STUPID

First time that  i have been on my Mac Book since a week last Sunday that is a first , i have gone days without wanting a cup of coffee never happened before unprecedented .

In the last nine days i have never slept more than what i have been doing , yet i still feel worn out and knackered one thing is sure once i get over this illness i will have to try an live an healthier life still.

I f i was put in to restaurant and then told to order anything i wanted and the head chef would cook it for me i would be at a lost to decide a menu that was appetizing  to me same with with drink nothing seems to refresh i have had apple and pear , blackcurrant and apple and peach does seem to improve if i had ice and make it really dilute .

But hopefully we will be out of here and in to our new home within the next coming weeks i will be back at work moaning how shit the job is again hopefully i am ready to start coming down the other side and all will be well.

Helen as been a true star i know i can be stubborn and stupid and the amount of time she has wanted me to admit myself to Hospital i have lost count hopefully i am in the process of fighting this off .