Pissed off with the weather ,pissed off with bills , pissed off with prices for food which goes up every time you go shopping , pissed off with the house need new bay windows will cost around £6000 , pissed off with this country , pissed off with the people that live here ,no one cares the government and politicians are the biggest wankers going ,and are in it to win it for themselves , no have no real idea or grasp how the rest are struggling to survive , pissed off with those who always think you have savings in the bank just waiting to be spent , pissed off because its very likely i wont have a holiday again this year , so all in all you could say i am totally pissed off.

Keep seeing a Landrover Discovery driving around where i live with the slogan on the wind screen "one life live it" YES IF I HAD THE MONEY I WOULD , if the job situation was better more people would as well , we are all too busy trying to survive , we are running to stay in the same spot , and that's if we are lucky .

I work at the hospital and see cases that are so sad people who are critical ill and are terminal cases , and young children who wont see there age reach double figures and i know i shouldn't moan , and i should be contented and grateful and happy with what i have , happy that i go home to a house that is basically dry , warm and safe and that Helen is there waiting for me each night yet i am feeling down , must be the weather .

Well just got back from getting my haircut from Louise at Luxe hair salon in Bramley once again she cut it exact how i like it , also trimmed my eyebrows and side burns it was actually sunny and warm when i left the house which was nice , i dropped helen of there eat nine this morning , Louise is a friend and they sit drink tea and chat all day . Fingers crossed things will get better . Sunshine after the rain and all that , but for now its nearly two p.m and time to get ready for work.

Well today again is grey and wet and has not really stopped raining all morning to be honest if we was not for cooking a breakfast and feeding the pets there be little point in leaving a warm cosy bed cuddled up under the duvet with Helen.

Well its nearly six o clock in the evening and its still raining its been one crap day. Went out to buy a ready cooked chicken for our evening dinner apart from that i have just been messing around on the laptop Playing the Helicopter game on face book whilst Helen has been glossing some doors upstairs in the bathroom and bedrooms , i refuse to gloss i hate it painting walls is ok nothing else .



Won this Me to You bear of ebay tonight just after six , so we asked if we could collect tonight at Nine and was given the ok to do so , we went to collect just after eight , we had to drive to Stayley Bridge , which is about 45 miles away .
The drive over was well foggy and we went part way on the motorway we arrived there just after nine and paid the fee for the bear we strapped the bear (Ushi) his name given to him by Helen in to the rear seat and set off home.

Coming home we went over Saddleworth moors visibility was around ten feet and the fog and mist was rolling in , Its hard not to think of the moors murderers the evil bastards Brady and Hindley it also reminded me of the opening scenes of "American werewolf in London , the bear and us arrived safely home , on opening the door the cat shoot off when it saw what we was dragging in and Pip , i think is in love.

Finished work , got home with a key in my pocket that i should have handed and signed back in at reception on leaving for home so i returned back in my car just before midnight and left it where i should have done on leaving at 11.00pm .

Went to Tesco Helen had a reading earlier a lady phoned up and requested one straight away which she did whilst i was at work , i bought a bottle of Koppaberg pear cider i have been quite good in recent weeks and have not had one to drink for ages i put it straight in the freezer to chill it i got brain chill when i drank it a hour later .

We bought some black ink for the printer and 50 blank Cd's whilst we was out Helen is getting through a few as she records each reading using a mp3 voice recorder then burns them to disc , hopefully wont be long before we need more.

I got home to found out that i won a silver skull that i had bid on earlier in the week , i am waiting to see if i win skull number two they are hand crafted by a silversmith in Latvia ,i also ordered some black 550 para cord 2 x 50 feet lengths from a seller in the U.K.

WENT TO BED AT TWO A.M way too late should have been a hour sooner at least.

Our Rag doll Harvey stayed out all night and only returned at quarter to nine this morning always fear someone will snatch him he is a beautiful cat and too friendly for his own good its a hard decision to let him out and he only goes out a couple of times a month or less and is usually in for around the time we go to bed usually around midnight.

Its ten o clock am and Helen is still in bed we need to go to the post office to collect more packages from ebay , so so typical of her we was also was going to the Toby Carvery The 11th Earl for breakfast might have to go there tomorrow instead , today yet again is grey and cloudy and looks like it will rain at any time typical English weather .

Made a basic cake with simple ingredient's only took an hour of course Helen helped and showed me what to do , i have never baked anything since school which was too long ago to remember then i think it was scones we also made our own bread and butter if my memory serves me right.

Bought a barbecue not sure why after all this rain just hope we get the chance to use it cant wait to sit out on a weekend and cook all day on a open fire breakfast dinner tea and supper washed down with numerous bottled of Pear cider , will assemble it tomorrow.

The Buddha is my daughters she left it with me for save keeping it had a broken thumb but its been fixed with some super glue and will return it to her when she reaches home when ever that may be .

Well got my first monthly wage as a supervisor and to be honest i was earning a lot more as a cleaner although the hours i worked where never guaranteed each week , if i had come out with what i got this month as a supervisor with a wage increase and also a annual pay rise i would have considered it a bag wage , If I pay all the bills i am left with nothing , and i wont even have money for the bus fares to work , so the question is what don't i pay as we are behind with most bills its just going to put us in more debt , i don't have the answers and i don't have the money and i fell like fuck it why is it all down to me to pay all the bills mortgage , food and toiletries .

The picture is of an Abalone shell Helen bought on Ebay for a few pounds it sits on a cobra stand and contains different crystals and gems - Abalones have been identified as one of the many classes of organism threatened with extinction due to acidification of oceans from anthropogenic carbon dioxide, as reduced pH erodes their shells. It is predicted that abalones will become extinct in the wild within 200 years at current rates of carbon dioxide production. The extract was taken from wikipedia.

For the fifth day running it is dark and grey and wet and raining periodically on and off all day again , and it looks like its not going to be greatest weekend weather wise ,we might distribute some more of Helen's leaflets she as printed out to other places covering a wider area from last weeks that we placed in shops and supermarkets we got four readings plus someone who wants a several doing at their home so its worth spending time and getting out there and making the effect.

Finally hooked with my daughter again on skype the time difference makes it hard plus she as other family members and loads of Friends to talk and chat to so its never easy she is doing good and is still working she was using the net book her good friend sent her over from Australia , She is still working at the Salon and doing cuts for girls she knows at the Hostel and others she has meet out and about , and will move in to her apartment next Saturday with her best friend Shanelle who is funding the cost of the deposit bond up front rent etc , she as constantly helped my daughter out from day one and she has been there with her through thick and thin , i don't think i know that she couldn't have got a better travel companion or better friend to go with her than Shanelle , and without her help it wouldn't have been possible , i like to say Thank you .

I Left work last night at ten o clock and the bus i normally catch missed i had nearly forty five minutes to wait for the next bus due , by the time i got home it was after eleven , we decided to get a Chinese take away sweet and sour pork fried rice and chips to share ,every Chinese take away was shut ,The Indian's and Pakistan's open all night and till at least two in morning so an Indian meal for two it was it was it was way after twelve when we sat down to eat.

1 am buying a couple of the silver skulls above to put on some black para cord for a bracelet or for a key ring or even maybe to attach another Spyderco or Leatherman knife.
I have practiced and i don't think i will have nay trouble tying the cord , as i can do the basic cobra and king cobra weave and basically any pattern is repetitive and has soon has you have the hang of it usually is straight forward there is plenty of post on you tube to show you how . The skulls with postage will be around £9.00 each are individually made no two are identical and the cord around a fiver for a hundred foot of decent 550 cord .

Reading Jo Nesbo " Headhunters" Highly recommended

Watching - "Haywire" on DVD on T.V " Four rooms"

Well its just gone another day earned twenty quid today and will earn fifty quid thursday and should be giving forty quid tonight i get paid thursday night and helen gets her money monday and we should get another seventy quid middle of next week so its not total doom and gloom and i don't suppose we will ever starve.

My Daughter got a net-book sent to were she works in New Zealand this was sent to her by a wonderful person she meet in Australia and true to his promise he sent it as a flat warming present for when she moves in to her apartment on the 5Th of May , the world still contains people who do good for others i guess we all think the world is full of hate , murder , rape and abuse when in fact it can be totally the opposite guess there is hope after all its nice to know.

Well cant decide what shirts i will be for work i either going down the line of charcoal grey or pure black two breast pockets would be good and they have to be short sleeved and will be bought from either H&M or Primarni fortune i am not going to spend think i could get one more shirt if i went to Primarni as they are cheaper , half dozen would be sufficient four be ok.

The weather recently has been wet grey and cold i need the weekend to be hot and sunny its nearly May the weather needs to improve otherwise we are going to have another rubbish summer , the biggest draw back to living in England is the weather and the price of gas to run the heating its ridiculous .

I want moan i forgot my sunglasses.

I want to moan its too hot i cant sleep.

I want to moan i am sick of sweating.

I want to moan i have run out of ice bags again.

I want to moan this heat is killing me.

I want to moan ice cream again for tea.

I want to moan no more charcoal for the barbie.

I want to moan i am sick of living in the garden.

I want to moan this summer has lasted for ever wheres winter.

I want to moan about global warming and the ice caps melting.

W e have a Jack Russell Pip and she is one of the nicest loving cutest dogs out she has no bad temperament does not whine , is playful and loves every one , i wouldn't change her for any other dog and i just thought i mention her in this blog she be a year old and we will go back to Southport with her , this near to where she was born we will go on the beach with her and hopefully we will set of early and set of home late , and it will be hot and sunny , we will eat freshly caught fish and chips followed by waffles and ice cream or a Knickerbocker glory , and on the beach and in the afternoon eat crab sandwiches and prawns and doughnuts.

Helen bought this helping hand of Ebay to hold her crystal ball , i had to fill it full of cement to compensate the weight of the crystal ball that it now holds the ball was over £70 a few years ago , you can get clear crystal but if you do look in to it and if you see any bubbles inside it , then its made from glass and not pure crystal. She also bought some Vibe cards which are colorfully and loud and is also after a signing bowl from Tibet and from the shores of Australia a abalone shell with a cobra stand for it to sit on , abalone shell are my favorite sea shell but Helen wants one to burn incense bundles and wraps it is called Smudging and was originally a Native American practice which has become popular with many alternative healing practitioners as well as Pagans and Wiccans . It can be used in purifying ceremonies and for things like moving into a new house, or removing negative energies. You burn the bundles and place them in an abalone shell. A feather is commonly used to spread the fragrant smoke around the area that you are cleansing. Sage, Cedar and Lavender are commonly used herbs for smudging and cleansing.

I thought smudging was something totally different too , i am not sure which sexual practice it just sounds dirty and fun , i suggest all you single people you go up to someone you fancy and ask them if they are up for a bit of smudging and see what happen , who knows i might be responsible for starting some new romances thats a nice thought.Helen as another two readings booked in for Thursday night this result is due to us dropping of leaflets Sunday afternoon in the pouring rain.

Reading :- Jo Nesbo "Headhunters"

Watching :- "Ghost protocol"

Listening to "Bob Marley" ost

late night early morning

Was well over half past three when i finally got to sleep , we both got up to make a drink at around three am , least i have the luxury of starting work at 14.00 p.m. Its grey and dull again and its raining on and off , i have not skyped my daughter for a few days now we Just don't seem to be on line at the same time , She as got tickets to go see Lady Gaga found out via face book. Leeds is building a new concert arena for years we have had to make do with venues such has Roundhay Park and Elland road football stadium as Other venues shut down years ago and have never been replaced with others . To say Leeds is a major city its lost millions of pounds in attracting visitors to the city at last its woken up to the fact people will travel to see their favorite bands and artists.

Not sure who is lined up to play there there is a few bands i would like to go see Snow Patrol , Coldplay just being two the arena should be finished in early 2013 at a estimated cost of £80 million pounds. Well four more days to pay day it will be my first wage as a supervisor , and i hope its have decent if its not i will be pissed off , i can only guess my next months will be better because i did two weeks on nights. Helen son as still not found any sort of employment long or short term full or part time hours zilch this is after nearly three and a half years , when he does , or if ever he gets re-employed he will feel like a millionaire he will no doubt quadruple what he is getting now maybe even more so it be like me earning 80k instead of 20k , what could anyone do with such a rise would be more than brilliant and be very life changing , thing is i know i would live to that sort of income there be no point in earning it if you wasn't going to enjoy it , bigger house better model of car and loads more gadgets and finer clothes loads more eating out and traveling hitting the road going on tour end of day i would owe out more money than i do now , perhaps i be happier than i am now i guessing i would be but i may never know .

ALL AREAS COVERED

Went to Hebbden Bridge again yesterday after we had been to Piece Hall in Halifax nearly all the shops are empty where as it used to be full of art and craft shops , its annoying the Council are charging to high rents so people have moved out , the same is happened in Leeds under the Dark Arches Granary Wharf and Corn Exchange , Helen went to the Friendly Dragon a shop that specializes in things of the world of magik and wiccca sells a range of incense spells books and tartot cards and singing bowls mirrors and candle holders i bought her a Serenity prayer cross

Serenity prayer was one reason she called her Business and websites serenity eternal this looked nice for the wall where she does her readings and sits most of the time on her Laptop , its the room we use the most its both our kitchen and dining and breakfast room and leads out in to the garden via patio doors .

The picture above is the Corn Exchange that was designed by Cuthbert Brodrick in 1864, he also designed the Town Hall and is a grade one listed structure . th

the one below the bridge leading to the catacombs of tunnels leading to the Dark arches Leeds principal main river passes through via four tunnels over 18 million bricks were used a record for the time of building and is also the treminus for the Leeds and Liverpool canal. This afternoon we traveled to all the local shops in Bramley , Rodley , Stanningley and Pudsey leaving posters for Helen's psychic tarot readings she wants to double or even treble her customers and seriously develop it as a venture rather than go to work elsewhere , we are also looking at the newspapers that carry free ads , this time next year who knows what , just trying to cover all areas .

A HEART ATTACK EVERY BITE

Its just past midnight it will be at least another half hour before we get our food delivered had nothing much all day they say half an hour could be more like an hour .

I don't know if other countries do doner pizza's or elephant foot as we call them here in the uk as you can probably tell its not the most calorie free meal out there its basically lamb and pork herbs and fat compacted in to a big slab of meat that is spit roasted very slow usually served with chili sauce onions and salad can be served in pitta bread with salad yogurt sauce also on pizzas and sometimes just meat in a tray with cheesy chips , thats basically fries with grated cheese on top , all washed down with a bottle of Coca - Cola forget the diet coke crap , its pointless you be just kidding yourself similar to smoking menthol cigs your still going to die its just a slower form of suicide ,plus you die with fresher breath no doubt the mortician will be grateful. Anyway as from the lips of Freddie Mercury "Who wants to live forever". Another reason for a mountain bike the money i save on diesel would pay for a ticket in around six months time i guess plus i be fitter. Anyway its bed time its nearly two am and be silly to spend all Saturday morning in bed I received my silver buckle for my paracord bracelet i am going to have made , a freind makes them but i have been looking on you tube how its doing and will be buying some cord .

Cut and stripped the wire from a old vacuum cleaner i used the wire to see if i could do the cobra weave and king cobra also to see how i would fit the bracelet stainless steel buckle

WANT IT

Well its just passed midnight just had waffles two eggs and two slices of ham did share the ham with Pip just had to make sure there was no sweet chili on her pieces.
have ordered a para cord bracelet of Ebay and looking at a monkeys fist purely as a key ring not as a weapon , i am going to buy some cord and have a go at doing some different weaves and designs like the king cobra and millipede plus some different knots mainly for myself a lot are selling the stuff they make via Ebay. .Its been a few weeks since i have had any pear cider i am getting with drawl symptoms not because i crave alcohol i just love the taste of Kopperberg pear>other things i crave :- Tablet pc. Compact digital camera. Mountain bike. Decent cd mp3 player for car. Plane tickets to New Zealand. I phone 4s in white. Dr Dre headphones. Five surround speakers. Cd mp3 player, for room. Asus dual screen laptop. Chocolate fudge cake , with pouring cream. Starbucks pre paid card with a £100 on it i-tunes card with no limit on it. Stuff and T3 and FHM , magazine subscription. unlimited overtime at work should i want it. Free bus and rail travel card anywhere in Europe Anyway out of all those things some are easily achievable most of all from the list above i would want tickets to visit my daughter in New Zealand. Helen had another three readings to do tonight i got home at half ten and it was another hour before she finished ordered a pizza half bolognese and half doner plus a bottle of coke and large fries . No work until Monday two o'clock in the afternoon its the weekend at last another day nearer to pay day.

Another grey wet rainy day so depressing need summer to kick in was only a few weeks ago the water authorities was enforcing a hose pipe ban on a island surrounded by water it beyond believe.
Helen has another two readings tonight last nights went brilliantly she is getting every reading spot on , and most of the people are leaving astounded by what she relays to them from the world of spirit.

My daughter and her friend have leased an apartment for six months in Dockside Lane Auckland very modern one bedroom on the first floor it has a central courtyard with grass and water feature's looks like there will be plenty of young people to get to know and party with .At least it will mean she can leave the hostel and start organising her belongings , one of her friends she has in Australia is buying her a laptop as a house warming present and is sending it to the salon she is working at , they move at the beginning of May wish i had friends like that.

As for me well work is going ok the team i look after are not that bad and generally do whats asked of them .After half past seven i am on my own its still going fast the eight hours i am there flies by but i do a lot of walking as the night goes on until i leave at ten.

Nothing planned for the weekend if its a bad as the last couple of days will be inside watching dvd's drinking coffee and burning gas .
Still hanging out for payday a week today kept thinking it was Wednesday today and its Thursday so its over midweek want to buy a book my daughter as been reading "In my skin " by Kate Holden think i will buy it as a e-book desperately need short sleeved shirts and some trainers for everyday wear.
Want to get lots of things but i wont i know i will have to wait as i always have done.

Listening to - John Mayer "Battle Studies".

P,S - The photo is the apartment complex my daughter and Shanelle will be renting

A grey and wet start to the day don't think its going to improve any .still waiting for pay day to come around every month is getting harder we need to find a alternative way of living don't think its possible to live cheap in the U.K simple because of the weather need to be somewhere where its constantly sunny and warm.

We owe the gas company £600 and i am totally peeved its something else that needs paying and i don't earn enough salary every month to pay all bills and the mortgage to run a car and pay for other services like the phone and broadband and food and milk and bread and other stuff we need on a daily basis and that's not including the water rates the council tax and electric meter .Its a constant battle and i am losing ground life is just too hard and i feel like its all down to me.
Saying that Helen is doing more than she has every done and does help out where and when she can best thing she could do for her health and purse strings is to stop smoking £6.65 a packet is a joke that's a price of a new i-pod touch every month

Half past midnight and i have just had a curry and extra large coffee not the best time to eat or drink but finishing work at ten makes it awkward to live by time scales for dinner tea sleep and getting up.

Thinking of buying either a cheap new mountain bike or a a better bike for the same sort of price second hand i wont be going down any mountains on it grizzly Adams am not , be more than likely on the canal bank where its mostly flat , don't think i would ever go to work on it either as the roads are just way too scary and if its raining cold snowy or dark it be staying in the garage should look new for ever then.

My Daughter has been hiking around Auckland looking at apartments tiring work if you don't have a car we Helen and i first got together and left the hotel we had for a week and we moved in to an apartment in the city centre.It was very new and modern and fully furnished leather sofas glass tables leather bed ,we was living on the tenth floor it was great if you woke up at twelve o'clock and you wanted a kebab or Chinese ,Indian etc it was no more than a ten minute walk along the canal and in to the city.

But it also had serious draw backs too the biggest being we had no balcony and no garden which meant no barbecues no patio furniture no plants or flowers , another sore point everything you bought had to go up in the lift including the weekly shop also all the waste and rubbish had to be transported down in the same lift , which is not that hygienic plastic bin bags always leak fluids and piss .

Finishing work at ten in the evening is ok starting at two not too sure if i sleep in and get up at eleven it means i have two hours before i leave to start work at two in the afternoon need to be getting up no later than eight A.M and i guess going to be no later than half one A.M which is going to take some doing ,need to plan my day better so i am doing other stuff than sleeping and going to work .

Bad boys two brilliant funny film watching it on tv whilst i am on my laptop Helen is on the other sofa on her laptop its 12.40 am the weekend now over need some sleep , as we are up in the morning to get a breakfast sub and do some shopping at Tesco i start work at 14.00 p.m until 22.00 p.m .

One of the agency lads bought a £1 scratch card and won £35 on it so he went back and bought another twenty five cards he won £1000 , with the money he is going to get a plane ticket to visit his girlfriend in America , every one travels we stay here in the U.K not impressed.

Went to Subway for A mega breakfast sub still only £2.00 including coffee think i have enough loyalty points for ten free coffees or any sub will have to wait and see might just us it for free drinks always handy to have couldn't afford a Starbuck,s prepaid card.

Started my afternoon evening shift to be honest i likes it was better than i thought it would be and for my first day it went good no hiccups and no major issues thank you God.

was in Tesco shopping for food and stationary paper ink and plastic wallets another couple of ring binders and note books for Helen's classes that she is teaching.

Dropped Helen of at tranquility psychic centre and help her set up her reiki bed stopped on the way to get a pint of milk . lighted some incense and put some meditation music on using the i-pod and dock.i will pick her back up at around four o clock.

I drove over to Lawnswood crematorium about 15 minutes away , to scatter my mothers ashes i did it in the shape of the cross it looked ok , it was amazing how much there was to scatter , Sprinkled the rest over the plants daffodils and other flowers at last she is blowin in the wind.

We have all kept some in silver sealed boxes which we had when she was cremated over six years ago another two cylindrical pill tubes was filled and sealed shut both for my daughter and son they both wanted some as a keep sake totem which is touching to know .

Daughter of mine is still living it up in New Zealand and is now in her fifth week away from the U.K , she is still living at the hostel , but she has meet a local woman and crew and stays over at there house usually over the weekend when they have been out drinking partying and out on the razz , at least she gets a decent shower food and sleeps in a proper bed rather than a metal bunk bed in the hostel she is currently residing at.

well its a good job Helen is earning some cash today as i am skint she has four readings booked next week and gets paid Monday .

Shit i have to wait another two weeks for my wage to be paid , my decent camera is at cash converter's pawn shop and i am not sure if i want it back , might make do with a half decent compact camera which i have seen online but is available at most camera outlets decision's decision's just not earning what i use to earn , hopefully get more shifts at the Hospital that i work at and try and get some weekend shifts too i will have to enquire Monday , i was earning more cleaning the operating theatres than what i am getting as a supervisor , saying that still not had my first months salary so will have to see , i wont order the Maserati just yet.

Well got to work had a email from my line manageress confirming my shift pattern of 14.00 a.m until 22.00 p.m , i will catch the bus so i will be in town Leeds city centre every day i love the city as much as the country side , so ideal for buying things for tea or pasties and subs and magazines and coffee seeing that most of the major supermarkets have a store located in the city , cash flow allowing i will be travelling on the bus on a weekly ticket costing £13.00 a week which works out cheaper than parking fees and diesel and of course parking tickets still need to get a messenger bag especially if i am to get a tablet.

Today i have done nothing been on laptop and nipped out for a quiche and milk for tea and supper had a doner kebab pizza and fries washed down with coke bought from where we use to live at Rodley about three miles from where we are living now .

Sunday tomorrow Helen teaches class for the first time this will be more or less all day she is also staring another class throughout the week and has quite a few readings booked in , its took a many years but she is now getting there needless to say i am well proud of her i always knew she could do it its amazing she is getting a great reputation and word is spreading quickly .

Reading "Jacked" the outlaw story of grand theft auto by David Kushner

listening to Sean paul "tomahawk technique"

It was way after twelve when i got up , just getting used to being up all night and tonight will be my last night for a few weeks .
when i finish it will be Saturday morning and i will want to go out specially if the weather is good .
Helen will be working most of Sunday and me , well I am going to scatter my mother's ashes for the last six years she has been in my sisters wardrobe in a urn she be like the genie in a bottle free at last to wander amongst us , on this note i am happy.

why are the RHCP such a great band listening to the platinum collection whilst i am online and loving every track brilliant.

need to buy some short sleeve shirts sick of rolling my sleeves up where i work you must be bare below the elbow .
Need also to buy some trousers well at least two pairs these will be no more than a tenner and more than likely from Primark , and to be honest they do great for work and don't have to last forever at that price , dry cleaned they wont be.

well when i get home in the morning it will be the weekend and hopefully i will start Monday working at two o clock in the afternoon and finish at ten , not starting at ten because i have a shift change.

By the time i had walk down to the car at six a.m this morning and driven home i am wide awake. at Half past four this morning i so wanted my bed now i don't feel in the least bit tired.
I have just cooked bacon for a sandwich and poured a glass of ice cold milk , i have already been up to our bedroom and Helen is doing a starfish impression smack dead centre in the middle of the bed , the curtains are pulled back and there is enough light entering the bedroom that i could do with investing in a pair of Ray Bans , maybe then i could go to sleep , eventually i did.

Finally gave up the ghost and got out of bed at half past twelve feeling wide awake i know i wont feel like this come two o clock tomorrow morning but for now i feel good , its sunny and warm and feels like summer.

Bought of eBay a para cord lanyard for my Spyderco Dragonfly knife with white skull bead ,. The lanyard is made from proper gutted 550lb para cord . It will not rot or discolour when wet. The crown sinnet weave is topped with a diamond knot. i will be ordering other items at the end of the month , for camera and i-pod might buy some cord and have a go myself there loads of demo videos on you tube , my Father was excellent at tying knots and doing whipping , no he wasn't in to bdsm and bondage he was in the R.A.f during world war 2 part of his duty based on a boat so he did a lot of shanks no doubt , lol.

Had a call from Nationwide they say they can get me tax back for working two jobs the last so many years , will believe it when i receive the cheque who knows if they don't get me a refund they don't earn anything ,and they reckon its a six week turn around on new claims, will see be nice to get a few pounds but no promises that's what will happen , any way its taxing times for a lot of people on a global scale any extra money will be a blessing and help us get by.

Helen again didn't go to bed and stayed up all night waiting until i arrived home she refuse's to go to sleep with no in the house which is weird what ever will happen will do be she awake in the kitchen or in bed .It's half past one in the afternoon and she is still tucked up in bed.

I only have three more nights to do then hopefully i will do the afternoon shift two till ten , be a breeze its way too boring on a night its amazing how quite it can be .
There's a Costa coffee bar open all night in the foyer prefer Starbuck's so i don,t use it but even that is dead most of the time , if i worked there i would be drinking coffee all night and eating all the cakes guess i be lucky to last a month.

My daughter got paid she at least it wont be anymore cuppa soups for a while i guess , she is trying to get tickets for Gaga's Monster Ball tour for the New Zealand dates.

Wish me and Helen was on tour in a V.W Camper some where miles away form the city of Leeds and miles away from the shores of England even if it was only for a month then it was back to reality it would be a trip never to forget , at the end of the day perhaps we should sell the house and do it , would spice the blog up a bit , jet off and then at the other end wherever that maybe renting a set of wheels i live in hope.

Half way home at six o clock this morning i realised i still had the pager in my trouser pocket , i had to u-turn to take it back , i wasted fifteen minutes i suppose it could have been worse i could have been climbing in to bed when i noticed it.

Got home and cooked a bacon for a early morning sandwich i been having cravings through the night for fish and chips seeing no fish was open the next best thing well done crispy bacon with sweet chili sauce.

Three hours of being in bed i got up the sun shining trough the bedroom window there where car horns blasting and police sirens screaming and the council dustbin wagons doing their rounds it was a pointless task trying to stay asleep so i got up.

For tea at least tonight we are having a extra large roast chicken dinner with home made Yorkshire puddings and roasted veg including parsnips so the day has got better as it went on , hope to night doesn't drag and its home time before i know it .

Helen has a reading later on this week and teaches her reiki class level one on Sunday for a psychic establishment for her first ever session she will use her reiki bed for the first time hope its lucky for her and everybody who lies on it .

Was speaking to my daughter on face book chat she is skint and living off cuppa soup and toast could be worse love you could be in England living off cuppa soup and toast , or looking out of a cell with bars on the windows the clank of keys turning and doors slamming shut , that's what i tell my self when its half three in the morning and there another two and a half hours to do and i am bored senseless , when your too tired to read and listening to music don,t seem to be an option , all you want is another coffee and fresh air and for the sunrise to appear for the start of a new day and for this to signal that home time as eventually arrived.

Went to Ikea it was manic the roads where heavy with traffic and parking was a sod all we bought was two cushions and a throw for Helen's reiki bed and a new soft ball for pip they are multi coloured and made for babies but pip loves them plus they are safe and will last a few months.

Went to Tesco bought a fresh chicken , turkey steaks in bread crumbs and chicken dippers plus potatoes had nothing all day and start my last week on nights , hopefully money wise it's been worth it not that I will know until next month plus done two bank holidays hope all the enhancements add up to a half decent wage I need to buy some stuff for myself .

Made it to the Toby carvery again for breakfast had the works including black pudding.
Decided to go to Hull and visit The Deep indoor aquarium saw some nice fish but it Vastly overrated it was overpriced and there was charges to park the car some of the tanks covered the whole of the three floors and where impressive.




some where a waste of time the swordfish looked awesome up close and the sharks and sting rays were nice to watch gliding along after seeing these the rest was a bit pointless.





Went over the Humber bridge to Beverley a historical town with similarity's to York we visited St.Marys Church they had the Easter crosses on display and it was built around 1250 the stone mason's that worked on it also built the minster at York.





On the road home we was heading for Pocklington where my son now lives and works , he was ten minutes off from finishing his shift ,his motorbike was parked up outside we chatted for twenty minutes he was leaving to have a shower and meet his girlfriend hope she is more suited to him than the last one.

Helen was up this Saturday morning when i got home at 6.00am , she wouldn't go to bed without me , she was text msg me and was on face book at around four o clock.
we went to bed together we was both up again at eleven thirty am after being up a few hours Helen went back to bed , I caught up with my daughter on skype she is working at her new job at a hair salon her boss advanced her $100 until she gets paid next week.

Helen son stayed out and never returned home he has damage one of the bedside cabinets in his room buy kicking the door through , i hope he stays away if he returns he pays for the cost of a new cabinet or he goes for good .

Helen had three readings tonight so i stayed out of the way in our bedroom with pip our jack Russell need food undecided whether to get Chinese or Indian it be too late to cook once they have all left. Lamb masala sounds nice with rice and poppadoms then again any hot food be good seeing its nearly been 24 hours since any passed my lips .

No work until Monday night at ten p.m

Watching :- "The Mortician"

Highlight of yesterday was getting up and driving over to White Rose shopping centre and buying a freshly spit roasted sweet chili chicken kebab if i had known how tasty they where i would have had two i was already at the car before i started to eat it.
Helen bought a 12-13 diary told her to do a online blog but i think she needs to keep a hard copy i might start a written one again but keep it as a thoughts and deeds general doodling and things i find to my liking and inkling sort of a jotter come scrap book.

Feel tired today hope tonight does not drag i am on my own for the first time and for the whole of the following week , and any problems occurring will be down to me to sort out or try and resolve the best i can , i hope everyone turns i and i get no one knocking work because its a bank holiday.

Helen sons being a total dick head he has not worked in nearly three and a half years and i am getting to the stage that i don't want to put up with him anymore. I didn't leave my family home and kids and all possessions to have a shit head living under the same roof .

Every fortnight he has to sign on to get his benefit , today he slept in and was not going to go . as a result he wouldn't have got any money for the next two weeks , we cant afford to support him and to be honest i don't want to , hes recently asked me for money and i have refused.
He smokes but as everything else he cant afford this habit so constantly taps and nags cigs of his mother , if i have bought her the cigs i begrudge him smoking them it irritates me.

Not working he comes and goes as and when he pleases and stays up till two and three in the morning on his mothers laptop , he will never be allowed to go on mine or my desk top i refuse point blank.
I feel my life is being dictated by him , he will never get another job as he lacks people skills and his reading and writing are are of a age eight year old he is twenty five this year , yet chooses to do nothing to improve his abilities.

My partner wants to sell the house to get rid of him if we do we will be renting for the rest of our life but i know this next house i get be it rented or bought it will be no more than one bedroom and room for no one else but us , end of.

Was feeling wary towards the end of the night was first night i took something to eat don't know if i was eating because i was hungry or bored .

Its hard going to bed when day light is approaching and its getting lighter by the minute , i don't know if i should have a half hour watching tv with a glass of orange and a bowl of cereal or go straight to bed , what i don't want to happen is fall asleep in front of the tv.

The benefits of working nights is i seem have a lot more time at home and spend more time relaxing mostly on the laptop.

Second night went ok thought i would be really tired and have trouble staying awake but i was fine.
Need to take some food with me last two nights i have not eaten think i should have something as we do a lot of on site walking and need to replace energy levels i was feeling a bit light headed as it go on further into the night when i am buy myself will take a magazine to read on break other wise breaks will be boring,

I need to take some sparkling bottled water , cappuccino coffee sachets and some buttered fruit loaf .
Need to get some more comfortable shoes for walking at the moment i am wearing steel toed doc martins.
Helen,s reiki massage table came today from ebay we put it up it was sturdy and relaxing and did not sag or move once i was laid out and rested on it .

Went to sleep as soon as i got in i was up at ten then went back to bed at half two for another few hours sleep so far this is working and i feel ok all of the day and most of the night , this might change the more shifts i do .

WATCHING NOTHING

READING NOTHING

LISTENING TO NOTHING :- HOPEFULLY THIS WILL CHANGE ON WEEK TWO

Well off to work for another night in under two hours , i made it back to bed for a few more hours sleep, now i crave ice cold coca cola and chocolate. I didn't eat anything last night AND was not hungry in the slightest , it was way too warm and i was feeling claustrophobic in a very small airless and windowless office , after Thursday night i will use a differ office in a older part of the building as i will be on my own and will be better suited to do what i want when i need to or want to do it .i will be more or less my own boss as all the other supervisors and managers will be at home in bed .

Worked last night starting from till ten till six a.m this morning was ok didn't feel that bad got to bed just after 6.20 a.m .Woke up when they started digging the road up at eleven a.m so i got up, Only another nine nights to go before i 'am back on my shift of two whilst ten.

Went to the post office collection depot to pick the web cam which came the other day put a card was left for me to collect it in person , the postman for some reason wont use the door bell he just will not deliver any packages that wont fit through our letter box , saying that i did receive my new i-phone cover which did fit through the letter box well done Mr.postman.

Well off to work for another night in under two hours , i made it back to bed for a few more hours sleep, now i crave ice cold coca cola and chocolate. I didn't eat anything last night AND was not hungry in the slightest , it was way too warm and i was feeling claustrophobic in a very small airless and windowless office , after Thursday night i will use a differ office in a older part of the building as i will be on my own and will be better suited to do what i want when i need to or want to do it .i will be more or less my own boss as all the other supervisors and managers will be at home in bed .

Was up and at the supermarket just after eight this morning bought three packets of smoked bacon and pork sausage , 1 doz eggs large cans of baked beans and and a loaf of whole wheat and white bread toms and mushrooms if I'am working nights and don't fancy going straight to bed i can cook breakfast . I might not even fancy eating anything at that time might get some cereal Jordan's crunch and some pouring yogurt or some fruit loaf for toasting.

Was nice yesterday looking at living in the great outdoors i would prefer one of the cabins to the yurts and could adapt quite easily as long as i had the Internet a camera i be fine , late nights star gazing and cooking on a open fire would be great in the summer months the winter months be a lot harder , that's why i would want to do it abroad somewhere hot near to a coast but still near to mountains and hills and green fields for walking , the coast would be nice to have a harbour there with tavernas and cafes like Rhodes use to sit out eating fresh made pizza and drinking ice cold bottles of lager watching the people on their boats going about their daily business , definitely need to win that lottery.

i shall remember these thoughts and images when i am at work four o clock in the morning .

Today looks that its going to be quite sunny i start my two weeks on nights this coming Monday so today need to get out want to go somewhere new somewhere interesting that once you get there things are going on and people are actually doing something vaguley interesting.


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The first picture is a cabin in the woods near to the druid temple it be ideal to get away from the rat race to live in the woods and cook breakfast before walking all day and exploring the country side and near by villages drinking at the local inns on a night taking photographs and generally doing nothing but what ever you wished at the time.

The second is of the Druid temple built by William Danby at around 1750 who was a man with the time inclination and money to do what ever he so wished.

So today we got out and about in the sun and fresh air , i manage to fill the car up to the top with diesel just in case thats £90 in three days work for the next two weeks i am using it to go to work in to do my rota of two weeks on nights .