Took Helen to the Doctors she had a ten past seven am appointment after going through all her details she was giving a sick note for two weeks , which will give her breathing space and what ever she needs to do to make her happy regarding her job i will support her.

I have been offered the free use of a caravan at knaseborough lido any days i like between Monday to Friday will have to book a couple of days off and take advantage of this offer also we have an offer to stay a weekend I think either a Friday or Saturday night with our friends over at Flockton in their cottage .


Had a phone call from my solicitors wanting to know if i could pay £250 of my bill every month ya joking , i wish... if i had a spare £250 a month then no problem , they don't seem to realise we all haven't got spare cash floating about and some of us have to live month to month without the luxury of savings or a nest egg and that some months budgeting is a art form in its self. I be hard press some months to pay £50 and some months it is going to be nothing , at the end of the day they are charging 8% interest on the balance outstanding which they never told me when i became a client , so get of my case , me not paying you money is making you money so stop complaining.

Helen as made an appointment with our doctor hopefully she will get a sick note to excuse her from work she is already dreading the start of the week because it starts the count down for the weekend .

Torrential rain thunder and lighting , i was only walking on the canal path into town at dinner time and it was fine , a couple of hours later the weather has gone crazy another two hours and its glorious sunshine.


Look at Helen and i realise i be happy anywhere with here as long as we are together i would live or move any where to0 be with her be it a caravan or a shed i want to live in the country more than ever want to look out on fields and pastures country lanes and meadows we really want to get a little cottage and we are seriously looking at small one bed houses and cottages in locations 20 to 30 miles from Leeds.

Saturday

No work today might get a shift tomorrow , my sister might be coming round later as she has a gift for me no idea what she has it could be anything she is a eBay addict and a shopaholic.
House valued yesterday as it stands now estate agent reckons we have made a 20k profit if we sell for what he recommends ad if we sort out a new fitted kitchen and replace the bathroom we could make a possible 30k profit , we are pleased we have not lost out with negative equity.
hay fever started up today cant stop sneezing and eyes are watering badly i hate hay fever it was the blight of my child hood and i use to hate every summer nothing my doctor prescribed ever worked , finally i grew out of it it returns periodically when it does i buy piriton tablets and beconase nasal spray which sorts it out usually after twenty four hours .

Sunday

Dropped Helen off at work i returned home as there was no shifts available on overtime , its getting limited saying that i have never had a month with out working one Saturday or Sunday each week this has been for the last eighteen months . Got a phone call from Helen to meet her at half past nine she was crying and upset , she hates her job and she hates being moved around from ward to ward and she seems to get all the worse jobs going, she was ready for walking she was that upset that her managers agreed for her go home on sick leave.

We went to her parent house for a brew her mother told her to quit pack it in that it was not worth the heart ache and misery . We ended up driving out in to the country side , to Howarth and then on to Holmfirth mainly just to hold hands and walk in the sunshine and talk.

At night we loaded our bikes in to the back of the car and drove down to my sisters house at Kirkstall.We cycled along the canal path in to Leeds city centre to Clarence Dock went to Tesco Express and bought two bottles of bottled water and two mars bars which we ate outside the royal armouries before we set off back home we was out roughly two hours , a cheap date .
Helen was still upset over work and will make an appointment to see our doctors and senior managers at work to come to some solution WE HAVE A FEELING THEY WILL SAY IF YOU DONT LIKE IT THEN ON YA BIKE , if that cant sort then it might be that she has no alternative but to resign her position which she as worked at for the last ten years.


listening to :- The Best of The Jam

Went in to Leeds city centre last night after i had finished work , went home to pick Helen up and at around 9 o clock we drove in to the city centre and parked up near to Asda HQ , for the last few days i have been craving noodles no idea why i usually only have them we go for a Chinese buffet but a urge i had so for the first time ever went to Wokon a noodle bar that i have walked passed loads of time that is situated in lower Briggate .

Helen ordered beef in black bean sauce which was made with thick egg noodles and i had spicy chili combo which was made with thin egg noodles , along with a bag of prawn crackers vegetable spring rolls and prawn spring rolls one portion contained two rolls and two cans of coke all for £12.95.
All the ingredients was fresh and it was all cooked to order the decor is basic and clean with high tables and seats the food smelled gorgeous looked great and was steaming it was served in American style boxes and was kept warm until we finished eating , the spring rolls where some of the nicest i tasted and they was still hot ten minutes after being cooked .

GettIng the house valued to day just out of interest unless its gone through the roof then might be time to move on to pastures new , it is being valued by the estate agents Homebuyer hopefully there will be some increase if not give it time .

Listening to :- OMD

Finished work and returned home we went to Asda and bought a tray of free range eggs some onions and a packet of honey roasted ham along with a tray of mixed peppers and courgette's . Helen when we got home then made the best Spanish omelette ever it was perfection , big plus is that when you have hardly eaten all day is that it was filling at a low cost , the packet of ham cost a £1.00 the mixed veg £1.50 the free range eggs £2.00 for 15 enough for three decent size dishes , it does makes you wonder why we eat all this pre prepared frozen meals or why people are living off take aways and fast food outlets as you cant get much faster than what it takes to cook a decent size omellette.

Went to Ikea to look at kitchen units and worktops might not now be knocking through the kitchen and taking the wall down .

We have been looking at similar house's that are being sold to ours online and none have knocked through to make one large room so we are reconsidering , all have the kitchen separate as originally designed and built.The large black upright freezer that we have in there would have to go in to the garage it wouldn't fit in , we would have to buy a small fridge that could be integrated in to the design also the radiator on the kitchen wall would have to be made redundant .

we wouldn't need loads of units and i reckon the kitchen will cost less than we got quoted to just take the wall down and put a RSJ in which was a £1000.

Booked My car in for its MOT on the 29th of June , its due before the 9th July 2009 plus the tax wants renewing at the end of this month and the insurance runs out too all three together , at least i can do the tax online which will be a blessing .

Listen to :- Best of the Eighties

At least it looks like we will be getting some sunny spells today driving to work had to put the visor down in the car plus it felt a lot warmer than yesterday.Back on my night job it dragged always does when you have time off , got home eventually Helen was looking at cottages for sale on the Internet in various locations both coastal and country , north and south in Scotland England and Wales .Its still a dream to have a cottage and grow our own vegetables and have a few chickens and ducks , with a stream or lake close by if its not on the coast or near to the coast.

My sister went to Scarborough last weekend she said it was dead like a ghost town and by ten at night forget it was like the opening scene of 28 weeks later.

Schools and kids don't break up for summer yet ,and it looks like to me all the money that the shops, cafes , amusement arcades and gift shops will do 80% of their trade during these few weeks.So what do they do the remainder 46 weeks of the year , makes you wonder how much money is taken during this holiday period .

SATURDAY
Its cold wet and miserable i drove Helen to work she didn't want to go i didn't want her to go i would prefer the pair of us staying in bed .The mobile phone alarm went off at five am , and again at half five , then once again at quarter to six ,off it went at six o clock , then it rang again at quarter past six , finally at half past six after lots of coaxing Helen got her butt out off bed , to start work at seven .
Went to the Odean at Pudsey near Leeds with my son Guy to see Terminator Salvation , all the other terminator films we have only seen on dvd. Seeing it full screen with surround sound made all the difference i enjoyed the film , and i reckon it was better than T3 but not as good as T1 or T2.

Do enjoy going to the movies , and would like to go more maybe on a fortnightly basis , yet the only film i have seen with Helen at the flicks is the Golden Compass. Which i feel asleep whilst i was watching it , mainly because i had too much to drink the night before , we had stayed in a Leeds city centre hotel and gone night clubbing and i had too many Jack Daniel's.

Went over to Flockton to visit Sharon she was celebrating her 40th Birthday.A barbecue was planned but because the weather being could and wet what has happened to flaming June it was moved in doors.She lives in a cottage and it was some what cramped and busy .We stayed an hour before we had to leave.

Called in to Armley Cemetery to visit those departed in Helen's family and relatives mainly her grandmother Lily its a couple of minutes walk from where we live , there is baby section which was quite upsetting and some of the gravestones had pictures of those buried beneath its a sad fact we are all going to end up dead got to make each day count ,n got to say to those you are with how much you love them and you have to show it it through actions words and deeds , because we ain't going to be round for ever .

Sunday
Took Helen to work , we had the same scenario again with the alarm she cant just jump out off bed , if the house was on fire maybe to go to work no way she cant do it , but eventually up she got and we got her to work on time yet again with minutes to spare.
Helen is still reluctant to go she is not on her regular ward and she is being moved and shifted about covering different wards at different times which is bugging her but she knows she is contracted to go on any department or any ward which she is asked to but at the end of the day she worked on a children's ward for the last eight years and misses it.

Went to the Six Acres for Sunday lunch had the carvery , turkey and gammon with all the trimmings,loads of roasted potatoes and two Yorkshire puddings .

Listening to the :- Black Eyed Peas
Reading :- Charley Boorman , By Any Means

Work has still not paid Helen the money owed to her whilst she was on holiday she is desperate to get it sorted out as she needs the money to pay bills , and will incur charges if she leaves it any longer.

She phoned me up she had to go to the cashiers office at half past one , i picked her up and took her down she was paid roughly 60% of what she was owed the rest i guess gets paid In her wage next week .

Afterwards she returned with me to the office where i work in to see all my work mates and Friends .after that we went over to the Wetherby Whaler at Pudsey for fish and chips with mushy peas for Helen and beans for me .
We are going to a birthday celebration tomorrow over at Flockton so went to Owlcoates to Mark and Spencer's for Helen to buy a birthday card leaving there we then went over to Tesco and bought a silver bracelet on the way driving home i phoned my son up he didn't answer ten minutes later he called back so we did a u-turn and drove back to pick him up as we wanted him to stay over.

I wont be working this weekend as i had time of sick the weather is not going to be that good typical great British summer once again .

Finally got my absolute through its all legal now and i am single again , i am divorced its the end its finished , meaning i am no longer legally married that its ended and its over its no more , it does seems another life and it seems ages ago and that it was another me.
I am happy, glad and proud to be with the lady that i am with now with , and grateful that i have been given another chance to build a home to be madly in love and to have the things that we have .

Went to Costco this dinner time its been ages since i have called in for food ,i had my old favorite dish a jacket potatoe chili and cheese £1.22p yum yum .
Helen video called me at work to proof she was cooking a chicken casserole in the slow cooker whilst she was doing the front garden , on the way home picked up some Aunt Bessie's mash potatoe and extra large Yorkshire puddings and a cherry pie.

Got a speeding notification from the police for doing 36 miles in a 30 miles zone , i have got the option of attending a speed awareness course and not having three points added to my license , i will still get a sixty pound fine , or i can not attend the course and have three points added to my license , naturally i have signed up for the awareness course i have fourteen days to reply .

Didn't go to my evening job , i could hardly walk so mopping floors, bending and emptying rubbish bins , low and high dusting was out of the question, only thing now is i cant work the weekend even if i am better.So my back is better to day i still getting slight pain and aches when sat down or move so i am going to have the rest of the week off and start a fresh Monday .



Helen put the plants in to the back garden after she had weeded all the boarders and got it all tied up and in to shape.bought some dark brown fence paint and some cream gloss to do the shed.




From when we moved in the garden has been totally transformed , when i get paid this month i will buy some solar lights and lamps and a barbecue then fingers crossed we have a decent summer nights where we can sit out and chill.

Did mange to put three separate wooden trellis up for the climbers and Russian vine as it only needed a few panel pins to fit it into place on to the painted fence once it was dry.
Was loaned a James Patterson Novel to read "Step On A Crack" , read a few of his novels which are usually easy reading with lots of short chapters, ideal for bus or break time reading .

Listening to :- Simple Minds Graffiti Soul

Took a while getting out of bed this morning took even longer to get my socks on was going to sneeze which i know would jar my back even more mange to shut it down before it happened .

Didn't get much sleep try to lay on my side couldn't manage Helen was at my side and i didn't want to elbow her in her head so i gave it up as a bad job and had to continue to lay on my back.

Driving to work was agony using the clutch and break made it painful and looking across strained my back nearly did a u -turn things we do for money not sure if i am going to last the day.

Let the rabbit out Friday Night finally got it back in its cage last night we cornered it using the laundry baskets it was trapped it and placed it back in its hut , it wasn't a happy bunny being confined to barracks once again but three nights out and about the garden was enough cant risk it being attacked by some stray dog or cat .

Suffering with my back in a lot of pain and agony not sure what to do about attending work if i am off sick from one it means i have to take sick leave from the other, being my night job at the Hospital which means i cant do any overtime this weekend which means giving up a Saturday or Sunday, which means less money . sitting down and bending and twisting movements is agony and awkward , i don't want to make it worse and end up being off for weeks instead of a few days .The other option is to try and take some annual leave.

Saturday

Took Helen to work she has not been feeling well since her return from Egypt problems with her bowels and her feeling sick and acid coming up from her stomach she didn't go to the toilet for the first ten days of her holiday and the problem has persisted from then she got some medication Picolax from the clinic over there it is giving to patients to make them go to the toilet before major operations and surgery and is very harsh and should not really be used in cases of constipation.

Helen reported in to work and they advised that we go to the emergency doctors , we both work for the NHS, so we called in at the medical centre Meanwood and we made an appointment for 9.10 a.m, Helen was seen by a doctor and she was given alternative medicine to make her go to the toilet , she will have to at some stage go see her own GP when she can make an follow up appointment she my have an infection that needs treating .


Went to Tong Garden centre in the afternoon and bought loads of plants and climbers along with a couple of hanging baskets and a black metal arch way for the front garden .

Went to Helen's parents house for a barbecue late in the afternoon , her brother Martin and his Fiancee Katie was there plus some other relatives and Helen's youngest son Liam who stayed the night at our house the first time since we have moved in last December , Had some really nice food and it was a glorious sunny afternoon and was perfect just chilling out on the sun loungers drink cold lagers and doing nothing but watch the sun go down .


Sunday

went to see the Ragdoll cats over at Acomb, afterwards we went and parked up by the river Ouse in York city centre and went to the Lowther public house for their Sunday carvery .





we had roast lamb with all the trimmings including mash potatoes there was no roasted parsnips on the veg selection and no cider on draught or bottled at the bar other than that it was a fine meal .

Left Helen alone in bed she makes going to work too hard some days especially when i see her lying there all cute , tanned and exposing a certain amount of bare flesh whilst uttering the words take the day off ..trouble is i want every day off and i would be happy doing nothing but spending time alone with her it would be years before i got bored if i ever did and the bills would mount up and mortgage would go unpaid and the gas and electric would run out and the house would eventually be repossessed but as long as we were together then sod it all of course reality is a different kettle of fish.

I did go to work.. at around half hour before dinner time i got a call , she was in the garden topping her tan up but she was bored , i said i would come home for dinner within ten minutes i was driving home to see her , she was in the garden all oiled a deep shade of brown in shorts and a bikini top.... going back to work was hard harder than it was first thing this morning..i defiantly hate work even more its too warm the sun is out the skies are blue, there is chicken to barbecue and cider to drink paradise is where ever you make it and can be so very close to home .
listening to :- The Beach ost

Won £190 on the lottery bingo we do at work.. every little helps i will split it fifty fifty with Helen i know she is extra skint , and it didn't help that payroll messed her wages up whilst she was away in Egypt hopefully she will get what she is owed paid in this weeks wage packet.

Picked Helen up from her parents house after work went on to visit my sister had apricot brandy for the first time like medicine but enjoyable and at only 20% proof it didn't go down too bad , might have to invest in a bottle.

Going to buy a kettle drum barbecue this weekend.. seeing that its getting warm enough to sit out on a evening plus the fact that we still have not got a cooker yet , be a good way to cook fresh chicken pieces legs and thighs and some kebabs and other meat dishes , get some vegetables ,onions various peppers and mushrooms plus a few bags of charcoal .

will have to get some pear cider lager and a bottle of pimms something to wash the taste of burnt food away , well that's my excuse .

Listening to :- Ace of Base greatest hits

Yesterday had quite day paid some bills ouch , pay day still hate paying bills they come round too fast , Had to go to work at half past four when i finished picked Helen up and went to the Crown Buffet for a Chinese meal got there just after nine the food was OK and the starters and deserts they was a wide selection plus they have a chef who will cook what ever you desire form the fresh raw vegetables and meat that you pick and cook it in front off you in what ever sauce you require whilst you watch ,with drinks the bill was £24.00 , and like Helen said there is no washing up afterwards so its well worth it.

Bought a new goldfish bowl , even plain bowls are no longer cheap and the largest one the shop sold cost us £34.99 bought some new gravel and a white rock and a living plant hope the fish are happy in there new abode.

Went over to Clifton moor near York to look at large tanks for a marine aquarium didn't know what a skimmer was , and i didn't realise it would be well over £150 to get one. As well as around £250 for the tank then there is the living rocks , coral and other marine life that needs to be incorporated in to this living world to keep everything balanced as possible its not a cheap habby then there is hte cost of the fish ,

Friday
picked Helen up locally from the pub car park close to home in the end i didn't end up going to the airport to meet her , and i picked her up at half past four just as it was getting light and within five minutes we was home i made her a tea , then went back to bed she looked well and tanned and i was relieved and happy that she is safely home .
In the afternoon went to the white rose shopping centre Helen bought some clothes from River Island , i had the night off work .
For tea we had fish and chips with scraps loads of salt and vinegar from the local chippy , neither of us have had fish and chips for well over two weeks .

Saturday
Helen had to go back to work she wasn't impressed it was back to reality i took her home at three in the afternoon , i went back and worked until half past six, later that evening we went over to visit my my twin sister .

Sunday
Went to work we both finished at three and went straight to the White Rose shopping centre Helen bought a new steel flask some eggs and some brown bread going off tomorrow f0r the day might end up in Whitby .
Cit the grass to the front and rear gardens also cut the hedge took best part of three hours,Helen cleaned the house kitchen and dining room and did a load of weeding and cutting back.


Monday
Bank Holiday decided to get out and about made some egg mayo sandwiches and i did the flasks one tea one coffee .


Set off just after eleven another early start we should have gone at around eight but we never do . We was heading for whitby but on the way decided to go to Robin Hoods Bay instead bought a star fish for the bathroom . Walked down to the beach the sea was well in so walked back to the car and went to Sandsend then on to Goldsbourgh and then to Runswick bay Helen wanted to find this cottage at the bottom of the cliffs next to the sea.



All the houses and cottages are idyllic and any one would suit for a quite life by the sea if only , and finally went on to Staithes a few more miles away , which i have been meaning to go to for ages and ever got round to after seeing featured it on a TV programme.

woke up at four a.m, then again at five a.m , then at six at half past six before the alarm went off i was washed teeth brushed and in the car on the way to work i arrived at work dead on seven. I parked the car then i walked down to the canal at the Royal Armouries it was slightly sunny but cool , i sent Helen the first text of the day.

I put the lottery on if only , i am just too excited i am on recharge i have been ruining on low for the past few days , now i,am wired and i am buzzing , and she doesn't come home until Friday morning what i am going to be like tonight and Thursday night i cant imagine , going to be a cat on a hot tin roof , i just want her home safe.

late this afternoon i had a text from Helen asking if i would pick her up from Manchester Airport when her plane lands early Friday morning , I would set of now if i could.... of course i will meet her there as i get to see her ahead of schedule and i certainly ain't moaning i would drive to Egypt to get her if i had to and i would walk to Manchester Airport if i had to.

Two more sleeps alone then its Thursday and she flies back home . I finished work early tonight at six o clock due to a meeting so I left the car parked at the hospital and walked in to town. its only a ten minute walk to get me to the other side went to No1 Chinese buffet and pigged out had chicken and sweetcorn soup to start with plus prawn crackers loaded my plate with loads of deep fried chicken pieces , noodles and chicken wings also fried mushrooms , chips, and curry sauce twice over , it was followed by three scoops of ice cream and a bottle of Woodpecker cider

Cant believe it is nearly here as the first week went way too slow been like a kid waiting for Christmas , this week has not been that bad compared to week one and its gone faster especially since last Friday but its still been fourteen days too long and fourteen days that i can never get back , but i am going to have a good go at doing it.

I think we should go and book a holiday for next year even if its self catering as long its somewhere half decent and hot , i know if we decide and book then we will save up and go , if we don't book it we wont budget for it , although we are going to the Isle of Mann to her brothers wedding for a week i think next June or July .