Was up first again got to bed after two was watching "Man on Fire" on dvd it has been a while since i watched it , the last time was with my son Guy , Helen has never seen it and anyone who has will agree its a classic.

It was raining yesterday morning the sun was shinning i cleaned the rabbit Button out with me working shifts and the shitty weather he has been a bit neglected i hosed his run down and swept it out removed all the little shit pellets and changed his tray all in all a total spring clean for him.

More stuff to put in the budgies cage, we bought yesterday afternoon from The Range store over at Halifax , which is about seventeen miles from where we live ,we bought them some plastic coloured hopes with a added bell , a bigger double sided mirror with the complementary budgie bell on the end that will be a total of five bells in their cage so far this is in a week of having them , its like Notre Dame cathedral. When they start chirping and ringing and seeing we have two birds its a lot better and louder in stereo. They also got a metal bird bath , a nice bright pink iodine block and crushed oyster shells to sprinkle on their seeds also sandpaper perch covers and some seedy treat sticks what else can they possible want , oh yes cleaning out.

It was six years ago today that my mother passed away , i was by her side when she gave up the fight she went very peacefully in the end she just gave up the fight to live , she told me she was tired of being on her own that she went to bed as early as possible and stayed in bed as late as she could to shorten the days.My father had died in 1985 and my mother lived on her own over thirty years a lifetime its had to imagine how any one could be alone for all them years going to sleep and waking up all alone,she would NEVER have foreseen that on her wedding day AND thirty years is a lifetime especially living on your own

Paying £1.42 a litre for diesel i have just checked online and the cost of petrol in 1976 was £0.76p a gallon. 1976 was when i left school.I worked at Grandways supermarket chain on Roundhay Road in Leeds , i worked from five until nine Thursday and Friday nights and all day Saturday i think my wage was £5.50p a week , i use to go to Jumbo Records and buy a second hand pre recorded cassette tape of slade , yes or David bowie and Elton John or one just because i use to like the look of the art work on the cover ELP Brain Salad Surgery and ELO being two i remember.
Two girls who i worked at Grandways with where murdered one being Jayne MacDonald a victim of the Yorkshire Ripper and was only sixteen when she was brutally murdered her father died a few years later of a broken heart.

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*THE PHOTO ABOVE IS THE POLICE SEARCH OF THE AREA HER BODY WAS FOUND

The second killing i have trouble remembering it happened not long after Jayne was taken but might have been a year or 18 months and as far as i can recall she was stabbed in the door way of a working mans club. i think near to or in either Horsforth or Meanwood , two people i knew of being murdered was a scary thought hopefully it will never get to three.

Thinking back to 1976 i remember going to the Dock Green public House with my sisters and mother on a Saturday night in my wrangler jeans and Ben Sherman shirt and drinking special brew three bottles was my limit , I am bragging more like two ,and putting 10p in to the Jukebox so i could listen to Bob Marley the Exodus single was just out and i loved it i ended up buying all the cassettes after that album came out Kaya , Survival and Babylon by bus and the last one Uprising i was travelling to work when it came on the radio that he had deid this was in 1981 i was gutted.

Today is grey and wet and boring i just might reminisce all day and go online checking the 1970's out films and records and try and remember it all.
I remember my Dad saying he wouldnt pay the prices in town for a cup of coffee when you could buy a full jar of coffee for the same price he would wait and have one at home , with the prices Starbucks charge its nice to know somethings haven't changed , i have just finished typing this and the sun is out BRILLIANT lol.

BILLS

Alarm went of at six this morning i am back on days after working two night shifts this week , i was totally knackered but crawled out of bed and got to work well before my seven o clock start time and at least its friday and i have the weekend off , be glad when my official start time is at 2 0 clock in the afternoon i wont even need to set the alarm clock and will never have the ganger of over sleeping which will be a blessing.Helen has another nine people attending her stand up psychic evening her last one was only a fortnight ago its proofing a godsend in the terms of money and helping to pay bills sky and broadband would have been cut if she had not made a payment , times are hard and bills are constantly going up as is food and diesel .

worked again last night twelve hours from five till five thought i would be really knackered but was fine .
Helen cant sleep if i am not there her ex husband constantly worked nights and she never minded it she was glad when he went , i miss two nights BY HER SIDE and she texts me till four in the morning , i tell her go to sleep she cant , guess i am part of her psyche and if i am not there upsetting her balance which is nice to know .

Watched Blade runner i finally got to watch it all the way through for the first time what a brilliant film , i was in my teens when it was at the pictures but never went to see it I have tried watched it a few times on tv late at night but never manage it until the end .



My son Guy has got a spare helmet i know he would like to take me out on his Bandit i will let him i ha vent been on the back of a motor bike since my girlfriend from way back even before i was married , she had a Yamaha 500cc machine a beast of a bike with a Hawkwind custom petrol tank it was fun i never understood why i didn't take my bike test suppose its because i have always had a car be a lot cheaper over the years if i had a choice of car or bike or had both and used each one depending on mood and weather . Its Like living at home for young people now its no longer a choice if they want to our not , for a lot it is down to money and income or the lack of it . so is riding a bike which young person under twenty can afford car insurance these days very few , so guess Guy will be forever a bike rider.

Tonight at work i do my normal hours from five till nine ITS GOING TO FLY.
I have decided to change the font on my Blog might change the design not sure , i want to write more posts this year than i have previously my English is not brilliant and life can be mundane , but this is only really a record for me instead of hand writing a diary this is a replacement method and will in makes me remember what i have done and when and why , and of course it makes more or less perfect sense to me , well most of the time .

Worked last night form five pm until five am ,the following morning i had the task of cleaning the stair core from D -floor down to A-floor including all landings doors walls and each stair tread and rise which was back breaking , no knee pads there was too much work for one person .I Rolled into bed at half five and was up at one this afternoon .Its the first night i have been away from Helen she has been away from me when she was in Egypt and a few nights in hospital but its the first time i have left her to sleep alone in our home .And its all to do again to night starting at five again.Last time i did two nights was working as a security guard for Initial security i was working on offices at Garforth headquarters at Exsa uk i took proplus to keep awake and drank loads of coffee it was a Friday and Saturday night and it dragged no with i-phones and i pads it be quite a good job to do be forever on line or watching movies or listening to music via you tube , cleaning stairs in the middle of the night not really the same.

Interviewed before Christmas 2011 and job offered , a criminal records bureau check was done and sent in the first week of January 2012 and now i am finally starting my new job on the 5th of March which is the first Monday in march
Since being made redundant in July of last year , i have nearly worked every week apart from last week i only worked one extra overtime shift and that was on the Saturday , i have had extra days off which if i had still been in my original full time job i would have been working so they have been bonuses.

My new job is starting at 2.00 pm so no more early morning wake ups no more tired eyes and no more dreading the alarm going off especially with the late nights we have through the week and especially on the weekends. s
So fingers crossed it goes ok and i like My new roll , and if i don't well i will have time during the day to look for alternate work and attend interview's.
So again at last i will have a contract of employment for forty five hours a week instead of the twenty hour contract i have at the moment , other pluses is my rate of pay will increase and i can rejoin the superannuation scheme , i get paid more for holidays and sickness so for now i have made a good move , watch this space to see how it pans out.

The budgies are chirping away and have settled in , they have had apple and grapes and demolish millet like they are a pair of locust,need to invest in a rechargeable hand held vacuum to clean the mess the pair make as seeds husks cover the floor under their cage .

Bought Helen a card and some flowers for valentines day ,its are fourth one together a lot has happened over the last four and a half years and its still changing on a daily basis .
As always money is tight , but we always seem to be thrown a life line just when we need it most . And its nice to think we are being helped when we are really in need. It is like we are being looked upon by whoever is with us in our home , and who have already passed on to the other side . that amount of times we get help is astonishing Yesterday we was skint down to our last thirty quid , and we received our Tesco club card cash off coupons and Helen had a phone call for reading for the night so our money was doubled and some weeks every little helps , so thanks to the spirits for all your help , it is appreciated .

WATCHING - Killing Bono

LISTENING TO - GOTYE

today is one of them days where you want to get out and do something but you have no idea where or what you want to do .

Worked today from half eight until half four . after work went to buy the Budgies a wooden ladder and another new swing that rotates as well as swings and water holder also we put some green apple pieces in between the bars of the cage to see if they would like some fruit so far they have not investigated it , they are both doing well seem to have settled in ok and are chirping away quite contented. we want them flying around the room as soon as possible so they are not cage bound too long also there is plenty of landing places around our kitchen dinning room.
no work until Monday night at five o clock after Monday i have three shifts from seven till three then another starting at five until nine.So I AM going to chill out next two days and do nothing but burn gas walk the dog photograph the birds and drink coffee .Would like to capture one in mid flight will have to check the settings for my camera see if i can do it.

We covered the budgies cage and put them in the smallest bedroom just in case they got out during the night,Helen hardly slept she was like a mother hen worrying about the new additions.
This morning they where both still in the cage and had not escaped during the few hours that they were alone.
we have a old antique cage we transferred the birds in to there whilst we went back to the pet shop with the cage we bought yesterday not even twenty four hours old they exchanged it no problem , and we was told it was a total inappropriate cage for budgies , they are new rehoused in the new cage and are now settling in there new abode.

Today we visited a few local based pet shops , we was particular looking at cages and budgies we bought a cage and two albino budgies coasting for around £70 we got kitted out , we also bought seed and sandpaper sheet s, millet seed and of course a bell and mirror no cage would be complete with out a mirror and bell we will need a ladder too. The other stuff bits and pieces that they need will follow shortly , it was only after a few hours of having them home that we discovered the budgies could pass through the bars of the cage seeing we have a dog and cat , its not very health and safety for the new arrivals. There is little we can do tonight until the pet shop reopens at nine o clock in the morning.

My Dad had a green and yellow budgie called Peter i fcuking hated it it use to land on the dining table pinching food of your plate it crap in mid flight and chatter none stop whilst you use to try and watch TV , but i guess these two are totally different they are ours bet my dad is secretly chuckling away bless him.

So we now have Button the Rabbit , Harvey our Rag doll cat , and Pip the Jack Russell we have yet to name these two birds , we will sleep on it.

Got the chance of working through the night weds Thur's and Friday from five pm until six am the following day so far this week i have had no extra shifts just my regular hours i have not worked nights for ages years in fact guess i am going to do it if i cant last the night will have to book out will take a flask of coffee and a couple of mars bars and make sure the i pod is fully charged.

My partners psychic work has really took off this last few weeks and she is making some money , with the help of her friend Kate she has been doing some private readings for two people last Saturday and also did a group of eleven people on Sunday for the first time she did stand up , i know she was dreading it but got really good feed back and has another five to do this Saturday and another group on the 17th.
Iam still waiting for my crb check coming back its been nearly six weeks before i can start my supervisors job.

My partners son has been working three weeks and so far no pay cheque he is pissed off to say the least , with no dole money because he didn't sign on to claim his money measly as it is , due to working on this job so it really has cost him money to go to work which he has not got and to top it all he was also he was also in court and walked away with a fine of £180.

I need something new to play with i need to treat myself it wont happen till the end of the month thinking off buying a cheap tablet no way can i afford a i-pad but might go for this instead



its the quarter of the price of a i-pad and no way as good i am not pretending but for out and about at work or travelling it will do i can go for a seven or ten inch screen it flash supported and has a Ethernet cable point as well as wi-fi also a usb and a TF card slot to allow up to 32mb of storage so for surfing face book blogging eBay and you tube its going to be good enough also can use it as a ebook and music and video player for around £120 whats to loose.

Bought a laminator from Tesco with 50 laminator pouches for under £20.00 and it works fine

WATCHING - THE INBETWEENERS , ON 4 ON DEMAND VIA YOU TUBE

LISTENING TO - THE NEW PET SHOP BOYS CD FORMAT

Its snowed this afternoon for the first time this winter , the heater has packed in on the car typical , so i bought a can of de-icer mainly for the inside of the car i usually just pour warm water on to the outside of the windows which works fine.
I have been reading about David Choe the graffiti artist who was commissioned to paint his art work throughout the Face book building doing his art in corridors stairwells and any where he fancied he never took a wage in money he opted for the equivalent in face book shares now its being floated he is set to make $200 million dollars.Nice work if you can get it.

Happy birthday to my son Guy wish i was 19 again but don't we all unless your under 19 , a Friend posted this poem on face book writing by a old man in an American nursing home it was found after going through his humble possessions and distributed to every nurse working in his nursing home , then posted on the web.
Crabby Old Man

What do you see nurses? . . What do you see?
What are you thinking . . . . . when you're looking at me?
A crabby old man, . ... .. not very wise,
Uncertain of habit .. . .. . . . . . with faraway eyes?

Who dribbles his food . . .. . . . . and makes no reply .
When you say in a loud voice .. . . . .. 'I do wish you'd try!'
Who seems not to notice . ... . the things that you do .
And forever is losing . . . . .. . . . . . A sock or shoe?

Who, resisting or not . . . . . . .. . . lets you do as you will,
With bathing and feeding The long day to fill?
Is that what you're thinking? Is that what you see?
Then open your eyes, nurse . . . . . you're not looking at me .

I'll tell you who I am . As I sit here so still,
As I do at your bidding, . . . . . . as I eat at your will.
I'm a small child of Ten ... . . . . . with a father and mother,
Brothers and sisters . . . ... . . . . . who love one another.

A young boy of Sixteen . . with wings on his feet
Dreaming that soon now . . . .. .. . . a lover he'll meet..
A groom soon at Twenty . my heart gives a leap.
Remembering, the vows . . . . .. . that I promised to keep.

At Twenty-Five, now . . . . . . . . I have young of my own.
Who need me to guide . . . . And a secure happy home.
A man of Thirty . . . . .. . . . .. My young now grown fast,
Bound to each other . . . . . . . With ties that should last.

At Forty, my young sons .. . have grown and are gone,
But my woman's beside me . . . . . . . to see I don't mourn.
At Fifty, once more, babies play 'round my knee,
Again, we know children . . . . . . . My loved one and me.

Dark days are upon me . . my wife is now dead.
I look at the future ... . .. . . . . . . shudder with dread..
For my young are all rearing . . . . . .. young of their own.
And I think of the years . . .. and the love that I've known.

I'm now an old man . . . . . .. .. . . and nature is cruel.
Tis jest to make old age . . . . look like a fool.
The body, it crumbles .. . . . . . . grace and vigor, depart..
There is now a stone . . . .. . . . where I once had a heart.

But inside this old carcass . . a young guy still dwells,
And now and again . . . .. . . . my battered heart swells.
I remember the joys . . . . . . . . .. I remember the pain.
And I'm loving and living . . . . . .. . . . . life over again.

I think of the years, all too few . . . . . gone too fast.
And accept the stark fact . . . . . .. that nothing can last.
So open your eyes, people . . . . . . . . open and see.
Not a crabby old man. Look closer . . . see ME!!

Remember this poem when you next meet an older person who you might brush aside without looking at the young soul within . . . . we will all, one day, be there, too!

i have already forgotten so much that i have done and places i have been to and people i have meet alone the way , but hopefully i have more to do and more to accomplice before i leave this mortal life , there is one thing more than any thing i i want to do more than anything is to travel more often and to record every mile i travel and every bus route and plane journey i take so when i do get hold i will remember i think every one should be on face book and keep a blog for the same reasons for more than anything it benefits me more than anyone else it makes me remember thank god for digital cameras and the internet.

Its been a good week got paid Friday which was not a day too soon, my daughters 21st birthday she travels to Amsterdam today with eleven other girls for a wild weekend oh to be young again with no mortgage.

Helen son Steve has got a job , after three years being unemployed he has found a job selling solar panels,and for the last three days hes been out and about knocking on house doors giving his sales pitch , and bye his account he is doing fine i hope he earns regular money and he can get his life back on track hopefully the job will last for a few months to come.

Got my camera back from cash converters which made me happy, then i drove over to Pocklington near York to see my son Guy he is 19 on this coming Monday he took delivery of his Suzuki bandit motorbike this week its awesome he as bought with the money he has earned working shifts in a petrol filling station well done , i followed him to York city centre it was strange feeling watching him handle his machine and a worry but to be fair he was fine.

i Saw my Jack Russell bandit for the first time in three years she went well giddy jumping up and down at me and getting excited , i was touched she is a great dog and i spent many happy hours walking in in the woods and on the canal banks close to where i used to live.

have bought a i phone case for my 3g phone and a laptop stand today of ebay and i am bidding on a ipod classic and a i pod 4th gen nano.

Listening to David Guetta "Nothing but the Beat" love Titanium

Watching the film "IN TIME"

No work until five tonight delivered 400 flyer's and business cards to houses in and around Bramley advertising our Friends hair salon LUXE which opened before Christmas and cards for Helen promoting her psychic readings , it was harder work than i realised and it took best part of three hours , at least it didn't rain.

went up to to Ilkley moors took Pip just after twelve had a well nice walk it was well muddy in places but the rain kept away it was windy but not cold plus it was a long enough walk plus there was a big enough field that we was able to take Pip off the lead and she rang around between me and Helen we have been going to Golden Acre Park but after so many visits it gets boring.
Also the last few days we have been playing Temple Run a game for the i -phone its quirky and addictive i find it quite irritating but nice and for a free its very good , you only have five moves jump slide left turn right turn and run to side you collect gold coins which let you buy power ups any way Helen's hooked and she is beating me easily the same can be said for Bejeweled Blitz .

Saturday got up at half eight just chilling out watched another episode of "Life on Mars" whilst Helen lays in bed ,Seeing as it was three in the morning when we got to sleep i didn't think she be up early, but as always i was up . they was enough milk for one cup of coffee not a brilliant start to the day. Roll on pay day seems to have been ages since i got paid.

watching - Seven staring Bradd Pitt

Listening to Tim Booth The Bad Angel

Dull and grey and very wet day no work as well so doing nothing much at all except drinking coffee and burning gas.

No work tomorrow so tonight just chillin picked Helen's son Liam up .He brought his Traktor kontrol 2 DJ mixing decks and his laptop and gave us a sample of his DJ mixing sounds and tracks to say he has only had it since Christmas he is pretty good.

My son gets his Bandit motorbike on the 25th of January five days before his 19th birthday , and i have been thinking what if , its not nice thinking like that . i just hope no other drivers pullout on him or force him in to making a bad mistakes and decisions , i know he's passed his test but every biker killed has as well , which don't make you anymore bullet proof , i think i will buy him a St Christopher pendant for his birthday and maybe a st Christopher key ring too , make doubly sure hes covered.

Up at six scrapping ice of the car window was cold again was soon at work i sit in the car for around half an hour i go early to get a parking space so far i have not failed in securing a spot but have some days had to park a lot further a way than i like.

Finished work at one on arriving home , we set about wrapping up and addressing some items for the ebayers that have won Helen's items for sale and dropped them off at the post office for mailing , for the three items sent it was just under £7.50 in postage costs.

Took Pip our Jack Russell to Kirkstall abbey for a walk she meet a few other dogs along the way she is so far well behaved when come face to face with other canine breeds and we completed a couple of circuits , for tea we are cooking toad in the hole with extra side order of meatballs and mash potatoes with onion and mushroom gravy i am smelling it cooking as i type this.

Today is extremely cold the car is all iced up again and there is a lot more frost on the ground its whitened Ali around , the skies are very grey and its looking bleak , Helen is still in bed thanks to the wine she had yesterday. At least Harvey and Pip are up and awake. Loaded my i-phone with more books and a couple of albums i have not listened to along with Florence and the machine and Drake .
Took Pip to Golden acre park and walked round its perimeter which takes just over a hour.
On the way home stopped at the supermarket and bought some smoked ham , white wine tagliatelle fresh pasts a large container of double cream stuff the calories a large onion and garlic bulb and organic mushrooms going to make a carbonara for tea oh and we bought four partly baked baguettes , its been a while since we have cooked this dish and it never fails to be filling creamy and gorgeous it wasn't until i finished that i realised we hadn't grated any cheese to throw on the top never mind will have to do it again next week.
Helen had some items she was selling on eBay ending today and has just made over sixty quid with only having to re list one item , never starve whilst their is the eBay option of making money fairly quickly.

Still watching - "Life on Mars"

Waiting to watch - "Ashes to Ashes"

Listening to - Florence and the Machine

Reading - "Message in a Bottle" by Nicholas Sparks

Took Helen up to Pudsey to Co,Co'S nail salon for her nails redoing another £28.00 well spent she gave me her last £100 she has sold some stuff on eBay and with the money i have we should just about manage , at least the next time she goes she needs to get them done its for half price , they operate a stamp a visit card get six stamps get a treatment for half price.

At two o clock we set off for Flockton to visit Sharon and Steve at their quaint cottage , a couple of clients he has been dealing with had saved quite a bit of money from his services and had clubbed together and bought him a i-pad 2 needles to say i was wishing i could be in the same boat has him doing a job i love travelling get well paid and nice little perks along the way we ended up playing space invaders , 3d pool and table top football was like being a teenager again in the eighties another item added to my wish list Sharon cooked a chili we had with sour cream and jacket potatoes it was spot on , Helen had three classes of wine so was out of it.


Years ago i worked away nearly every week for sixteen years travelled to Scotland Ireland wales and London i had a decent wage had to save up for nothing i could buy more or less anything i wanted out of a weeks wage which was paid cash in a brown wage packet you got your hands on your money before anyone else did unless there was a wage/payroll snatch heist , but all bills got paid on time along with the mortgage there was no bank charges , i had money to get taxis every where i wished and go out nightly if i wanted to , i had money to buy clothes and my music was bought on cassette tapes and if i went to the petrol station a tenner would nearly fill the tank and smoking twenty cigs a day was not a issue well not a money issue , why has life not improved why have we all gone backwards why is everything changed for the worse in most cases.

In some ways life has got better for today's generation thanks to technology if the technology we have now had been available back then , i would have spending ability to buy a i-pad every month if i so wished , as it is now i be lucky to get one this year and that's why sometimes i get pissed off and wish i had a better job seeing has i put the hours in it shouldn't be like this even when i start my new job it is not going to be that much easier at least i will have a contract for forty five hours a week and not twenty as it is now

No work today didn't do much went to the local Tesco this morning i bought a fruit loaf some Lurpak butter some freshly sliced ham and a jar of English mustard and some semi skimmed milk along with two cans of tomato soup the posh kind.
been messing around with Adobes Photo shop elements 7 on certain digital photos that i have taken around Leeds using You Tube as a tutorial guide, its amazing what you can learn in a day was quite impressed with myself whether or not i remember what i have done and how to re do it remains to be seen.

Took Pip to Kirstall Abbey for a walk around its grounds apart from this one hour of exercise its been a lazy day.

My son Guy get his Suzuki 650 bandit motorbike this coming Saturday at a cost of £3600. He has saved his money up working in a petrol station starting Early in the morning working weekends and bank holidays and working late at night , and he deserves to be able to buy a nice set of wheels for himself , i just which it was four wheels instead of the two , he is competent on a motorbike without a doubt and has had quite a few months of riding his scooter , but has most bikers will tell you nine 0ut of ten times its the car drivers error when there is a crash or collision , it must be any mothers girlfriends or wife's worst nightmare to have a loved one killed or maimed or left paralysed due to a bad RTA.

Getting used to Helen's red hair it was weird when i woke up this morning at half past five and looked across the pillow and spotted this red head lying next to me for a split second thought i was dreaming ,is it in the film true romance where the girl he meets and ends up in bed in the morning removes her wig before he is awake , and she is a natural black haired girl instead of the blonde girl he meet , anyway its ok by me .

Thought of the day its a long way off till pay day but we will make it no choice but to make it its a fine line some months so far so good.

tomorrow i am off all day no day or night shift will sleep in till at least half past eight.

Started watching "Life on Mars" have got the complete set of dvds to watch series one and two never saw it the first time round watched the pilot episode last night and liked it , long live the seventies I was leaving school in 1976 and STILL listening to bands like Mud the Sweet and Showaddywaddy, Thank god my taste in music has changed for the better over the years , along with my flared Brutus jeans and my multi coloured Slade hooped socks.John Simms who plays Sam Tyler in the series was born in Leeds my home town in 1970 to say he has been transported back to 1973 makes it all the stranger, only 15 episodes to go .And David Bowie is 65 years old on the day i started to watch episode one always say fact is weirder then fiction.

Helen today Helen went to Louise's hair salon "Luxe" and had her dyed her hair from blond to a chestnut redhead and its kewl it suits her immensely

Went to bed at half three this morning up at nine feel shit got a very sore throat and am starting with a cold sounds like man flu . I am off work Wednesday and i am not working my evening shifts for two whole weeks , so the days i work i will finish at one at that is the end of the day sounds good to me.

Helen has been reading Witness by David Smith he was the person married to Myra Hindleys sister Maureen and his testimony was responsible for putting them both behind bars after going to the police the morning after the night before when he witnessed Edward Evans killed with a axe even though David smith was responsible for getting the evil pair convicted he was hounded beat up on a regular basis and assaulted for years to follow , he was attacked in bars and near to his house and generally got to the point where he was as much a victim of Brady and Hindley's crimes as if he had been murdered by them himself.




In the book he has written he list songs and music he listened to and was popular at the time of the early sixties that he listened to and heard every day and this helped him out with his day to day existence these i found the tracks Helen and drawn up and downloaded them so i can put them on her i-phone laptop and burn them to disc the list includes the Beatles ,the Big Bopper, Duane Eddie Billy fury Del Shannon, Johnny Cash , to name a few .

There are songs over the years that when i hear play on the radio that take me back to a moment in time to a place in my life that i once was , so i think i will do my own list and give them to to Helen , i guess every body must be able to comply their own list and should be on every body's bucket list of things to do so when departed it can be given to people left behind as a remembrance gift at their funeral , might even do it with films and books it would have been nice if my parents had done something similar.

Reading Lynda La plante - The Red dahlia

listening to - Drake

So Far ok nothing brilliant has happened in 2012 , Helen is doing more readings this year all ready she had done around around seven readings and three booked in for next week.
Our fence as blown down in the gales and high winds we have been having its that what divides the two drives , but there is no chance of doing anything with it until i get paid at the end off the month.

My son Guy is after buying a 650cc Bandit motorbike once he get the finance sorted out he finding only being eighteen its not straight forward , Bandit also being the name of my other Jack Russell which i left behind when i walked out on my wife ,Guy continues to look after her and she is now his dog , my other Jack Russell Pip is a love she is well behaved but needs to get out more she has been neglected due to the weather and my working all the time hopefully once i start my new job i begin at two loads of time to get up and walk her wish i was living somewhere more in the country its had living in a city and going to the same stretch of canal all the time is boring as is walking around the cemetery .

Took my camera to Cash Converters on buy back but Christmas wage was that poor i am going have to leave it and pay the minimum amount and get it back next pay day we are really struggling some months and if it wasn't for well hiding food in our chest freezer we be eating just ice, makes you wonder how many people living in England are struggling to pay heating bills taxes and just survive hand to mouth every month so months we do fine if i get plenty of overtime some months its a nightmare and its robbing Peter to pay Paul, the two things i pay straight away are the bills for the Internet and my i-phone the two things i couldn't be without for obvious reasons its 2012 is there still people in houses that don't have a pc or laptop and broadband is anyone still on a dial up connection in fact do they still do dial up connections will have to google it, anyway what ever 2012 is about to bring i get the notion we are still going to be struggling and if things improve then it wont before time

HAPPY NEW YEAR to all we set alight and let fly in to the new years night five Chinese lanterns are wishes and dreams went with them hopefully 2012 will be a better year , we all need a good one.Took the two Christmas trees down the lights outside , around the bay window and from the garage soffit. We put away the reindeer's and the rest of the tinsel Christmas cards and the wreaths and other ornaments ,as i am back at work tomorrow Christmas is over hope we are better off for Christmas this year might have to do some forward planing i know more than likely will be at Adel John the baptist church for midnight mass.

Boxing day well another Christmas done and dusted roll on 2012 , it was not a good Christmas no real atmosphere again went to Helen parents house and i took my laptop to put some James Patterson novels on to her Kindle she received , i would have liked one myself put needless to say no chance this year also i was hoping to win a i pod classic on eBay but never watched the bidding on it through as money is tight again this year as there is only one wage coming in , it was always going to be a difficult time , least we had some nice food and we are having another turkey dinner today with Yorkshire puddings and sweet potatoes and a few bottles of pear cider then its back to work tomorrow which i am happy that i have a job

Yesterday we got our dinner for boxing day bought a turkey crown from the village of Uppermill at Saddleworth along with a load of fresh vegetables including sprouts and satsumas but no dates hopefully they all grown locally ,We also stopped at the local bakery and bought some steak pies to eat there , a pork pie some Christmas truffles and mince pies and sliced Christmas cake , We went to the local Tesco at Greenfields
and bought some sweet potatoes lager and cider and some chocs and other provisions all ready for our feast on boxing day .

today we went visiting called to see my Daughter at the hair salon she works the called to a old Friend who watched me grow up from my birth and was a true Friend to my mum for over fifty five years we said we will invite here over to dine with us , form there we went to Lawnswood crematorium to leave Christmas cards for relatives that are passed over.









Went to Christmas mass to the church at Adel where Helen grow up and used to play in its grounds,went with Mark and Sue the church is a 12th century building its small and very architectural in its design with its big old door and exposed beams it was full its the first time i have to Communion in many years.

Its been decided by us both to go to Helen's parents for Christmas dinner , we will get a turkey crown and do another Christmas dinner on boxing day with sweet potatoes and honey roasted parsnips washed down with my favorite pear cider , as always we are skint its been another hard year with lots of ups and downs and various peaks and troughs , hopefully in 2012 things will level out and improve.

Its been hard to save for this Christmas i would have loved a kindle and a i pod classic two important features in my life reading and music its not going to happen ,for Helen i wanted to get her a Buddha water feature and a reiki bed its not likely to happen.

That doesn't mean we wont have a great Christmas we will have a great time together although i will miss my children Christmas is not the same and Helen will miss her children , we have both had great Christmases in the past and hopefully will have a few more great ones yet , Christmas costs we all want to give nice presents to our loved ones its not always possible we both know if we had more money there would be loads of gifts under the Christmas tree and why not , ever one we know never seem to struggle like we do have holidays go out and have money for the sales we never do for the last four years we have been on a tight budget.
But we CAN NEVER forget we left everything to be together and started again with nothing , we have between us created a home and house we are proud of.

We have done alterations and modernised the house which we never thought we would work which is still on going , our first Christmas together we was in the apartment near to town and we didn't have a Christmas tree we moved in a few days before Xmas and didn't have the time , now we have two trees and numerous lights round the house both inside and out have two light up reindeer's out on the patio maybe we have more than we realise.

went for a interview for supervisors position today at one o clock , it went very well hopefully i will be the best and get the job , hope i do if not well i will keep trying.
Christmas looms as does the new year if Santa was visiting this year and money was no object here's what i would like.

Have been allocated a interview for a supervisors position were i currently work on the 20th of December as before will give it my best shot and hopefully get a job offer.
have bidded on four wooden tarot card boxes on eBay for Helen's collection of cards she uses for peoples tarot readings all are ornately designed and carved.Also she has designed and ordered 500 business cards from vistaprint all done online online to distribute where necessary.Helen is also ordered a domain address and is building her own website.
I got my son Guy interested in I-tunes and listening to music via a i-pod nano he was using but only after a couple of days went kaput we think the battery is dead so i sent him mine as he was a little pissed off to say the least after building his play list, i will have to use my i-phone until i get a new i pod touch or i-pod classic i am undecided the touch does a lot more things but the classic will hold lots more songs/albums at 160 gig and the white touch is a sleeker piece of design.
bought a pair of K-Swiss trainers these were used but in very good condition for a princely sum of £2.91p plus £2.50 p/p , also i bought some original i-pod earphones if they aren't they are very good copies and i would buy them again also i bought now 10 i-phone screen protectors for £1.49 free p/p and i now hold 22 stars and 100% feedback , seeing as i only buy and don't sell and pay for each item as soon as i win a item , this is likely to drop.
worked all week this week and i am working all next week this will be a good start to the new year also i receive this months salary on the 23rd of December a few days early because it is Christmas holidays.

Listening to - Akon Koncrete

Reading - I Steve-Jobs in his own words by George Beahm

This morning in the rain i fixed the blue icicle lights to the eaves of the garage using drawing pins we passed the cable through the window then just shut the window trapping the wire in place hopefully it wont strip the protective cover that protects the wires.Then i did the white icicle lighting to the front of the bay window also using drawing pins this time just running it back inside via over the front door threshold.We have two Christmas trees one in the living room and one in the hallway which Helen decorated we have quite a few strings of lights now scattered throughout he house we are going to get some for our wrought iron bed just to be on the safe side will get batteries ones not type of shocking experience i want in the bedroom would really go with a bang

From the visit to the building society our mortgage has dropped by a £150 a month which now makes our house cheaper than renting somewhere , which is a result in a way i suppose it would have been nicer to have a repayment of around £350 we are now paying £433 a month.
Bought some hand crafted sky lanterns to let go at Christmas and new year also bought some blue and whit icicle lights to go on the bat window and on the garage.

We have to go see the mortgage advisor tomorrow at the Leeds we have been on a fixed term contract since buying the house three years a go this is now up for renewal and a new term to agree we have been fixed at nearly 6.5% for the last 36 months.Hopefully it will drop a decent amount and make life a lot easier , hopefully it will be a early Christmas present that we both benefit from for the nest few years to come.

Last few weeks i have still been able to work extra shifts . I have applied for a supervisors job vacancies which would mean a minimum of 45 hours a week one hour more than what i am currently doing , starting at two in the afternoon and finishing at ten in the evening which is only a hour later than my current evening shift , plus they would be a wage increase and sick benefits and pension would increase so all in all it would be a good promotion IF I GET IT.Stocked up on a case of Magners pear cider which was on offer eight bottles for seven quid we ran out of incense sticks and night lights , Helen did some card readings totalling four with another three to do next week .

Ebay i bought recently a white Breo watch a in car-charger for our i-phone's and a phone case for He lens i-phone .All for under a tenner . had to buy a new car battery for the freelander £93.00 Other purchased Skullcandy head phones lasted a few hours before they got trashed due to the wire getting mysteriously cut in a few places rendering them useless good job i only paid £12.99 for them 50% off from Hmv.

reading - Steve jobs biography

Watching Sarah Millican - "Chatterbox" which is brilliant and Peter Kay "The tour that didnt tour".

Listening to Snowpatrol "Fallen Empire's" and James "Millionaire"

Got to decide what we are doing over Christmas dinner this year do we cook it ourselves or go out to eat at a rustic country pub or go to Helen in laws a toughie , advantages of cooking our own -

1.it will be cheaper.
2.wont involve any driving.
3.know we Will enjoy every mouthful.
4.free drinks.
5.can watch TV whilst eating.
6.can have 2nd and thirds.
7.cat and dog get to pig out too

disadvantages
1.have to prepare and cook it.
2.washing the dishes.
3.turkey rest of week .

so inlaws or Pub?

Guess that's decided then will eat out , out on the moors at a little country pub within about a 45minute drive of our house , unless it snows which will be another issue .

Not done much this week a friend Louise is working on her new hair salon should be completed in a few weeks picked four large gold mirrors up for the walls above her new workstations in her salon once its all decorated each mirror was £99.99p got them all in my freelander but was worried if one cracked , smashed or broke on route to her house , not so much the cost but cant do with another seven years bad look. Been engaged a WHOLE week now no nearer to Vegas , Went to the supermarket bought a dragon fruit , papaya , mango and a persimmon to try out my favorite was the dragon fruit a lot kiwi except its white inside with black seeds but tastes very similar they are well nice the cost £1.49 each.bought of eBay a new phone case for my apple 3gs phone with free p/p only £3.50 ,plus a charger plug unit for i pod/phone/ipad docking lead for charging up at work around the house £1.65 free postage packaging and the new Steve jobs biography hardback edition for £1.49 also free p/p.

LISTENING TO JAMES - GREATEST HITS

Sunday lazy lazy Sunday well it was until i decided to go to Thruscross reservoir near Harrogate/Otley for an afternoon walk with Helen and Pip our little Jack Russell .about five miles from home realised we had forgotten pips lead , had to go back home i thought about buying a new one put finding a pet shop was pointless task so did a u-turn and went back home.
We finally got to our location and parked up and started the walk the first bit was nice and steady easy peasy stroll the the trail was littered with pine needles from the fir trees it was either muddy or hard going and in ways it was a bit like walking on a carpet , when we passed the mill ruin we came to a bridge to pass over the water , to get here took just under a hour it was around half past two the sun was out and it was a pleasant afternoon i thought we had completed one side of the reservoir , so we crossed over the bridge to come back to the car park .What we didn't realise at this point is that the three off us had completed less than a third of the walk as you can see from the map , which we only looked at when we got back home .From THIS POINT ON on it was muddier it was darker , it was up and down hills over fields and meadows and sty's it was twice as hard going on a few occasions we lost sight of the reservoir Helen was pissed off the dog was pissed off i was knackered my back and hip was playing up and aching terribly i had fallen down an embankment and to cap it all it was getting darker and colder bt he minute,over another hill and we saw the road going over the reservoir on which we drove on to the car park it was in the distance and guessing it was about another mile and a half away we made it back to the car i was in that much agony Helen didn't want me to go to work on the Monday , we got home Pip slept from getting home at half past six till the following morning , i did get up the following morning and did go to work , next time will look at the maps and distance we are walking we covered seven miles on our trek Helen has vowed never to go back to Thruscross reservoir again.

Today we went back to the Trafford centre Manchester to pay the balance on He lens engagement ring , And of course to get engaged on the 5th November Bought from HMV a gear4 smart dock reduced from £99.99 to £39.99 with a built in FM radio remote control and equalizer with i phone app to turn it in to an alarm clock so pretty chuffed at the price and quality.

evening went to the Leeds Cathedral in Leeds city centre it was the Filipino yearly mass we was invited by my co worker i clean operating theatres with on a evening , to sample the the local cuisine and dishes cooked by him and his Friends very good very nice a very empty plate , After we called at Helen's parents house to tell them we was engaged and to show them the ring we had got a few hours earlier , we ended up playing the card game whot and playing domino's before going home.

Listening to - Manic street preachers "National Treasure the complete singles"

watching - 300

Thinking is it possible to go back to the Trafford shopping centre Manchester to pay the remainder off on Helen's engagement ring so we can get engaged on bonfire night , that way we can never forget the date and they will be fireworks on every anniversary , I have tomorrow but if can't then there is always Saturday i will have to see if I can stretch my money to cover the remanding balance if not there is always Cash Converter's my laptop and camera on the buy back option would raise me the £200 I need.I could even buy a cheap ring get engaged then once we get the diamond ring from the jewellers swap them problem solved.

listening to - Birdy eyes Liam Gallagher and Noel Gallagher high flying bird

watching - channel 4 Top Boy

Yesterday we went over to the Trafford centre Manchester to look at engagement rings we finally decided on one and i paid a deposit will pick it up at the end of November its white gold with four diamonds in a square set it fitted perfectly afterwards had fish and chips then drove back to Leeds.

Steve jobs death and the fact that his autobiography is out , got me thinking it was reported in the press and no doubt Forbes that he was worth in the region of 5.5 billion dollars or sterling not sure which but what the heck he was still worth a load of cash , so how much would he pay to come back from the dead and to Live again for one whole year.to be in perfect health for the whole twelve months And to be fit enough to do or go where ever he wished .to see the sunrise and sunset to feel the wind and rain on his face to eat a favourite meal washed down with his favourite tipple to read a book , watch a film , listen to his favourite music and make love to his women , I reckon all of it he would part with ever last dime , so why that anybody alive that can still experience all or some of the above seem to spend time bitching and moaning how shit life is all because the cost of living has gone up , one life live it

Helen and I are to get engaged we have been through so much together in the last four years .
I love Helen without compromise I will always do my utmost to provide for her, look after her and watch over her.

In the time we have been together we have played some aces and sometimes the cards we have been dealt both good and bad ,sometimes we have got it wrong when we should have got it right , but at the time probably didn't have the choices that where are own making , if people along the way have been upset pissed off or annoyed with us then tough it was never intentional.
We started out with nothing first week Helen walked out of her marriage we was living in a hotel in Leeds city centre until we arranged a viewing and got the apartment at Clarence dock that's is where we spent our first Christmas together.it was fully furnished but we Still had lots of things to buy even the little things add up when you are starting again with nothing but love .

Christmas day we finished dinner and went down to the canal to feed the ducks the city centre was deserted it was like a ghost town.we moved into the apartment a few days before Christmas day we had jotted no trimmings but had everything we needed for the best Christmas Day dinner ever Three months later we moved in to a four bedroom stone built through terrace with a garden to the rear also near to the canal by a few weeks we had the house transformed even the landlord was impressed with how it was looking Having a garden meant we could sit out on a evening we could hang washing out have barbecues and by plants shrubs and flowers we also bought a rabbit .Six months later we was signing a mortgage for the house we have now we have been there three years we have transformed the kitchen dinner knocked the toilet and bathroom in to one with a new bathroom suite , the garden is totally changed with raised beds boarders we even Planted a pear tree .

What else has happened well Helen is still with me through thick and thin she is at my side she left everything to be with me her house belongings and possessions her children even her dog and the best part of her wardrobe she turned up at the hotel with a couple of suitcases and a few of her belongings why to be with me she trusted me not to go back home , she trusted that I loved her would lo look after and care for her that I wanted to be with her forever she trusted me with her heart and soul , and she believed in me above anyone else to be true to my word and She gave it all up to be with me in a double room in a Holiday Inn in Leeds city centre that's why we are getting engaged and that's why we are looking at engagement rings this coming Saturday . still love Helen and i know Helen still loves me , if that upsets anyone that we are still together or are totally pissed off or they have trouble understanding we are still in LOVE , then tough your problem not ours.

No work until my evening shift woke up to a glorious morning the sun was shining the sky was blue we don't bother with drawing the curtains on a night in our bedroom nothing is opposite us apart from the church Helen got married in years earlier our house features on some of her wedding photos Nine years earlier I actually went to her evening reception and kiss her in her wedding dress know I get to kiss her naked who would of thought not my wife who had accompanied me , Helen I meet at work and as soon as I saw her I was in dream world I missed her when I didn't get to see her we both just worked on the weekends and of course when sickness and holidays occurred meant no weekly fix for me .
Today we went to kirkstall Abbey it's only a five Minute drive from where we live, Pip our jack came on our outing , never really explored the abbey or studied it's history it dares back to the 1500,s from reading plaques throughout the ruins the monks where called to pray six times a day starting at one in the Morning drank up to two gallons of ale a day had one bath once a month if they needed one or not and only had fires for warmth from November to Easter too much comfort was considered a sin, guess I am a sinner in more ways then one but hey only God can judge me.
Went to Toby carvery were we sinned some more they now do coke with unlimited refills , the waitress asked how many I would like , I said one glass and unlimited refills she said yes I replied do you see a rolex on my wrist NO so just the one glass and two straws we will share.

Standing at the bus stop this morning just before half past six i realised i had left my id badge and swipe card on my bedside drawers.Also it had the key for my locker on it so i trundled on back home hopefully in the process not missing my bus i dashed home unlocked the porch unlocked the front door dashed upstairs grabbed the lanyard with my id and swipe card dashed back downstairs locked up got back to the bus stop and caught the bus in to work result.got in to work signed in couldn't find my id badge etc shit search my jacket pockets jean pockets and back pack no joy shit.reported the lost to security to cancel my swipe card which gave me access to all areas.
I had to get two forms filled out one for the swipe lock card and my photo id card took them over to security located at other side of the building to where i work quite a trek , only to find the computer was down couldn't print my photo id out the swipe card takes 24hours to process , So all fcuking day i had to be buzzed in and out which was totally annoying pissed me right off. By the end of the day i had my photo card id only need my swipe card should be tomorrow after twelve and a key to my locker so i can get my theatre shoes hopefully can get in using a master key if not get another key.WHY DID I BOTHER GOING HOME,

Tonight we went to the Marriott hotel in Leeds city centre to watch the clairvoyant Steven Holbrook , i have seen him once this year in Oldham ,Helen has seen him numerous times , and was watching him at performances way before she meet me.I have his three autobiography's to read that chart his life from a child to present day.Tonight i got a message and so did Helen , he knew it was my birthday today which it is and no i wasn't wearing a birthday badge, hat or carrying a helium balloon saying happy birthday he got my name right and the length of time my mam had passed he knew i had been speaking with her today and knew the last five years have been very turbulent that she approved of Helen and that she had a part in getting us together he also gave Helen a message from her grandmother Lily who's name he got right we both felt he was speaking from his heart quite a few other people received messages quite a few where left without any doubt that it was the loved ones departed relying the messages through Steve all i can say is this if you have not seen him go to one of his shows and make your own mind up about his ability to speak with the dead .The next time he is in or near to Leeds we will go again.

Been a average week nothing earth shattering has happened worked every day plus today.Yesterday went to see the Damion Hirst exhibition at Leeds art gallery what a pile of rubbish was not impressed 90% of his work i wouldn't class as art but suppose he is laughing all the way to the bank so who am i to criticise his work .Helen's dog Sam is being put to sleep Monday , she wants the vet to arrange a cremation and to receive his ashes Damion would just drop it in to some formaldehyde in a perspex box , its my 52nd birthday tomorrow i am not working we might go to see Steve Holbrook the clairvoyant.Have been watching Dynamo the magician illusionist on tv i know he cant walk on water or push things in to solid objects even so i think not knowing is part of the fun so i am happy not knowing i dont want to know , i like not knowing for me he's brilliant i don't want my illusionist to be a delusion.

Well a third day off grey leaky skies how things always look better when its a hot summers day and the skies are clear blue and the birds are singing , love when frank says on shameless we live in Manchester and were charged for water about sums this country up and worst of all we stand for it.




Our Jack Russell Pip messed her bed this morning i took her outside so she could wee when she came back in she jumped in her other bed and urinated straight away getting fed up its all the time and its getting me down i love her to bits but the house cant take her using it as a toilet its worse than having a baby.





No matter what time Helen and i go to bed even if i am working or not i am always the first out of bed , Helen just lays there even if she is awake first she doesn't stir don't know how she does it but it happens all the time .

only working two full days this week apart from my contracted evening shift of half till half eight working full five days next week which is more like it be nice also to get another weekend in this month .

The above pictures are taken with my Fuji finepix which is a brilliant camera for the price 14 mega pixels and 24x optical zoom.

LISTENING TO - The very best punk rock songs ever

Still looking at docks for my i-phone got to be loud enough and compact enough to fit in my work bag , two out of the three theatres now have neither pc speakers or docks i can use to play my music , TH ATS once all operations are done and patients are out of recovery and back on their wards.

Pip still needs house training we are making little or no progress , as she does not seem to grasp the idea of toilet training and that she needs to do it out of the house . Bless her she is a great little dog but is being very Blondie will have to look in to taking her for some type of training she is loving cute and all in all brilliant we love her dearly and will hopefully educate ourselfs so we can educate her .

Still not made it to the charity shops to look for Richard Montanari paper backs.
Won on the euro lottery 2 numbers and one star netting £5.90 and won £2.50 0n plus five might get me three books.

Not been to Starbucks for ages missing my white chocolate mocha's , also i am missing my Starbucks extra grande coffee mug its no where at home and have not seen it for ages which is annoying , thinking Helen has slung it cause it didn't match with the rest of our pots she saying i took it to work i never lol.

Not applied for any other jobs since i have been doing extra shifts at work if these end will be well in a mess and life will be very difficult specially all the bills i pay for house and car and loans etc.

Listening to P J Harvey

watching Shameless AND NY Ink

reading - Stuff gadget magazine

Not working Tuesday Wednesday or Thursday apart from my half to nine at night slot that means three days of sleeping in well at least til half eight or nine o cl cock the latest , taking pip out for mid morning walks tormenting Helen going shopping and hopefully breakfast at subway for sausage egg and cheese sub.might look at a speaker dock for my i-phone depending availability of monies looking at a gear 4 or a Sony also want to go to the charity shops to see if i can get some Richard Montanari paper backs there will always be some James Patterson ones maybe some i haven't read if all else fails.

watching - idiot abroad 2

film to watch - Son of Morning

listening to - The Manic Street Preachers and Miles Kane

Saturday we Went to Todmorden to visit centre vale park to pat the allegedly lucky dog which was featured on the Calender news programme featuring Derren Brown who is doing his own show on good luck and fortune , various people have had very good luck happen to them after stroking the statue of the dog , on getting home Helen did a scratch card she bought before we left she won £15 hehe who knows could do with six little numbers.After went to Hebden Bridge to visit all the hippy shops apprently in the 60's lots of hippys settled in the tiny village

thinking about Christmas already bought some one million aftershave its a while since i bought my self any new designer aftershave wanted a bottle for ages and as we were going out last Saturday night i though rather than buy a new shirt or jeans i get some one million and for some reason it got me thinking about Christmas be our third in this house. The fist year we didn't even have a cooker this year we have a new bathroom windows and central heating in the upstairs rooms , a lot has happened this year and no doubt next year is going to be just eventful as they say life goes on.

After I finish work this Friday I will have worked nineteen days without a day off , so I am really looking forward to this coming weekend .
Need to get out on the moors explore new Parts we have not walked on before take new photos and of course take Pip with us .Getting up at six every day has taken it's toll need to have a sleep in and have a relaxed weekend , Plenty of fresh air to clear my head of bleach and the smell of hospitals , I know i won't sleep in and I bet it will be raining but least it will be time of from work ,

Everything is fine for the past fourteen days i have done nothing but worked.life goes on day to day i rise at six to go to work and arrive home at two in the afternoon to go back at four thirty till nine.
.At least its helping me keep on top off bills and its not getting me down not having a full time job after being made redundant , even though helen is hating me being away all the time and me being permanently knackered.

Well all in all been working none stop almost every day , sometimes finishing at half past one or three o clock or even four o clock , still its the only job i have and am grateful for the chance of doing extra shifts.
Pip still is not house trained , we have been up to malham and Goldern acre park with her on two occasions have taken her of the lead and its good seeing her race about.
other than that done very little apart from sleep and yawn.

Monday finished at one at night off went to The Three Nuns pub for a psychic night for a demonstration and a reading . All I been doing this week from Tuesday is working from seven in the morning until one in the afternoon , then starting at four thirty in the afternoon until midnight.Doing this shift the rest of week . My daughter is in Aiya napa for two weeks and I am jealous wish it was me .Helen came home in a Ferrari the other night louises accountant dropped her of very nice ride, very nice price

worked mon to weds on neonatal ward worked Thursday on Friday went for a interview first one in over ten years , it went could gave it 110% completed two practical skill test to a high standard answered every question put to me i wouldn’t do it differently if i had to do it again , hopefully i will get a result I want I will have to give my part time job on a night cleaning the theatres i cant have two employment contracts , anyway its 22k a year and it is full time starting 7.30am until 16,00pm no working bank holidays and no more working two jobs finish at four and its home time.

THINK its better to do one blog for the week thenn individual posts , sometimes its less time consumiming not that is a main issue ATM but some days life just plods on even though i usally take the dog out if not working and do bits around the house apply for the odd job nothing dunbfoundling good always happpens to report or commemt on or bore people with on this blog .thats not to say i am not reading watching films listening to great tunes , along with sex eating dating and doing other things. worked all day Monday and all day Tuesday seven till one then half four till nine at night .also its been confirmed i can work this Saturday.

Thursday.
I finally meet up with my son Guy picked him up from Pocklington where he lives with my ex , and drove in to York city centre had breakfast at a bistro type cafe was a bit to nice no greasy spoon and came with no baked beans. He bought some jeans and a t-shirt he liked he is having girl trouble which was irritating him my advice was dump her if she is cheating ditch her which wasn’t the advice i think he was craving after.

Friday
went shopping at Primarni bought a pair of jeans four t-shirts two grey and two black and twelve pairs of socks went to Subway for breakfast for two sausage egg and cheese subs one with tea the other coffee £4.00 ten times better than MacDonald’s they have apparently just changed their coffee got to say was one of the nicest tasting coffees i have had for a while, bought nine cookies to take home.My old friends Nik and Erky visited he brought me windows seven enterprise for my desk top it’s all up and running with new key board and wireless mouse also stuck in 4 gig of memory instead of the one it had in ,They liked what we had done to our home knocking through the kitchen and knocking through the bathroom to make larger rooms It was the first time they came to see us was always a bit embarrassed about our bathroom it was antiquated.

Saturday

Went to work at half nine had to nip out to take Helen to her well being class at Bristall, she was attending ten till five i finshed work at hal past one. When i picked her up we was both starving so we decided to go for for an Italian our favorite all time restuarant is PICCOLINO in Leeds City centre i took Helen her for the first time whilst i was still married one luch time i skipped work and saved up enough money for a few beers and lunch and this is where we ended up , the food here is always brilliant my only bitch is the dont do pears cider had to settle for a apple Magners the onion rings and handcut chips always go good with the carbonara.

Took Pip over to Uppermill again today she was well behaved in the car and slept most of the way , parked up at Dovestone It was beginning to rain so we had a coffee and headed back to Leeds.On the way home we stopped at Marstons chicken shack you can smell the chicken well before you get to the actual shop depending on the wind today we stopped and bought some fried chicken and chips which we ate once we got home very tasty better than kfc , Pip and Harvey both approved .Visited Helens grandmother grave Helen took a single pink rose cut from our garden and left it on her grave.

saturday
Well its the first time ever i have done a full week at the hospital , i worked on a ward where a lot where in due to bowel cancer one man had been in hospital for the last eight months , in a side room with no real view it a sentence and how he copes is beyond me no going for fish and chips going to the take away going shopping in to town or the supermarket cant even walk out to the news agents to buy a magazine or a morning paper.So i am not going to moan again how shit life can be , i shouldn't moan or grumble loads of people worse off then i , got to be thankful for what i have and not dwell on what i haven't got.



Bought the above monitor from CCL at Tong it was £81 inc vat its 22" and so far so good the power supply cable that came with it was one of those new weird leads every one seems to be using with two round pins on the end as a plug lucky i had another monitor lead that fitted other wise i would not have been able to have it running , its is to replace my old monitor which gave up the ghost for some unknown reason

The bathroom is now completed the flooring is down we opted fora slate looking lino we also fitted two charcoal blinds its took longer then we expected but we are both happy with the end result , no major hiccups and no hassles on the way with new windows and with a double radiator bath time in winter should be a lot better than the last three years we have been living in the house , also we have had radiators fitted in each of the three bedrooms upstairs previously only ever had the one small single radiator in the bathroom which had a single glazed window so hopefully we will be able to be warm providing we can afford the price of the gas to fuel it .

On the job front i have been working all week at the hospital working on a ward from seven till one in the afternoon as well has doing a extra half hour i worked a sunday previously and i am working monday and tuesday next week with a following saturday so although i have not found a new employer it looks like we wont be starving just yet.

Thursday
Harvey went back to the vets for his post operation check up he was fine no problems and he has made a full recovery , no little Harvey's will be ever running around the neighbough hood.

Saturday
walked pip a good few miles today Helen was doing a a craft stall down at Rodley nature reserve so i took Pip down just before dinner time today was a first day out of the house on the lead , we bought a body harness for her to wear and she was very well behaved she walked most of the time at the side or in front of me only a couple of times did she get under my feet .

Sunday
Went to Saddleworth with Pip , once again she was well behaved she didn't suffer from travel sickness and once again she was well behaved on the lead , went up to Uppermill every body who passed commented and stroked her , she impressed everyone she meet on route .

Saturday
picked my daughter up from her house after she had finished work at her hair salon at around four o clock , went to the Crown buffet for a chinese meal pigged out .she was eager to see our new pup Pippa.The house is in a bit of a mess due to having the old bathroom demolished and a new bigger bath room created as always with building work dust gets everywhere , of course she adored Pip and spent a few hours in the garden with her.Bought a new high gloss white mirror and white bathroom cabinet.

Sunday
Called over to see my Nephew Mark who has spent the last three weeks in the States traveling around , he has also recently been made redundant after leaving there we went to the Red Bus which is a double decker and is located on the A64 the road to York , this was for breakfast but it was well after twelve o clock when we got there dropped my daughter off back at her house , early evening started to do the tiling in the bathroom whilst Helen painted the tongue and groove cladding , skirting boards and boxing in.Its still work in progress but should be completed in the next few days

It has been a miserable week not only weather wise i was told one of the theatre sisters is retiring early due to being diagnosed with cancer which has returned for the second time ,Pip as a ear infection and we had to take her to the vets , Harvey the cat is being very tolerant of her and is making allowances for her puppy behavior he has hissed and smacked her a few times but on the hold he has been very laid back.
Also have been watching the wide spread riots unfold throughout the country until the common man and women are elected as members of parliament , until the working class and those living in urban decay and council estates areas, until there is a control on immigrants for those gaining entry to our shores , massive hand outs to other countries and funding wars we have or should have no interest in, and until there is the right for people wanting to own there own homes to be able buy affordable housing and until there is jobs for everyone , until gas and electricity stop increasing their prices every time its winter when the said companies and utilities are making billions of pounds in profit there are always going to be riots when people feel they have hold of the shitty end of the stick there are always going to be riots when every government lies and are governed by greed and overloaded expenses accounts have ignored promises have changed policies once elected have no care for the ordinary folk there will be thank you always riots.

well over a week since i bid farewell to my full time job , applied for five jobs but no interviews , have increased hours slightly at my part time job not substantially enough to order my over finch just yet , but might make the difference from eating or not eating . I also paid the next six months mortgage repayments up front which will take us off your fixed term agreement . and had the car mot'd and serviced. Also bought a few items of clothing from Bench which where in the sale and up to 60% off the original retail price other than that nothing earth shattering to report , Helen completed her reiki level two qualification last sunday , whilst i worked at my Hospital job.

Well i cant claim job seekers allowance from being made redundant from job number one ,basically because job number two i work at on a evening five nights a week is over sixteen hours , and is twenty hours a week and i cant claim tax credits because job number two is not thirty hours ,on one its too much the other not enough bloody typical.So the fact that i have not been unemployed for the last twenty years and for the last ten years have been working two jobs and paying two lots of tax and national insurance contributions count for sod all i basically have just £550 a month coming in which wont even cover the mortgage, never mind council tax, water rates, gas and electric and even food , one good thing when the house is reposed i wont have to worry about the council tax every cloud. Fact is my country does not need me now i am unemployed , and now i need my country i can more or less go away and starve . well fuck you.

Not entitled to JSA because i work twenty hours part time CAN NOT CLAIM TAX CREDITS BECAUSE i dont work thirty hours so all i have to live on is 80 hours wages which is around six hundred a month so after twenty years working i get fuck all after paying twenty years national insurance income tax get nothing for working two jobs and paying double national insurance paye i get nothing no tax credits no dole no rebates no help with council tax nothing big fat zero BRILLIANT.