Soon be here.

Hate first day back at work hate shitty rainy Mondays roll on Friday its pay day not before time.

Apart from Helen and my son I am not buying anyone else Christmas presents not sure what to do about my daughter in New Zealand guess it be same for her birthday don't know how much it cost to send a parcel that far  or what you are allowed to send.must be nice to get a parcel from home filled with the goodies you miss. I would have sent English newspapers and magazines , Mars bars and digestive biscuits , clotted cream and scones , hair gel shaving gel and razors.

French and Irish

went to Leeds city center looked at some guitars Fenders and Yamaha all electric acoustic all in black at around two hundred pounds.

I got a pair of Jack Jones jeans for fifty pounds went to fat face the had two different styles not what i wanted tried another shop all boot cut like fcuking flares am not a cowboy.

Went to the German market at Millennium square bought some French vanilla coffer and Irish whiskey coffee grounds  Helen got to see the city centre  Christmas lights for the first time this year,we plan on going back next weekend 

wet saturday

We had another viewing on the house at ten this morning ,we was suppose to get up and go get fresh flowers etc we didn't ,the lady viewing has not even got her house on the market yet so can't see her rushing to buy .

Replaced the dimmer switch sometimes when a bulb blows it knackers the switch and it needs replacing this has happened before its a pain in the bum as I always turn the electric of totally before working on it ,so all the timers go to pot and want resetting .

Went round to my nephews place at midday he plays the guitar very well and we wanted to gain some knowledge we both learned a lot in the sort time we was there ,we are going in to town tomorrow to have a look at get the feel for some different makes and models Helens only spec is its got to be a cut away and an  acoustic electric in black easy least.

Nu

Helen had one reading Thursday and two Friday and five tonight it will be at least half one by the time we get home but we need money for Christmas I want my Shuttle PC upgrading and repairing or i want a new tower PC hopefully it will get repaired it hopefully just needs a new power supply and its sorted plus I want a 2tb hard drive fitting and perhaps a faster CPU.

all its done today is rain and its been very cold .

Picture Helen playing a left handed guitar with her right handed .

Listening to - Mumford and sons and Rolling stones Grrr

Reading = Arnie,s biography Total Recall.

Watching = Twilight Eclipse.

Cooking with gas

well I have a choice as always in life , its regarding Helen's Christmas present it is either going to be an acoustic guitar or a I pad mini.

She will be happy with either,and will leave it up to me to decide , if its a guitar she really needs to hold it for size , weight and comfort etc , so she really needs to go with me to the shop. I think she will get more use out of the iPad and I know it has garage band on it and different guitar apps to down load but guess its how serious she is about learning to play guitar,she wants to learn to play the chords from the music Into the wild,thanks Eddie Vedder.

Helen made or baked two apple and sultana apple pies the pastry is like eating shortbread gorgeous bet they don't last long ,she went out I demolished half off one , well she shouldn't have left me to my own devices.

Oh I wish it was summer least we wouldn't have to keep feeding the gas meter , its a hungry Horace it eats credit relentlessly , like me and apple pies , except they were baked in the oven and that's electric we have a dual fuel cooker.

holidays are coming

Went to IKEA bought some bulbs for the kitchen chandeliers in the kitchen dinner also we bought 200 tea lights,and some soft toys for Pip our Jack Russell.

At work last night the sole of my shoe fell off well fell apart I had to tape it on with selotape felt really cool walking around my departments with a taped up shoe least I was half way through my shift.

Well Christmas is six weeks way its looming and it will be here before we know it there will be mince pies and brandy cream and Christmas cake with marzipan hopefully white ,and after eight mints and pistachio nuts , Baileys Irish cream for Helen and a bottle of Jack Daniels for me, I really like it to snow more than anything fresh laid snow is so photogenic not only that our garden looks just like everyone else's 'might have to get the rabbit more hay or a hot water bottle , or do a Glenn Close and boil it give it a hot tub , only joking we love button our Easter bunny.

Mondays for thinking

I know my English grammar and literature are way off the mark ,I guess I should improve it .At school our learning looking back was very poor in the three R,s,yet no one every moaned or complained , in mathematics we did weeks of logarithm,s using our logarithm tables from our logarithm books 'we was assured this was what we needed in the great world beyond the school gates in the workplace bullshit ' it was false I have never had or will ever need to use this useless knowledge that we spent months of lessons on same as equations and algebra no or little point to it if A equaled X what's 1 equal to who gives a flying fcuk .

English class consisted of reading Mice and men and 'Stig of the dump , right rubbish no Shakespeare no Romeo and Juliet, in  R.E we read The Cross and the switchblade 'and Run Baby Run real life stories of the American street gangs and the Mau Maus lead by Nicky Cruz , least it was more akin to real life then algebra and logarithm,s.

English schools on council estates are no better today children are not being taught right its sad kids are brilliant when it comes to technology computers Mobil phones but simple maths spelling forget it we are behind people coming from Africa , India have a better reading and writing skills ' unless you have money and can afford private school fees or tuition then its a sad state of affairs.

Helen wants to learn to play the guitar is if she is serious then she is going to need an acoustic axe she could be Leeds answer to Mary Hopkins , well maybe not .I would like to play an synthesizer I guess just because you don't have to blow it or pluck it just finger it.

New year coming up in a few weeks times need to learn new stuff get some new hobbies I like be more artistic , getting my calligraphy pen and inks next pay day and book have started reading more thanks to my Nexus might do more photography and learn photo suite seriously and buy a mountain bike lose a few pounds that's in weight not money.

I wonder how many people will forever change their lives in the new year my daughter did she packed it all in and with only £800 went to Australia half of it is saying enough is enough I want change the rest is having the bottle to do it.

viewing 3

Had another viewing on the house today at four this afternoon , coincidence was it was some one who used to work at the hospital,don't think they will buy it but who knows if its a decent offer were selling adios Green Hill Road.

Stocked up on meatballs and cheese and tortilla wraps ,Helen did a reiki healing session at seven tonight that went really good and hopefully has three readings tomorrow, internet is down tethering using I phone keep getting booted off I have my mobile network 3 phoning me up to discuss my case I was told I was allowed to hotspot my phone as I am on Ayce data package and I said this is what I wanted to do , and was told no problem, see what happens .

Listening to rolling stones Grrr

Watching - Twilight 

JUST A DAY

Helen thought she had left her best tarot deck of cards and her wooden tarot card box in the back of a taxi cab , i finished work and picked her up we went to the supermarket this was just before midnight when she realised we phoned the taxi firm up and they contacted the drive nothing was found in the taxi , she was gutted.When we got home the cards and box where on the kitchen table just lying the near the edge they where she had left then earlier as  she had forgotten to take them in the first place .

The Nexus is messing me around its getting very temperamental i am getting annoyed it closing windows explorer when its connected things are not showing up when i transfer items its getting a bloody pain should have got a i-pad.

Watching the four twilight films i have never bothered with them , but now  i am watching the first one and i am hooked .

received a call from my daughter this morning just after eight o clock she is fine and moving house again the internet has been cut off , she has six houses to look at monday and hopefully will find somewhere a nicer or better  to live.

I was getting my haircut at nine o clock  this morning thanks to Louise who also is happening to be moving in to a lovely new house , hopefully we be moving next if we ever get a offer for this house we are living in at the moment .

WHO NEEDS LUCKY CHARMS

Well  been on training today fcuking boring only good thing is its overtime I get a subway breakfast sub with a latte and I get a wonder round town for an hour looking in all the shops at stuff that I can't afford its Chinese torture ,why do it because one day every dog and all that .

I called in to shop in the city centre this is the city centre of Leeds there is a shop selling all American sweets ,biscuits and breakfast cereals , pop etc  called Candy Hero , you are  paying way over the odds  or  i guess triple the amount or  more than what they cost state side , and there's a queue to the checkout . Lucky charms £9.00 (sterling)  lucky if you get any fcuking change  , christ chocolate is chocolate m&m's and jelly beans the same has we have for a quarter of the price they are selling english toffee from America what's all  that about i was grinning like a Cheshire cat ,guess people think they are being cool oh to be young and not give a fcuk no mortgage no bills living with mum and dad they do right cant knock them.
Any way personally give me a packet of  Mars bar and ice cold  Dr Pepper from the pound shop , you can get three Mars and three cans of Dr Pepper for £2.00 no thats the way to do it ,

German christmas market selling french vanilla coffee might try some £3.00 or two bags for a fiver now that sounds like a must have.


Helen had one reading last night and three tonight its been slow but she is still doing as good as she has every done and there is more people booked for the rest of the week too , them Lucky charms maybe working after all.

MY CHRISTMAS WISH LIST.

• i-pad mini

• i-pad mini case
• leather jacket Super dry xxl
• Levi Jeans
• black tshirts 
• Montegrappa Sylvester Stallone chaos limited edition fountain pen

• K-Swiss trainers white
• Leica compact camera
• yearly subscription to T3 and Stuff magazine

• ps3 and games 
• Edifier sound bar
• The Rolling stones 50th anniversary whiskey by Suntory

• Moleskin notebook
• Tag heuer watch 
• Filofax 
• Vw Camper van 

• mountain bike 
• camping equipment 
• calligraphy pen and ink 
• Powers Irish whiskey

• Jack Daniels
• new tattoo half sleeve 
• Doc Martens  boots 

• Prada aftershave 
• back pack 
• skull candle in ivory
• Crystal head vodka

• 24 x bottles Koppaberg pear cider 
• wind up robot 
• American indian dream catcher for car
• 007 aftershave 

• messenger bag 
• i pod classic 
• Asus padphone 
• Dr Dre earphones 

• Hip flask
• Pre paid Starbuck coffee card
• Windows 8
• camcorder 
• Leatherman Surge 

• Apple  mac book pro 
• surround sound speakers 
• Bower wilkins zepplin air speaker 
• Land Rover Evoque

Not really i am not that greedy i fact i would settle for no work  , a nice turkey crown  dinner with all the trimmings including sweet potatoes  with  unlimited pear cider and a white covering of crisp fresh snow , a warm house and a warmer bed , and  no fcuking carol singers and decent television programmes and a few quid to spend in the sales.

NOT IF WHEN

why do we live where we live if I was a bird and I could fly anywhere I wouldn't settle in Leeds .yet I have lived her all my life ,there is advantages and disadvantages on the plus side really is only one , and that is  my job is here in the great city the metropolis and that's it really in a nut shell , yes we have a house here but there will be houses any where we go
Guess you stay were the work is , if I lost my job we couldn't afford to move so what is the solution sell up and move and start again elsewhere, if we do that why not go hundred of miles away to England's most southern point hundreds of miles from home ,guess if not then we have  got make the best of what we have here and just grin and bear it ,keep smiling fake smiles and pretend to love work and relish my job when its just a means to a shitty end  to pay bills and a mortgage to stay were I don't really want to be ,life is typical for many yet few get up go out and change  their destiny one day I will I just know it , just guess its not if but when.

HARD WORK

Saturday Helen had a last minute reading to do at three , then she had a party booked for three at seven one lady was too hard to read for she was understanding little what helen was passing on so she ended the reading after trying three times to explain ti a women what the cards where telling her , the woman was clueless so Helen felt it best to stop the reading , its not exact science and sometimes its bloody hard work.

I fended for myself with a microwavable chicken tikka curry tikka spring rolls and nan bread no pear cider

A AUTUMN SUNDAY

got up quite early it was half eleven when we went to bed last night we never made it to Middlesbrough as we have to make our money last she is appearing again on the 13th of December hopefully we will make that one.

went in to the city just after midday £1 parking for the day first and last bargain of the day  , we  bought some frankincense oil for the burner and a new rock salt candle light , we also went to the pound shop and bought some shampoo and after eight dinner mints .Didn't get to see the Christmas lights as it was still light , all the stores had the Christmas items for sale and had their in store gift magazines stacked up to entice shoppers for reading at home , roast chestnuts where on sale from the street vendors and we saw the Salvation army brass band but never heard them they were walking back to their cars with the trombones ,drums and trumpets etc , heard the first Christmas songs playing in the shop and no doubt the new this is Christmas album will be out which are the same fcuking songs as the previous ten albums.and i would  get Denim aftershave , Hi karate and Brut talc gift sets along with that years playboy calender , and the latest Bob Marley music cassette , chocolate orange   and Chinese puzzles.

On the way home we stopped of at the supermarket for our ready cooked chicken for our dinner we also bought some freshly baked just out of the oven tiger bread and some raspberry jam.

downloaded  the e-book "Men in green faces" by Gene Wentz as described in "No easy day" by Mark Owen also Arnold Schwarzenegger "Total recall my unbelievable true life" his new biography should make interesting reading .  getting my moneys worth from the Nexus couldn't read a normal book now as every E-book takes me further away from the paperback and hard back world of books , least it makes traveling on public transport that much more interesting.

My Daughter has lost her Internet connection so we have not been skyping each other recently she has posted numerous posts on face book so i know she is ok and staying out of trouble.

Well work again tomorrow at two another start of a week and a week nearer to Christmas as always i know we are going to get on the hop again we always do be nice to get some more lights and decorations for our home , need to get the pets their Christmas stockings sorted , think we will get button our rabbit plenty of treats , bless him or her not sure what we have, he must be male as he never moans.

Listening to -  "Mumford and sons"  both of their albums Babel and Sigh no more

Watching the new  - "Total Recall "

FFIF

Well its Friday night works finished until Monday afternoon two o clock .The Leeds Christmas lights are all on the city centre is  looking like a mini Vegas.
 German Christmas market as opened its doors for another year wild boar burgers German sausage and steins of lager at hyped up prices .
Not sure what the weekend holds we was supposed to be going to Middlesbrough  on Sunday to see a psychic Deborah Chalmers show if funds allow Helen has had a few cancellations this week but has a party booked in for Saturday evening hopefully for four or more people.

2013

BORING WORK give me a job i love , a small apartment and enough food and i be happy blah blah blah.
give me no job ,a small apartment and enough food and a Internet connection and i be blissfully high.
or give me six little numbers so i could be happy and loads of other people would be happy too and then we would all be high together,

what makes me happy would be to debt free and  mortgage free ,bill free and have enough to eat each day no bills being pushed through the letter box would be a big plus  ,not having to go out out in the cold wind and snow no working for a pittance would be a bigger plus so i guess prison it is then lol.

Need new interest a hobby new places new items new clothes new authors new music new drinks different foods different perspectives maybe 2013 will be lucky for some i think we are due a good year think i am way over due a holiday , i need two weeks of chilling of blue seas and hot days and cold beers or in my case pear cider over ice,fingers crossed passport still in date .

LIGHTS PLEASE

Getting the staging ready to turn the Leeds lights on , i am not sure who is turning them this year  the last time i went to see the official turn on Mr Blobby was the star that got to flick the switch , that was  in 1994 my daughter was three my son would have been the ripe young age of one year old , scary how time goes by so fast and so quick  , plenty of changes and plenty of Christmases past , it makes me wonder how many more i will have where i get to see both my son and daughter together , i  be lucky i guess if i can count them on one hand .

Not sure if i have to go into work , if i do at least i will be in the car and i guess i will be starting at two in the afternoon , so least i get the first half of Christmas at home with Helen and the last couple of hours if i have to finish at ten .

Will have a turkey crown and all the trimmings hopefully plenty of ice cold  pear cider , coca cola and Jacks , Irish coffees made with Bushmill's Irish whiskey or Power's  , stollen and mince pies with brandy  , Christmas pudding with brandy sauce and dark rum  , and Christmas cake with marzipan and cheese , might even watch t.v Oliver and Wizard of Oz , one of  Helen's favorite films no doubt Die Hard will be on for me all in all Christmas as usual again.

The best christmas we have had in the last few years was the first year we got together we had just move din to the city apartment it was fun new and different and we had no christmas tree no trimmings and not one carol singer , but it was spot on we had only been living together for five days we had a lot to sort out , we are still sorting it out , but we are getting there and this will be our fifth christmas .

BONFIRE NIGHT

Yesterday

 went into town Helen wanted to get a gillet from Fat Face and some socks went to local supermarket and bought part baked roast potatoes , parsnips , mash potato , sprouts , cabbage ,and pigs in blankets , and stuffing , peas and broccoli  also a ready cooked chicken , that's Sunday dinner sorted .had it with onion gravy and home made Yorkshire pudding.

Bonfire night its a English thing good old Guy Fawkes .
Went to my twin sisters house with Helen we have not been in touch for ages over a disagreement and seeing it was our birthdays last month we decided to move on and put our past troubles to bed , sometimes the longer issues go on the harder it is to forgive , and in the end life's too short not to get on , and not to be tolerant and not to hold grudges anymore , anyway we had a good night , we had pork pie and peas and a few pear ciders , there was loads of fireworks from us and  neighbours and plenty of Chinese lanterns in the night Sky's.

I want to buy  Pilot parallel pen and ink and start and learn calligraphy  its very relaxing and as we all can write why not learn to do it as a skill and a  art form in its own write  or right .

Helen got her Revelations Tarot cards from Iron Mountain in Michigan we had to pay £11.19p in import tax cards and book just short of £35 , they are buy Zach Wong and show  both correct way and upside down  pictures , they are very good for reading Helen loves them the design and art work fantastic , She has now over a dozen  different packs of tarot cards who knows in years to come she might get the chance to design her own deck of reversable cards.

And to cap it of i got my days holiday today was just as well as it was way after two when we got to sleep last night this morning.

Listening to -  Pearl Jam (Eddie Vedder)

Watching - "How i Spent My Summer Vacation" .

Reading -  James Patterson

Wanting -  Ink , paper and a pen

Thinking of - Christmas lights and stollen

WASTED SATURDAY

Helen didn't go to bed again last night she stayed up to wait for me coming home i went to work in the car last night so i be home faster  just after six rather than around twenty to seven .
Helen was really tired out she did a reading this afternoon at two and as another three tonight at seven she is not looking forward to because she is so tired.

its been a waste of a saturday as  i have done nothing we got up at twelve and more or less i have been on my laptop or the nexus  most of the day and the night ,  i dropped helen off just after seven the other side of the city and picked her up just after half past elven its going to be 1 o clock before we see the bed.

Not sure what tomorrow holds and i still don't know about Monday if i am working or not

TWO NIGHTS TO GO

I didn't take the car last night I went into work on the bus and caught the bus back home this morning 'I got to bed just after half past six ,and was up at ten for the house viewing at eleven.thankfully they was gone by half past and I was back in bed for midday with Helen.Was woken up by the postman bringing me my usb keyboard i got back to sleep to wake up a few hours later so roll on six am Friday morning get back to bed .

Pumkins and chocolates

Phoned my solicitor I used for my divorce he sent me a letter telling me to pay his bill or I would be going to court for none payment oops, I have agreed to pay Him £30 a month he is sending me out a payment card or book , I should have paid it when I got my settlement from the sale of the house my x-wife and I jointly owned ,or when I got my redundancy money.

Nights for the next three shifts I have requested 5th of November off its our first year of being engaged and its bonfire night so there will be plenty of fireworks going off .

Freshly baked scones Helen made them earlier last night on Halloween after we had carved the two pumpkins we had bought , we also bought four bags  of chocolate bars and only had two kids knock on the door not complain lol.