Finished work last night at half eight it did drag got there in the end thank god for mp3's went to pick up my Son Guy and my dog Bandit from my old house , we got back to my house just after nine went to Ceasers for a Indian take away Guy like Helen eats only kormas never mined he will grow out of it .then we had to go back out to get him some cigs same again just like Helen good job i love them both .Watched die hard again saw before guy was born its that old scary it was being shown on sky i got to bed around one , was not sure if i was working this morning or not i went in to work to find out i was until three.

Paid Helen's phone bill for her she gave me her bank card to draw the money out i paid it using mine, Will draw the money out from her account if and when i need it.

Still missing Helen the house not the same without her in it being here and it as made me realise even more that its not bricks and mortar that make a home , i quoted that previously in a post and its certainly not possessions although a mobile phone with a camera and pc i couldn't live without , but its the person you choose to share it with to eat your meals and go to sleep with and to laugh and smile with to kiss and hold not because you have to do it because you want to do it.

My Dad's brother got buried at York yesterday seven people turned up that's not including him , i believe that's six more than i will mo0re than likely get , the only person i want there is Helen another thing i have realised since she has been gone don't ever want to live life without her don't want her popping off before me , she still thinks that she wont make it pass 53 years of age from what she was told to her by a spiritualist years ago and she does believe it perhaps if she had stayed in the life she had that might have been the case.. i still believe we control our own destiny and destiny changes as we do its got to change and its got to evolve , that makes sense that's logical .

Need to go get food , need to go buy Kat Von D tattoo book from HMV for thirteen pound , need to get gas and electric plus pear cider .

Went to see my Nephew Mark over at Greengates he is living with a girl he has had enough with just had a new kitchen fitted so we had a beer with him , then went to KFC wont want another one of them for two months at least i finally went home picked Bandit up my Jack Russell and drove down to the canal at Rodley near to where we use to rent our first proper house after leaving the apartment at Clarence Dock.