on emigrating insist on living on a tropical island where we can live in a thatched hut , catch fish grow vegetables and pick fruit form the tropical forest and drink the local brew.

This week as dragged beyond believe i know it must be going quicker at Helen's end but this end its so very boring without her , and i am stuck in routine of work and sleep well almost , its ground hog day , and doing another week is going to do my head in hopeful it will go a lot quicker because the end is in sight hope to be going for a few beers just might get rat arsed and go to work late tomorrow use some flexi time up that will make the day go faster .

When i got home the evening went pretty fast did tea watched a hour TV and was in bed again for just after half eleven , sleep makes it all go faster.

Waking up too early on a morning since Helen has been away , usually around four o clock saying that i have been going to bed well before our usual time of around one half one and i never draw the curtains which doesn't help .

Helen sunburn does not seem to be has bad as i first thought as she is back on the beach but in the shade , she text me this morning saying she has now slipped a disc in her back she has had numerous problems over the years with her back regarding her slipped discs and sciatica and takes strong pain killers which usually kick in and do the trick.

Been listen to the ost from the film The Beach i up loaded it on to the i-pod that Helen took away with her later during the morning i got a text saying her favorite song to remind her of her time in Egypt was of the same album was Beached by Angelo Badalamneti & Orbital.

I have to say although i have been better coping without her than i thought i would although its dragging oh so very slow mainly it goes slower at work.

Once i am home with our and her things around obviously they are items of Helen that are purely her like her dressing gown make up under ware i don't think she will mind me wearing them then i am more at ease once as i get back to our house i know how a vampire must feel returning to its coffin or a mummy back to is to its sarcophagus i feel more relaxed and calm .




My sisters called round tonight and brought me some bottles of Magners cider and some toiletries , free gifts always appreciated thank you both and call again anytime.Get tonight done and half way there just about yippee this time next week i am going to be buzzing again miss you babe .

At least it was sunny this morning when i got up went to work Helen texted me she has been out too long in the sun and was suffering , i don't think she told me the full extent of her sunburn i think she is in a lot of agony and pain ,when i spoke to her later around eleven thirty last night the time there on she was in bed and i had woke her up , hopefully if she keeps in the shade she be OK .Took Guy back home and Bandit after i finished work last night at eight thirty , when i got back home i opened a tin of Tesco beef curry a microwavable rice and a couple of nan breads.

Worked today seven while three and whilst i was at work i got a photo sent from Helen via her phone who needs to wait for a postcard she was sunning herself on the Red Sea coast in Egypt i could see the pyramid's well two of them , she was supping cocktails listen to Bob Marley which cheered me up no end ...i texted her back begging for more and i texted her telling her that if she was to send me a topless shot of herself each day that she could stay another week ,hope she realised i was o/j she's better in the flesh f2f although she does photograph well .

Guy staying tonight with me and the dog Bandit who as been good as gold , its just another excuse Guy needs not to go to School i will let him this once and i will take him back tomorrow night after i finish work at half eight.

Went to Tesco express at Clarence Dock bought a few essentials then we walked by the canal to Leeds city centre called into Burger King got a couple of hamburgers for Guy and a couple of cheese burgers for myself fries and a coke, ,went to visit my sister Irene then picked Bandit up and went back down to the canal at Rodley this time walked in the opposite direction had to rush back so Guy could watch the TV series Lost on sky TV.

I got a phone call of Helen she done a bit too long in the sun and was suffering slightly TOLD HER NOT TO BURN HER WINGS ...........

Finished work last night at half eight it did drag got there in the end thank god for mp3's went to pick up my Son Guy and my dog Bandit from my old house , we got back to my house just after nine went to Ceasers for a Indian take away Guy like Helen eats only kormas never mined he will grow out of it .then we had to go back out to get him some cigs same again just like Helen good job i love them both .Watched die hard again saw before guy was born its that old scary it was being shown on sky i got to bed around one , was not sure if i was working this morning or not i went in to work to find out i was until three.

Paid Helen's phone bill for her she gave me her bank card to draw the money out i paid it using mine, Will draw the money out from her account if and when i need it.

Still missing Helen the house not the same without her in it being here and it as made me realise even more that its not bricks and mortar that make a home , i quoted that previously in a post and its certainly not possessions although a mobile phone with a camera and pc i couldn't live without , but its the person you choose to share it with to eat your meals and go to sleep with and to laugh and smile with to kiss and hold not because you have to do it because you want to do it.

My Dad's brother got buried at York yesterday seven people turned up that's not including him , i believe that's six more than i will mo0re than likely get , the only person i want there is Helen another thing i have realised since she has been gone don't ever want to live life without her don't want her popping off before me , she still thinks that she wont make it pass 53 years of age from what she was told to her by a spiritualist years ago and she does believe it perhaps if she had stayed in the life she had that might have been the case.. i still believe we control our own destiny and destiny changes as we do its got to change and its got to evolve , that makes sense that's logical .

Need to go get food , need to go buy Kat Von D tattoo book from HMV for thirteen pound , need to get gas and electric plus pear cider .

Went to see my Nephew Mark over at Greengates he is living with a girl he has had enough with just had a new kitchen fitted so we had a beer with him , then went to KFC wont want another one of them for two months at least i finally went home picked Bandit up my Jack Russell and drove down to the canal at Rodley near to where we use to rent our first proper house after leaving the apartment at Clarence Dock.

Got day one over with, I was relieved when I eventually got a text off Helen saying that the plane had landed and they was out of the airport on the way to the hotel .
When Helen got to the room they sent up pizza and drinks for her which was good , for some reason they never got feed on the plane.

Went to Tesco on the way home from my evening job just after half eight I got a few things some curry , ice cream, and chocolate biscuits. I got home to a empty house changed some off the water in the gold fish tank then did some ham and egg mayo sandwiches phoned my Son Guy I am picking him up tonight after I finish work.
Watched a bit of TV then went to bed after, I had put some photos that i had printed the last few weeks in a large pine picture frame and Placed it on top off the fire place in our bedroom which was only fitted the other week by Helen and her Dad directly at the foot of our bed .

Eventually got to sleep to wake up at four o clock this morning checked my phone no texts tried to go back to sleep missing Helen can’t live without her hate her being away although I did agree and was happy to let her go , as she did need a good break and us both going away was not possible , it doesn’t make her not being here any less painful.

last night was not too bad got through it OK , put a load of tracks on a spare I-pod for Helen to take with her to Egypt and sorted her out with the digital camera and memory cards.
Went for a Panini later on in the evening then watched a bit of TV, finally got to sleep well after two .

This morning was difficult I had a lump in my throat and felt sad and blue , I will be happier when I know she has safely landed in Egypt and got to her resort .




I have already booked some time off for Helen's return home , plus it’s also the bank holiday and we get the Monday and Tuesday off I have booked the Friday before and following Wednesday off although Helen will be working the weekend shift at the Hospital the day after she gets back to the U.K .

Helen has been texting me messages all morning i got one just before eleven o clock this morning telling me that she was just approaching Manchester Airport , safe journey Angel , i also got text from my twin sister that our Uncle my Dads surviving brother died at the weekend that's another clan member gone ....R.I.P Harry hope you meet up with Ted.


Another text of Helen she as been charged ninety pound for her suitcase being too heavy what a twat not a great start curse of the Pharaoh's and she ain't even there yet .Helen's flight left at 14.18pm and should land around eight o clock its just over five and a half hours flight time.

I am not working tonight i have taken tonight off as annual leave, as Helen leaves for Manchester Airport to jet of to Egypt tomorrow morning , after i leave for work this Thursday I wont see Helen again for two whole weeks fourteen days and nights .

There was a person on the radio the other day and their partner was going away for four months , quarter of a year how crap is that i be devastated that is a life time for anyone out there who is separated from your loved one , i hope your coping OK and waiting for the day that your reunited to come quickly you do have my sympathy , is there any secret on making the time go quickly i guess not , i suppose two weeks compared moths and years to that is nothing a drop in the ocean and easy manageable , still i have never been away from her or not seen her for that length of time since August 2007.
Once she goes and gets there safely then the quicker she comes home , its another bar of chocolate this one has only fourteen pieces at one piece a day its a good job i love chocolate .
I have bought her a St .Christopher pendant and a guardian Angel coin to take with her for safe travelling and prevention of any harm.

Here are some pictures with the new Nokia E71 taken Saturday morning just after seven am after i had dropped Helen of at work taken around the canal basin at Granery Wharfe

This time next week will be waking up on my own and for the following thirteen mornings after that i don't know if going to bed on your own is worse than waking up on your , i own dont want to have to get used to either of these options.

others things i will hate during the two weeks is eating meals on my own, coming home to a empty house,watching TV on my own not speaking and no hugging and kissing



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20 facts regarding Helen.


1. Dyes her hair blonde every six weeks.


2. Reads tarot cards.


3. Uses two tea bags to make her cup of tea.


4. Puts her toast in the fridge before she butters it.


5. Talks in her sleep constantly.


6. Sees spirits most every day.


7. Loves interior design and has a good eye for detail.


8. Loves Enya Enigma and dance music.


9. Sends and receives text messages constantly.


10. Hates ironing refuses to do it .


11. Makes a wicked banana cake .


12. At the Indian Will only every eat chicken korma curry.


13. Does not drive.


14. Loves going for late night drives.


15. Craves chicken Panini sandwiches with mozzarella cheese.


16. Does not own a I-pod.


17. Loves the country side.


18. Adores homemade egg mayonnaise sandwiches in brown bread.


19. Sleeps on the left hand side of the bed.


20. Only works at the weekends.


21. Likes the sound of the birds signing their morning and evening song.


22. Loves midnight shopping at Asda.



23. goes no where without her make up on .



24. washes her hair every day .



25. Wants to live in a cottage in a small village someday.

One week today Helen flies to Egypt for two weeks , I am not looking forward to her being away i am starting to feel sick and sad , she is my soul mate and makes my life worth living being without her is going to hurt .I will take one day at a time and every day that's passes is one day nearer to her returning home.I never want to be part from her again and i hope i never are , it will be difficult working , eating and sleeping even though she wont be far from my thoughts and how ever many miles or continents separate us she will still be with me.

when we first started seeing each other we both had the same Samsung phones then we new phones on 18 month contract i got my LG Viewty and Helen had a Sony Ericison before she dropped it down the toilet had to get another cheap Samsung that she has never liked that much , our o2 contracts are now up for renewal and Helen as got a new Nokia 6600 slide which came today and i i have a Nokia E71 which will come tomorrow we both have 600 texts and 600 minutes and free calls to o2 numbers all for under twenty pounds a month think Helen has unlimited texts on her contract.

Started assembling the first of double wardrobes last night got the sides top and bottom panels fitted , did the hanging rail and curved head pieces I got the back panels which I screwed instead of nailing because it was nearly midnight, I fitted the first door which has a cover lath to hide the gap of the doors when they are both shut and has holes pre drilled to screw this lath in to place that’s when I noticed that the other door was exactly the same they have sent two right handed doors and not a pair of doors. Like I said to Helen don’t worry about it as we have not paid for them yet they will change the door to the one we require .Opened up the other wardrobe box to check its contents and it was packed correctly I will get that one assembled tonight.



Had Baxter’s Royal Game soup last night for tea with toast I use to have this with my father when I was growing up he has been dead nearly twenty five years another favourite of his which he always had for breakfast was brown bread and thick cut orange marmalade.

Went to the solicitors just before dinner and paid forty pounds for my so the absolute can be completed by the courts , when this is done I am a single again. I felt happy when I walked out of the solicitors reception I was elated, high and quite buzzing it made me realise even more that what I have done is 100% right, and that I don’t have any regrets what so ever and I am with the person I want to be with more than any other person , and I am truly madly deeply in love with Helen who has given me a new lease of life , I thank you baby.

Went to Max spielmann afterwards and got another mixture of photographs printed of my memory stick which added up to another 18 pictures for £7.92

Got home last night and Helen's dad was fitting the Victorian fire place we picked up from Sheffield.
Had to re cut the skirting board and the quadrant , it looks well and finishes the bedroom of nicely .
Hopefully tonight will get at least one of the double wardrobes completed, if not both of them this will finish our bedroom off apart from new bay windows and Central heating which will have to wait untill funds allow.This will be more or less one room completed.

FRIDAY

The Mexican furniture arrived when I got home after my shift at the hospital Helen's parents where at the house her father had ripped out the carpet and underlay from the dining room the house is now void of all carpet and had started to assemble the dining table and six chairs.
We had a Chinese take away roast duck in plum sauce x 3 and one with ginger and spring onions, prawn toast onion rings and crackers ,we completed the table after we had finished eating. After they had left I assembled the TV cabinet .




SATURDAY

Built the pine dresser and blanket chest after I went to work at the Hospital half past nine until four o clock in the afternoon we slept on the floor of the living room we do have a large brown rug Helen had repainted our bedroom floor black and we wanted it to dry hard before we walked on it we slept on the duvet and pillows.

SUNDAY

Went to the tip got rid of carpets and some card board boxes filled the car assembled two chest of drawers with a total of 10 drawers to assemble which took a few hours in between went over to Sheffield to pick up a Victorian cast iron fire place we bided for on eBay and bought for £46. Helen reainted this more or less as soon as we got it home it will be fitted in our bedroom whilst she did this i built two bedside cabinets for our bedroom. The only things left to build is two double wardrobes I will have to do these hopefully Monday night.

Took yesterday off as annual leave , I ripped out the fitted wardrobes from our bedroom they went all across the bedroom wall , covering both the alcoves and chimney breast .
Our bedroom now looks massive and the bay window looks totally different too. Filled in all the screw holes and dents etc and manage to give it a coat of paint we was painting well after half past twelve last night this morning. Also yesterday I ripped up the carpet under lay and lino from the living room we now only have carpet in the dining room which is on borrowed time .had to make two trips to the tip to dump all the waste .Also we had to pick Helen's son up from school the school rang Helen that has he was not feeling well and could she collect him , he too helped us do the carpets he felt better as soon as he left the school grounds and got to our house.
Now at this moment in time we have no cooker no carpets and no gas fire its getting more like a student squat every day at least we have no carpet mites cheaper fuel bills every cloud .Will get there one day, its still good fun and i am still madly deeply in love with a special lady i have no regrets and want to love to no one else but Helen,

Helen goes to Egypt a fortnight tomorrow for two weeks all I know it’s going to be weird hard and I will be at a loose end without her by my side since I left home to be with her I have never been apart from her for that length of time, I am not going to enjoy the experience.
Looking after myself cooking and cleaning does not bother me I can take care of me quite easily when the need arises , and no doubt it be Helen will do stuff before she jets off.

The difficulty will be missing her, not seeing her smile not speaking to her laughing with her and not being able to hug and kiss her all I know it’s going to be a long 14 days and nights.
Even work won’t be the same has I text her and phone her numerous times during the course of day as well as emailing one another.

I will have to fill my days doing stuff I don’t normal do , go to the canal visit parts that I have never walked on , see more of my Son if he is free to stay over have a couple of days off both weeks to break the weeks up.
Get more photos printed and do my clip art frame, read a few books and magazines, go out and take more photos of Leeds try and scrounge a few home cooked meals with family and friends. Clean the house top to bottom do some painting and other repairs here and there,and count the days one day at a time and wait for her safe return .

Got a load of Mexican pine furniture coming this Friday for the living room , dining room and our bedroom including wardrobes drawers and bookcases and tv stand .
Got Thursday off annual leave , this is to rip out the wardrobes out of our alcoves and chimney breast and move stuff around,hope they do get delivered Friday or we are going to be left with one big mess and no storage space at all.will need to repaint walls ceiling and floor once the alcoves are back to the original layout of the room.
I think I will be only working one day this weekend either the Saturday or the Sunday
So I have one day to get everything assembled and in situ hopefully without any hiccups.

MONDAY
This morning we set of for Cheddar , got that sat nav programmed in and updated , the egg mayo sarnies where freshly made, Helen insists on cutting them into quarters, along with two flasks, one coffee one tea.First stop petrol station filled up and started to head south we left at half past ten.only stopped off once on the way at a service station and got to cheddar at around half past two .I was impressed parked up three pound all day to park ,the views and scenery around us it was idyllic the rocks and cliffs with the road meandering through the gorge was as good as the Lakes or Scotland.




we called in to a few shops and walked down in to the rest off the village .called in for a chicken panini with cheese at Edelweiss cafe , i want to buy some scrump cider, i have never had cider other than stuff that's sold and bought from supermarkets and local off licence


Left just after five o clock , to set of for Bristol to stay at our Friends house about 20 miles away. On route we stopped at Priddy close to the gorge , where Diana Dors lived ,and is buried at the local church in unmarked grave so we are told.



Thanks to to the sat nav got to Bristol and the house we are staying at for the next two nights with out a hitch, We are staying in the summer house which was at the bottom of there garden and was built by hand not from a kit or pre assembled for under £1600.
We was on a sofa bed it was warm it was all electric with heaters and spot lights , and the bed wasn't that bad most of all it was free thank you Kerri and Paul ,we slept ok, it was a new experience made me think about converting our garage in to a summer house or guest house we cant get the Landrover in because of the drive and up and over garage doors.




Tuesday
went to Morrison's at Bristol for breakfast and headed for Illfracombe about 112 miles away. Helen bought me a silver ring which was very touching and will always remind me of our visit to Cheddar .

Called at Lynton and Lynmouth all these places Helen had been to before for me i had never been this far south for years and had never been to these villages and towns i have to say everywhere we went i loved and i want to go back and visit more places in Cornwall and coastal villages and towns as soon as we can .




WEDNESDAY
Heading over to Surrey later today to pick the fireplace that we bought of eBay went back to Cheddar had a great breakfast at this cafe everything was locally produced a apart from the baked beans.Bought a cask of scrumpy and we headed of to Surrey to pick the fire up just after twelve o clock 223 miles away finally go to the address and loaded the fire place and surround into the car just fit headed back to Leeds.

SATURDAY
Dropped Helen of at work she had spent until well after midnight last night at A&E with her son Liam he was having problems again with his heart racing and him feeling unwell,he got the ok from the doctors and was sent home.I went to Temple Newsham with my son Guy took quite a few photos of him climbing trees and walls until i dropped him off at two o clock.
picked Helen up at three and then went over to york to see the Ragdoll kittens and pay a deposit for our two cats which was one hundred pounds they will be ready in early June .
SUNDAY
Both of us worked until three o clock chilled out in the afternoon helen went to bed i washed my freelander at eightwe went over to Greengates to my Nephew Mark and his partner Sue for Sunday dinner we had been invited because they have just had a new kitchen fitted and had also invited my two sisters and there partners we had chicken and pork and all the trimmings some of the vegetables eaten where organic and were fresh out of the allotment Sue tends to and she as on rent from the council which i s £15.00 a year we still have not got a cooker so any offers of food and Sunday dinners never get turned down.

Helen made our Easter tree like she id last year we have more eggs on this years tree and hopefully there will be more eggs on next years tree as well button our rabbit was bought on Good Friday last year instead of a Easter egg .

Guy stayed last night picked him up after i finished work at half past eight.Today Helen and i both worked together at the Creche buffing the floors we worked until three o'clock , after got home and had a coffee i went with Guy to see Fast and Furious 4 at the Showcase cinema it was ok saw the trailer for the new terminator film which looked worth going to see along with the new x-men film wolverine.

Last night when i finished work i picked up Helen from home at around half eight and we went over to Doncaster to pick up a cat PlayStation with platforms and scratch poles that Helen had bid for and won on eBay for a tenner. They sell for around £70 I got the sat nav out and keyed in post code of the ebay seller , and set off after i had eaten two chicken and mozzarella toasties with cherry tomatoes... got there without a hitch got to say the sat nav has got to be one of the best presents i have ever had, its worth its weight in gold. Again it would have took us ages to find the address if we had not got a tom tom to guide us .just need our kittens we are going back over to York this coming Saturday to pay the deposit for the ragdoll kittens although it wont be June until we have them.

Got a plan for next week hope it all pans out as we would like it to, Monday set of for Bristol at around half seven in the morning leave Leeds we are staying overnight at Bristol with a friend we worked with at the hospital a few years ago.

She stayed with us when she did card readings for people we know. She is going to put us up in a summer house that they have, what they class as a summer house I have no idea hopefully it as a electric supply and is half warm with no leaking roofs. We are hoping that we can a wrangle another night and stay Tuesday night as well even if its freezing and the roof leaks , if that is possible we can then we can spend a full day from eight in morning till ten at night in cheddar.

Take loads of photos and get some local brewed pear cider , a decent Cornish pasty or two plus fish and chips, crab Sandwiches waffles and scone jam and cream yum yum yum then Wednesday get go over to surrey to pick the fire place and fire up we won on eBay then drive back to Leeds totally knackered but happy.

Helen put all the plants and shrubs that she bought from B&Q in the front garden yesterday afternoon.
She bought them the day that we took Ellie to the re-homing centre last week . Also Helen planted over two hundred bulbs that we bought from Selby market last year ,they should pop up during the coming summer months , she weeded all of the weeds from the borders as well as lawn ,she swept all of the drive and paths and also weeded the back garden, needless to say she was totally knackered .

Breaking up this Thursday from job number one, I am working good Friday at job number two which is the hospital job .I do this shift is only from 9.00am until 15.00pm so it’s still a early finish I am not sure what shift I am down to do at the weekend I have Monday Tuesday and Wednesday off from both jobs three days no work plus I have Thursday and Friday off from job number one.

we have to pick up the pine fire place and gas fire that we won on eBay from Surrey one day next week which won’t be Easter Monday.

FRIDAY
Helen let our rabbit Button out of its hutch in to the garden its been coped up for ages she did this afternoon she let it out of its cage and now its been out for hours she will not go back in to her cage,so we have had to let it stay out so she is going to be out all night as we are off to bed .Hopefully it cant get out of the garden and nothing can get in to the garden to hurt it, the mad bunny.
SATURDAY
didn't work until twelve o clock i still dropped Helen of at seven o clock went home then went in to town bought three black t-shirts from Primark and six pairs of black socks finished work at half past six.

Finally got the rabbit Button in we trapped it using the plastic washing laundry basket, i quickly grabbed it and it kicked and scratched but i quickly turned it on to its back all rabbits go quite docile and wont struggle when you do this to them they stop trying to get away try it if you don't believe it, i then put her back in to her hutch safe and well .

Helen and myself went to meet my two sisters and their partners in the owl pub at Rodley near to where we use to live had a bottle of pear cider,from there we went to the Karachi curry house in Bradford had a meat curry a chicken korma three chapattis two poppadoms 2 portions of onion bahjees one pilau rice and one portion of chips £14.80 for the two of us .

SUNDAY
Dint go to work Helen booked a days holiday went over to york to see some kittens at two different locations some over at whenby one side of york which looked like it was something out of wrong turn and the cats didn't fair much better the cats and dogs all together in the garden that looked like the dingles would turn there nose up at.
The second lot of kittens faired much better and were Ragdolls, the lady who kept them loved them all dearly she had numerous kittens and cats , some just a few days old some a month old and other weeks old we have picked two kittens from different litters and bloodlines a Tom and a Queen seeing that we are going to have a go at breeding them.

we go back in two weeks to pay deposit and to make sure they are both living one of the female we have chosen is only a few days old and we don't even know how her true colours or markings be until she is a few weeks older.

Went to two different pet shops and bought a new litter tray to go on the landing a cat carrier for transport and trips to the vet , and round orb like wicker cat sleeping basket its on a stand to keep it of the floor out of draughts and it can roatate to what postion you want this only cost nearly fifty pounds which Helen saw it fell in love with it and bought it.

Went to the red bus cafe on the A64 on the way back home,this was at around half past two and we had a late breakfast still as good as ever everthing cooked to perfection.

Received letter from solicitor requesting forty pounds to pay to the court for my absolute completing i will have to sort it out and drop in to his office and pay the amount early next week I want to be totally free I don’t want to be married for one day longer than I need to be , i will be as free as Helen is , and we be two single people living together.

The house is really quite without Ellie its strange coming home and her not barking and running up to the door the kitchen looks bigger without her bed and food bowls. Helen spent all day yesterday cleaning the house from top to bottom, think it was mainly to get rid of any trace of Ellie which I cant blame her for.

Yesterday got two text messages of Helen stating that our westie is uncontrollable and mental. It’s been getting more aggressive lately, to the point that you can’t even leave the room without it attacking you , barking and generally going crazy. Enough is enough , so we have made a decision to let it go.

It constantly follows Helen every where she goes in the house, she can’t even go to the toilet without it following her it even gets in the shower when she washes her hair or has a proper shower .

we have had enough and the neighbour's must be sick of hearing it bark and yap we cant leave the door open it goes out side and creates anyone that passes the gate , it barks at or any noise that it hears and it sets it off.

I booked it in to rescue centre to get it re housed , we went along yesterday afternoon to drop it off , i finished work early , it was sad but the choice was made by the dog by its own bad behaviour.

A pet at the end of the day is suppose to relax and calm you down and be a pleasure to have and own, not to agitate and wind you up and get to the stage where you could lose you patience with it on a hourly basis. it was dropped of and we went home to peace and quite it was strange this morning not having it around but we will adjust.

Helen picked up a load of plants to go in to the garden at the front of the house.

I went to Max Spielmann and printed some photographs of from a memory stick using the kodak in house photo both one of my memory sticks it wouldn't recognise that it had been connected but the other one i had with me was fine.

I was impressed with the quality and the time it took to complete my order, and the price of 45p a photo i felt was right, i just had eighteen done to see how they turned out , i now plan on making regular trips to get more done i will need to invest and buy a big clip art frame for the dining room wall i want to change the frame as and when i get more printed, you can guess who they are mostly of.

Been looking online at exotic cats breeds we thinking of getting two that we can breed from, it be another source of income and be better than having another dog Helen would look after the litter of kittens when i was at work .

Back to the building society today to draw out more money to pay more fcuking bills, i got the council tax bill to pay which is £134, also sky TV package to pay for which is £38 and the 2nd payment for our TV license which is £27 .

When i got up this morning i went to the local shop AND put £30 on the gas metre card and £20 on the electric metre as well.

Yesterday i paid £98 mobile phone bill WHICH WAS WELL OVER TWO MONTHS DUE .

I paid the mortgage I have with Helen which is £808 Thursday last week , and paid £500 on my joint mortgage with the ex wife on the Friday as well . on top of all this I have £160 a month car repayments and £75 for insurances for house and contents and life insurance.

I got paid £1408 from my main job and £902 from my second employment I have food and diesel to get me to and from work for another three weeks at this moment in time I have £738 in my building society account.

we have to collect a gas fire and pine fire surround which have slate back and hearth o pick up over Easter holidays that we won on Ebay, winning bid £105 , the thing is we have to go down to Surrey to collect it yippee , Helen bought me a Tom-tom sat nav for last Christmas, we have used it a few times on various journeys and they do save time and money since you don’t go miles out of your way or get lost.

Other interesting things I did today I bought six free range duck eggs and had my haircut, who now says my life is boring .

After having her Mobile phone disconnected for the last fifteen days , Helen has finally managed to pay her mobile phone bill and it was finally reconected and switched back on mid afternoon today , this is a new record for her mobile being disconnected by her provider which just happens to be the same as mine o2.

Saturday afternoon went to the White Rose shopping centre , this was after Helen had finished work at half past one.When we got there no where to park it was full as far as the eye could see everywhere was grid locked , cars waiting to park up and cars waiting to leave, cars trying to back out of spaces to exit, but no space to move in to. Nothing was leaving and nothing was moving any great distancesfor minutes at a time we was more or less stationary, after twenty minutes Helen got out of the car and went in the shopping mall, She called in to Debenham's to get some foundation and blusher which was well forty four quid, she should have stayed in the car , she came back to the car as I still had her debit card i borrowed it the night before when i went to the garage for some cigs , I was more or less in the same place she went back again and made her purchase , she also went to Gregg's for pasties egg mayo sanrnies and coke .she returned back to the car , I had moved fifty yards it took another fifty minutes to exit and get on the dual carriage way and home ward bound we was nearly hour and a half stuck in a bloody car park least we had our pasties’ and coke and egg mayo .

Helen is now addicted to Panini’s she loves the chicken and mayo ones with a order of side salad and fries , we get them from a pizza take away near to where we use to live over Farsley. She had one Saturday night and one Sunday night so I had to join he and was forced in to getting my fav two nights running also doner kebab meat and fries with cheese and chili sauce, quite a few calories i know worse thing going for fat and cholesterol a heart attack every mouthful.

Paid my o2 bill this dinner time £98.11p ouch it is for two months billing, I don’t know how I got away with it so long without getting my phone blocked , good excuses I guess, as i stopped direct debit ages ago and closed my then existing bank account,so can’t pay over the phone or online,without debit or credit card atm I have neither, you can’t even go into a o2 shop and pay your bill over the counter is that utterly stupid or what .

They had to send me a giro payment slip so I could walk in to a bank and pay, it which I had to ask for twice, my contract is up in may looking at o2 simplicity sim card over 12 month contract to me look like some very good deals on offer stick with my original hand set LG viewty which does me for the time being.

Helen as been busy leading the windows the lead cost £15.00 for a fifty metre roll we bought two rolls.bought a Mexican pine coffee table second hand like new for forty pounds for the living room .Helen also has been busy staining the banister again we are going to paint the spindles cream .

Opened a new bank account with the Yorkshire bank will get a card to make withdrawals from the hole in the wall the Leeds building society don't issue hole in the wall cards which makes life difficult all i have is a pass book and can only make withdraw ls by physically going in to the branch .Both wages did go in to the Leeds account i was worried they wouldn't, one wage went in on the Thursday and one in on the Friday none went in to the old account with the Halifax.

This morning I took Helen to our doctors so she could get her inoculations for her holiday to Egypt, she flies out on the 7th of May for two weeks
Helen hates needles although she does have two tattoos on her lower back ,for the last couple of days she has been losing sleep over having to get her holiday jabs done .
She needed to have two injections one in each arm , I held her hand and kissed her whilst she looking away from the nurse and was being injected two times.

I then had to drop her off home had a quick cup of coffee with her before I left for work. at least today will go that bit faster.

I got a email of Helen saying whilst she was out she passed a second hand/charity shop and spotted a large antique pine mirror it maybe second hand but it will still be new to us and we have been wanting to get one to sit on top of the fireplace in the living room since we moved in ,and for only £25 its a great bargain , so I am going to finish work half a hour early this afternoon to go and pick it up with her before I go to my job at the hospital .

Yesterday i had the day off we decided to go over to Bolton Abbey and take Ellie our westie with us it was sunny but cool got over there just around dinner time parked up near the Pantry and Tea Cottage walked down to the Abbey and down to the water Ellie went in the river there was ducks about but she did'ntt fuss over them or try to attack them .
Walked along the course of the river and crossed using the bridge near to were the stepping stones are and followed the course of the river up to the bridge at the other end wanted do the walk through the Strid wood but didn't have time will come back with a picnic hamper at around Easter time , We then followed the road back to near where we had parked up this took us over a good two hours to get us back to somewhere near to where we started , went to the Tea cottage for afternoon tea had a pot of tea and a pot of coffee with two scones with home made jam and clotted cream for under eight pounds .

Took Helen to work then i went home due to the fact i was not down to do a shift.
Started cutting and fitting the spindles that we bought for the stairs it’s a while since I have done any joinery work
I bought a brand new hard point saw for the job and it cut the angles spot on without running out did the main flight
Of about sixteen spindles before I had to pick Helen up at one o clock did the rest when we got home finished at around eight o’ clock .
Went to Helen's parent house for tea we had two chickens in the freezer her mum agreed to cook them for us seeing we still don’t have a cooker.
Her dad gave us a washing post we can put in the rear garden £21 at B&Q

Sunday
Both of us went to work and we both finished at three in the afternoon went to Wickes bought some post fix for the washing line post and some white primer for the wooden spindles .
Went for a drive and ended up at the Whitehouse at Roundhay for something to eat I had peppered sausages with mash washed down with pear cider and Helen had scampi with side salad washed down with half a lager and lime.

What a day yesterday went to work at the hospital after I finished my college job and decided to give Helen a call see how she was ,no answer left it 15minutes called again no answer so sent a text RU OK ,no reply left it ten minutes called the land line no answer waited ten minutes called the land line again still no answer so i texted a message to her phone again waited no reply so i left a voicemail message and waited again no reply.

I thought she might have gone to her parents house to return the photographs we scanned in last night and forgotten to take her phone, so I called them at their house they had not seen or heard from her all day,all of this happened over the space of over two hours finally.

I finally got a phone call from her she had left her phone on charge in the bedroom we both do this as we use them for alarm clocks had gone back downstairs and had fallen asleep on the sofa and of course didn’t hear her phone ringing.

Helen does complain of dizzy spells and had been known to pass out it happened once at work last year so there was reason for me to be worried another thought I had was she started painting off the ladders and had lost her footing and fallen.

When I got home she was not in the house was in total darkness and the door confined to the kitchen ten minutes later she returned her eldest son was kicking off he has lost his job a few weeks ago and had split up with his girlfriend to top it all he left his bike on the drive and someone had it away he was sending silly texts messages that had Helen worried enough to go seek him out.
He hangs out near his father’s house which is a council estate on the wrong side of town Helen was upset and concerned so she went looking for him with her friend you had called round and had a car just to make sure he didn’t do anything untoward to himself or others.

Another thing had happened her youngest son who is only thirteen was sent home from school he was having feeling faint and his heart was racing and beating too fast later on in the afternoon it happened again , he ended up going to casualty at around half past eight at night took get checked out , I took Helen round to her mums house and dropped her off with her mother at the casualty department they did all the checks blood levels, sugar levels and hooked him up to a ECG he got a clean bill of health and was sent home .

Helen got back home just after midnight we cooked potato waffles egg and bacon put in to a bread cake for tea/supper watched Jade Goody’s wedding ceremony on living tv which just depressed us even more was quarter to two when we went up to bed .AND TO CAPE IT ALL ITS FRIDAY THE 13TH TODAY CANT WAIT .

Finished work last night got home as I was supposed to be finishing the painting to the landing stairwell off the ladders that I had borrowed a few weeks ago.

Helen months ago borrowed some photographs and albums of her mother which to her mum are a bit less priceless to her then the crown jewels are to the Queen they safely moved house with us just before Christmas, her mother is worried they will get miss laid lost ,stolen or destroyed by water, damp, wood worm, mice, fire ,lighting the dog the cat etc etc.

Anyway last night we was suppose to take them back her mother she has asked on numerous other occasions for their safe return but they was still waiting to get scanned in to the computer using a flat bed scanner I have , so after tea last night at around half past nine we started to scan them to the pc one by one we must have done around 150 photos of holidays old family shots in black and white holidays birthdays houses etc a entire life time contained in a few albums and some nice ones of Helen twenty years ago with a perm and brown hair hehe but still so very sexy and attractive was looking for the swim suit ones no joy.

So it was well after 2’o clock when we finally got to bed this morning and later when we got to sleep hence why I am so bloody tired today .

Helen is going to go to Egypt in May for two weeks,I am going to miss her more and more each day when she does leave and two weeks is going to be a life time especially for the first few days.

But i am going to work hard and go to bed early and sleep though and count the days until she safely returns home.Buy four books to read and watch DVDs and chill out when she does return tanned and refreshed i will take some holidays and spend a few days alone with her with out the interruption of work hopefully if i can get holidays from both jobs sorted out to coincide with each other

This will be the longest we have ever been apart, leaving her each morning that i go to work and not seeing her for twelve hours most days is way too long, so two weeks is going to be a life time and 1 day will feel like 1 week .

Had a mate round to price up putting a RSJ in and taking down the kitchen and dining room wall it will be about £100 to get the 7x4 RSJ cut to size and delivered and I reckon he will want £250 to £300 for doing the job then we got another £70 for the cost of a skip to dispose of the bricks and kitchen units that we will have to rip out.

Finished work at half eight last night picked Helen up and we went to ikea again , bought a wicker dog basket four candles and two rugs for one of the bedrooms went to a local Indian take away got a wicked mushroom basmati rice chicken curry poppadoms and chapattis probably not the best thing to eat at midnight just before bedtime but when the hunger pangs hit and the choice is Chinese or Indian then its usually no option although I love Chinese duck in curry sauce the bill came to £13.50 and they knocked it down to £10.80 for some reason they always do this .

We found out yesterday that since 14th of February Helens decree absolute was granted so she is now a single woman again her divorce is final and her marriage is over for good , and I am no longer cohabiting or no longer living with a married woman.
I hope to be single again very soon myself; marriage certificates and houses didn’t keep us apart
I hope the woman I am now with and the woman I am madly in love with Helen is the woman I hope to stay with and live with no other woman comes close I am happy contented and for the next two years I maybe skint but we have a mortgage and we are buying a house that won’t be just bricks and mortar but a home we both want to be in until we sell it and buy a little cottage somewhere idyllic.

Two mates that I have worked with in the past one has in the last fortnight up rooted and gone to live with a girl that he meet a few months ago on face book she lives in Liverpool with her parents who own a B&B .
They have been meeting up for the past few months now he has packed his job in giving up the accommodation he was renting and shot of to Liverpool all in the name of love.

My second work mate from the past , got a computer a few years ago after he had to be talked in to getting one he didn’t see the point or the big attraction in being online or the Internet eBay etc, anyway he does now he can’t live without it he is constantly in front of his computer or laptop .

After being on his own for the last fifteen years he got chatting to a woman from America via chat rooms msn and speaking to her on the Internet phone skype.

He has jetted over a few times during the last two years he had never left England before this , she lives in a massive trailer caravan and is going through a divorce and she hopes to walk away with around 100k dollars settlement (my ex wife loves her already )which for around 80k you can buy a decent bungalow with a bit of land thrown in he is a vegetarian so growing his own food would appeal to him especially if he cant work and earn a wage .

He likewise is packing it all in, his job and flat he rents and has lived in for the last ten or so years to be with the woman he loves .with American employment laws I think he has to be a house husband for a few years even if they get married there will be issues regarding his right to work and live in the USA .It’s nice to know that love still makes the world go round or is that just me being sentimental romantic.

Friday
Helen went to see Steve Holbrook with my two sisters at Pudsey civic hall; I did some painting in the hallway giving the walls the first coat.

Saturday
Went to the red bus cafe on the A64 for breakfast had the full mashing with black pudding ,the actor who plays Zak Dingle in Emerdale called in for his breakfast.
Went to Lawnswood crematorium bought a wooden heart some small photo frame a big steel square lantern and a clock in a metal frame that is in a plant pot planted up with ivy so that it grows round the skeleton framework and hides it .
Went to garden centre at Guiseley and bought a weeping willow, magnolia, fern tree and a wisteria which we planted up once we got home.

Sunday
both of us back to work finished at three took a load of grass cuttings and carpets we had ripped up from the upstairs bedrooms to the local tip.
Went to B&Q and bought a Victorian archway for the back garden ordered pizza for tea did the rest of the painting in the down stair hallway and put everything back in its place before going to bed.

Monday
lost debit card somehow went in to the Halifax to use the cash machine i have some bills i pay via the cash machine set up which i did , i was then going to queue to cancel some direct debits but decided not to when i saw the amount of people already in the queue i walked down to the next branch where i found i had lost my card what a fcuking pain cancelled the direct debits and cancelled the lost card as well will take a few days to get a new one posted out hopefully.
The spindles came this morning first thing ,which i had ordered online Friday from screwfix be busy busy busy when i get home tonight need to get some undercoat.

Changing bank accounts went in to town at lunch to open a new building society account i can pay direct debits from but i don't get a atm card i have to go in and draw cash out from the branch itself with my payment book that be weird and take some getting use to will stop impulse buying i guess ,

I will have to set up all direct debits again this is because of a joint bank account and a £3000 overdraft that my ex wife ran up,i bank with the same bank and because of what i earn and wages going i from both jobs every month i think they will confiscate all my money to claw back this £3ooo, this would make life for me unlivable and would put in serious trouble with my mortgage and car loan.

Due to the fact that my wife wont pay a penny TO CLEAR THIS DEBT OFF so every month for the past six months i have been paying the bank charges and interest charges and every month she has paid nothing , basically i have had enough the bank don't seem to care and wont freeze the account they wont put half in my name and half in hers so i can pay my half back they want it all or nothing so i am getting wages diverted in to this new account and they cant touch my cash right or wrong i have been advised to do this by cccs http://www.cccs.co.uk/ i am stopping payments on credit cards and all other unsecured loans i have my mortgage sorted, my credit rating will dive but with the cash i pay for child maintenance £300 a month spousal maintenance of £85 a month and £2500 solicitor bill that i am paying back at £75 a month.

I have very little choice every body has got there finger in the pie some want a whole fcuking slice i have to control my finances if i don't ,then my debts will just escalate the first thing i was advised was to open a new bank account today i did just that.

Now the hard bit starts once my unsecured creditors find out that they are all going to get a quid a month i think i be on top of everybody contact list I think my postman will be doing over time and i think my mobile will go to constantly ringing hope i can battle the storm and get out the other side in less two years all maintenance stops and my house gets sold and i get half the profits THEN I WILL PAY EVERYONE OFF hope it flies bye.

All these photos are of dining room we have not decorated this room we are planing on knocking through the wall were the book case is in to the kitchen so we have a large kitchen dinner similar in size to what we had when we was renting the house at Rodley .

We need to buy units to go in to each of the alcove's , also we need the computer sorting out getting it off the floor after a while your knees start to hurt and tend to lean over which is no good for the back.

I have put the wireless router near the porch at the front of the house this is where the phone line comes in i have run the earth net cable under the carpet to the back dining room so there is no no visible wires ,well hardly so far so good Sky broadband seems to be ok.
would like to borrow a laptop to check the wireless router out and see what coverage we get through the house,i might invest in a net book or a cheap second hand laptop if it was decent enough download speeds .

Back on line at home we have finally got our Sky broadband connection sorted out ,not before time .
got the pan rack up too,still ain't got a cooker yet but we cant have everything straight away can we .

finally got the grass cut to the front and the rear of the house Helen is now suffering with her recurring back pains she has been working really hard painting walls and ceilings she doesn't stop plus she has been doing extra hours on her hospital shift.Her son Ste who lives with us as been laid off which is going to make life had going his board money will sadly be missed so far he has paid us up to date so no immediate worries.
Need to start budgeting money know for the next couple of years we have to be careful both gas and electric are on metres we need to make sure they are always topped up and that no matter what we always have gas and electric.But still in love with Helen have no regrets still smiling still miss her when she is not with me got a trip planned for Scotland in November and going to wedding on the isle of White next year plenty of things to forward to plenty of things that will take us nearer to January 2011 when i stop paying maintenance money every month of £386 a month

My solicitor charges £195 an hour plus £19.99 per letter he sends out or his firm sends out how do they expect anyone to pay a bill of three thousand pounds i earn less than £13 a hour.

You don't have to be a mathematician to work it out i have to work 60 hours to pay him four hours work i owe him for just over 15 hours work if he works a forty hour week he earns £7800 a week that's £405,600 a year plus costs of letters they send out his wife works with him as a solicitor as well i bet they don't worry about the price of gas and the rising cost of petrol.

The minimum they expect me to pay is a hundred pounds a month three hundred pounds and two hundred pounds was mentioned i will be hard pressed to manage a hundred pounds a month

I was back in court Monday over the divorce before Judge Lord ,Lord being his name .Helen came with me again like she had done previously the month before , the valuation of the house the court had asked for had been completed and it had been valued at 110k giving 35k profit if the house was sold for that price , we previous had an evaluation to sell the property by a local estate agent who knows the market at 125k which my ex wife didn't revel to the court.

After three hours of backwards and forward all parties had agreed a settlement, that i would pay child maintenance of £300 a month which is what i was paying anyway and that i would also pay spousal maintenance of £86 a month this amount covers the cost of the monthly mortgage repayments that is until until my son is eighteen which will be in January 30th 2011,so in effect she is living rent free for the next two years .

I am looking at it as a bar of chocolate that has twenty four pieces and every month i eat a piece and then there is one less.

After the two years or twenty four months the house is then is to be sold i will legally not be responsible for paying her anything and the profits from the sale split 50-50 , my wife didn't seem over the moon about this settlement and i had already offered her the same deal out of court two months ago and she refused to get to here as cost me over £2500 in legal fees my wife is receiving legal aid she could afford to drag it out i couldn't to take it to the next round would have cost me another £3000.

I came out of court and had a parking ticket such is life still rollin bye just . Helen was magnificent throughout the day AS ALWAYS SHE IS and supported me the whole way through i cant thank her enough , she had words with my ex wife and had ago with her said boyfriend, she makes everything worth while she makes me happier than i have ever been and she is worth more to me than anything, happiness makes us live longer and if it doesn't at least it makes the journey more worth while

Helen started painting the other bedroom yesterday are also going to take up the carpets and paint the floor in the other upstairs rooms and landings.
Sky are booked in for next Friday to activate the phone line then we can sort out are broadband connection and get back on line at long last.
Still have not got a cooker sorted out the one we are after may fall through we will give it another few weeks then decide what to do , we need a decent cooker we are very limited to what we can cook although to day we are cooking lamb and veggies in the slow cooker. Everything else is slowly being sorted i am back in court Monday due to the divorce proceedings and the valuation of the house we jointly own is being completed today and depending on the findings will impact on Mondays hearing. My wife wants a low valuation i need a high one to enable a forced sale although i think it wont be sold until my son is eighteen in two years time.

No work yesterday due to the snow so had a chance of a sleep in it was quite sunny and bright.We had to take Ellie our westie to the vets she was limping no major damage had occurred and the vet just gave her an injection and some tablets at a cost of £40 will have to get some pet insurance in place.Helen bought her a new coat for going out in the cold she is getting her coat cut today and will be all clipped and trimmed up plus she bought her a new collar and matching lead.

Friday went to my old house to see my son Guy it was his 16th birthday all the best have a good one.Also went over to Shipley to get more bedding from Laura Ashley .

Went to Ikea Saturday after work bought a mirror and a light fitting for the bedroom bought some hooks from B&Q for the doors also bought some things for the kitchen a new swing bin and plate drainer , pan and sweeping brush.

Worked until eight o clock again on Sunday we come out with just pence short of four hundred pounds for a weekend shift between us which most of goes on the house and things we need at the moment we want a radiator fitting in two of the bedrooms or for now just one in ours.

Finished decorating our bedroom the floor paint covered really well and it only took one coat to get it looking jet black the grain of the wood in parts is still showing through .We slept on the living room floor Wednesday night on two duvets and throws our bedroom was a no go area with the mess and smell of paint and it was three in the morning before the bay window was fully glossed .All we need is two lamp shades and some tie back brackets for the curtains and two rugs for each side off the bed and a mirror and one room should be completed.Hoping we can work late till eight both Saturday and Sunday and get some extra cash for paint and other stuff

Ripped the carpets the underlay the lino and the rugs from our bedroom last night took me until one o clock in the morning , bu the floorboards are immaculate as good as the day they were laid so we are going to use floor paint to paint them black .We will get some rugs for the side of the bed .Helen as bought paint for the walls and ceiling white and duck egg blue ,fixed the Gothic curtain pole above the bay window the will pull across the straight of the bay to close it all off and make the room smaller and warmer on a night .bought two new lamp stands and are looking at getting two new bedside cabinets as well .

Sunday we both worked seven am until eight pm it was a long day.Bought some more bedding from Laura Ashley at Shipley the one in Leeds as closed down . Helen bought a black Gothic wrought iron curtain pole for our bedroom yesterday and some fitted sheets and extra pillow cases.Its my Daughters 18th birthday today, it doesn't seem that long ago when she was playing with Polly pocket houses and figures and watching Walt Disney videos now she drinks and smokes like most of her friends her age do , so what ever your doing today sweet child of mine enjoy.Upset Helen last night for swearing at our dog sorry Helen and sorry dog no more swearing.

Signed up with sky for phone unlimited calls , TV and Internet package £28.50 for the first three months then it will rise to £38.50 a month . the TV side of the order will be commissioned this Tuesday and we will have three TV viewing packages , we didn't want films or sport channels , the phone line will take a further two weeks and will be activated around the 12th of February before we can get them to send us a wireless router and get back on line.

Helen has put curtains up at most of the windows and nets and has change furniture around and the house now looks totally different it is getting more like home every day.
we are hoping to get a range cooker in the next few weeks so we can cook proper meals and roasts, at the moment we are getting quote for new PVC windows and doors although we might not be in a position to get them installed straight away .

Did some work on the house opened up the panelling that was on the banister and exposed the original spindles every one was in its original place they will need filling and painting .

Bought a hat and coat rack shelve from Ikea that i fitted on the hallway wall opposite the mirror .and fitted the pine shelf rack on the dinning room wall.