Yesterday was the first full day without Helen being there,and it was really hard harder than the first day , although we have been in touch via text and she did ring me she told me she did go to our home through he day for a coffee with her mother and brother which i was glad about , and it made me smile knowing that she wanted to return there , she feed the rabbit Button some dandelion leaves which no doubt made his day.

I got through work half heartedly if only i could live the next few days with out going to work it would be a lot easier work messes everything up , i want to go onto the canal at Rodley and just walk or ride my Bike Helen got me , and just chill look up at the blue skies listen to some music on my i-pod and think about Helen maybe do some reading look at photos and dream i know dreams come true mine did and i know fantasies can become reality i am still living them hopefully .............i know life is not easy and we all need someone special in our lives to share things with and to make our world a better place i am missing a Angel i will wait for her to fly home she can return any time she can the sooner the better every second is a hour and every hour a day and every day a week time drags when she is not with me and goes to fast when she is.

Went to Next clothes shop and bought a new jacket bought a couple of t-shirts for work and another ten pairs of black socks went to Debenhams and sprayed myself with angel perfume which is what Helen wears and i sprayed a card as well hope it lingers long .

We have long twigs that stand in a glass vase in the kitchen at the side of the dresser. Helen as already put a tin bird on there and a wooden heart and a fabric heart i will for every night/day that we are apart go out and buy either a heart ,a angel or a star and place them on the twig branches or a a candle i will do this until we are back together again.

Mick called with his wife Helen and stayed for a few lagers i ordered a pizza then well went to bed after midnight i got a call from my Helen which made my night.

I will be working this weekend OUCH ...i have got the landlord coming to visit to check the place out will have to finish at one on Saturday and might do the same finish on Sunday and go for that bike ride weather permitting .