Waking up too early on a morning since Helen has been away , usually around four o clock saying that i have been going to bed well before our usual time of around one half one and i never draw the curtains which doesn't help .

Helen sunburn does not seem to be has bad as i first thought as she is back on the beach but in the shade , she text me this morning saying she has now slipped a disc in her back she has had numerous problems over the years with her back regarding her slipped discs and sciatica and takes strong pain killers which usually kick in and do the trick.

Been listen to the ost from the film The Beach i up loaded it on to the i-pod that Helen took away with her later during the morning i got a text saying her favorite song to remind her of her time in Egypt was of the same album was Beached by Angelo Badalamneti & Orbital.

I have to say although i have been better coping without her than i thought i would although its dragging oh so very slow mainly it goes slower at work.

Once i am home with our and her things around obviously they are items of Helen that are purely her like her dressing gown make up under ware i don't think she will mind me wearing them then i am more at ease once as i get back to our house i know how a vampire must feel returning to its coffin or a mummy back to is to its sarcophagus i feel more relaxed and calm .




My sisters called round tonight and brought me some bottles of Magners cider and some toiletries , free gifts always appreciated thank you both and call again anytime.Get tonight done and half way there just about yippee this time next week i am going to be buzzing again miss you babe .