Yesterday we went over to the Trafford centre Manchester to look at engagement rings we finally decided on one and i paid a deposit will pick it up at the end of November its white gold with four diamonds in a square set it fitted perfectly afterwards had fish and chips then drove back to Leeds.

Steve jobs death and the fact that his autobiography is out , got me thinking it was reported in the press and no doubt Forbes that he was worth in the region of 5.5 billion dollars or sterling not sure which but what the heck he was still worth a load of cash , so how much would he pay to come back from the dead and to Live again for one whole year.to be in perfect health for the whole twelve months And to be fit enough to do or go where ever he wished .to see the sunrise and sunset to feel the wind and rain on his face to eat a favourite meal washed down with his favourite tipple to read a book , watch a film , listen to his favourite music and make love to his women , I reckon all of it he would part with ever last dime , so why that anybody alive that can still experience all or some of the above seem to spend time bitching and moaning how shit life is all because the cost of living has gone up , one life live it

Helen and I are to get engaged we have been through so much together in the last four years .
I love Helen without compromise I will always do my utmost to provide for her, look after her and watch over her.

In the time we have been together we have played some aces and sometimes the cards we have been dealt both good and bad ,sometimes we have got it wrong when we should have got it right , but at the time probably didn't have the choices that where are own making , if people along the way have been upset pissed off or annoyed with us then tough it was never intentional.
We started out with nothing first week Helen walked out of her marriage we was living in a hotel in Leeds city centre until we arranged a viewing and got the apartment at Clarence dock that's is where we spent our first Christmas together.it was fully furnished but we Still had lots of things to buy even the little things add up when you are starting again with nothing but love .

Christmas day we finished dinner and went down to the canal to feed the ducks the city centre was deserted it was like a ghost town.we moved into the apartment a few days before Christmas day we had jotted no trimmings but had everything we needed for the best Christmas Day dinner ever Three months later we moved in to a four bedroom stone built through terrace with a garden to the rear also near to the canal by a few weeks we had the house transformed even the landlord was impressed with how it was looking Having a garden meant we could sit out on a evening we could hang washing out have barbecues and by plants shrubs and flowers we also bought a rabbit .Six months later we was signing a mortgage for the house we have now we have been there three years we have transformed the kitchen dinner knocked the toilet and bathroom in to one with a new bathroom suite , the garden is totally changed with raised beds boarders we even Planted a pear tree .

What else has happened well Helen is still with me through thick and thin she is at my side she left everything to be with me her house belongings and possessions her children even her dog and the best part of her wardrobe she turned up at the hotel with a couple of suitcases and a few of her belongings why to be with me she trusted me not to go back home , she trusted that I loved her would lo look after and care for her that I wanted to be with her forever she trusted me with her heart and soul , and she believed in me above anyone else to be true to my word and She gave it all up to be with me in a double room in a Holiday Inn in Leeds city centre that's why we are getting engaged and that's why we are looking at engagement rings this coming Saturday . still love Helen and i know Helen still loves me , if that upsets anyone that we are still together or are totally pissed off or they have trouble understanding we are still in LOVE , then tough your problem not ours.

No work until my evening shift woke up to a glorious morning the sun was shining the sky was blue we don't bother with drawing the curtains on a night in our bedroom nothing is opposite us apart from the church Helen got married in years earlier our house features on some of her wedding photos Nine years earlier I actually went to her evening reception and kiss her in her wedding dress know I get to kiss her naked who would of thought not my wife who had accompanied me , Helen I meet at work and as soon as I saw her I was in dream world I missed her when I didn't get to see her we both just worked on the weekends and of course when sickness and holidays occurred meant no weekly fix for me .
Today we went to kirkstall Abbey it's only a five Minute drive from where we live, Pip our jack came on our outing , never really explored the abbey or studied it's history it dares back to the 1500,s from reading plaques throughout the ruins the monks where called to pray six times a day starting at one in the Morning drank up to two gallons of ale a day had one bath once a month if they needed one or not and only had fires for warmth from November to Easter too much comfort was considered a sin, guess I am a sinner in more ways then one but hey only God can judge me.
Went to Toby carvery were we sinned some more they now do coke with unlimited refills , the waitress asked how many I would like , I said one glass and unlimited refills she said yes I replied do you see a rolex on my wrist NO so just the one glass and two straws we will share.

Standing at the bus stop this morning just before half past six i realised i had left my id badge and swipe card on my bedside drawers.Also it had the key for my locker on it so i trundled on back home hopefully in the process not missing my bus i dashed home unlocked the porch unlocked the front door dashed upstairs grabbed the lanyard with my id and swipe card dashed back downstairs locked up got back to the bus stop and caught the bus in to work result.got in to work signed in couldn't find my id badge etc shit search my jacket pockets jean pockets and back pack no joy shit.reported the lost to security to cancel my swipe card which gave me access to all areas.
I had to get two forms filled out one for the swipe lock card and my photo id card took them over to security located at other side of the building to where i work quite a trek , only to find the computer was down couldn't print my photo id out the swipe card takes 24hours to process , So all fcuking day i had to be buzzed in and out which was totally annoying pissed me right off. By the end of the day i had my photo card id only need my swipe card should be tomorrow after twelve and a key to my locker so i can get my theatre shoes hopefully can get in using a master key if not get another key.WHY DID I BOTHER GOING HOME,

Tonight we went to the Marriott hotel in Leeds city centre to watch the clairvoyant Steven Holbrook , i have seen him once this year in Oldham ,Helen has seen him numerous times , and was watching him at performances way before she meet me.I have his three autobiography's to read that chart his life from a child to present day.Tonight i got a message and so did Helen , he knew it was my birthday today which it is and no i wasn't wearing a birthday badge, hat or carrying a helium balloon saying happy birthday he got my name right and the length of time my mam had passed he knew i had been speaking with her today and knew the last five years have been very turbulent that she approved of Helen and that she had a part in getting us together he also gave Helen a message from her grandmother Lily who's name he got right we both felt he was speaking from his heart quite a few other people received messages quite a few where left without any doubt that it was the loved ones departed relying the messages through Steve all i can say is this if you have not seen him go to one of his shows and make your own mind up about his ability to speak with the dead .The next time he is in or near to Leeds we will go again.

Been a average week nothing earth shattering has happened worked every day plus today.Yesterday went to see the Damion Hirst exhibition at Leeds art gallery what a pile of rubbish was not impressed 90% of his work i wouldn't class as art but suppose he is laughing all the way to the bank so who am i to criticise his work .Helen's dog Sam is being put to sleep Monday , she wants the vet to arrange a cremation and to receive his ashes Damion would just drop it in to some formaldehyde in a perspex box , its my 52nd birthday tomorrow i am not working we might go to see Steve Holbrook the clairvoyant.Have been watching Dynamo the magician illusionist on tv i know he cant walk on water or push things in to solid objects even so i think not knowing is part of the fun so i am happy not knowing i dont want to know , i like not knowing for me he's brilliant i don't want my illusionist to be a delusion.

Well a third day off grey leaky skies how things always look better when its a hot summers day and the skies are clear blue and the birds are singing , love when frank says on shameless we live in Manchester and were charged for water about sums this country up and worst of all we stand for it.




Our Jack Russell Pip messed her bed this morning i took her outside so she could wee when she came back in she jumped in her other bed and urinated straight away getting fed up its all the time and its getting me down i love her to bits but the house cant take her using it as a toilet its worse than having a baby.





No matter what time Helen and i go to bed even if i am working or not i am always the first out of bed , Helen just lays there even if she is awake first she doesn't stir don't know how she does it but it happens all the time .

only working two full days this week apart from my contracted evening shift of half till half eight working full five days next week which is more like it be nice also to get another weekend in this month .

The above pictures are taken with my Fuji finepix which is a brilliant camera for the price 14 mega pixels and 24x optical zoom.

LISTENING TO - The very best punk rock songs ever

Still looking at docks for my i-phone got to be loud enough and compact enough to fit in my work bag , two out of the three theatres now have neither pc speakers or docks i can use to play my music , TH ATS once all operations are done and patients are out of recovery and back on their wards.

Pip still needs house training we are making little or no progress , as she does not seem to grasp the idea of toilet training and that she needs to do it out of the house . Bless her she is a great little dog but is being very Blondie will have to look in to taking her for some type of training she is loving cute and all in all brilliant we love her dearly and will hopefully educate ourselfs so we can educate her .

Still not made it to the charity shops to look for Richard Montanari paper backs.
Won on the euro lottery 2 numbers and one star netting £5.90 and won £2.50 0n plus five might get me three books.

Not been to Starbucks for ages missing my white chocolate mocha's , also i am missing my Starbucks extra grande coffee mug its no where at home and have not seen it for ages which is annoying , thinking Helen has slung it cause it didn't match with the rest of our pots she saying i took it to work i never lol.

Not applied for any other jobs since i have been doing extra shifts at work if these end will be well in a mess and life will be very difficult specially all the bills i pay for house and car and loans etc.

Listening to P J Harvey

watching Shameless AND NY Ink

reading - Stuff gadget magazine

Not working Tuesday Wednesday or Thursday apart from my half to nine at night slot that means three days of sleeping in well at least til half eight or nine o cl cock the latest , taking pip out for mid morning walks tormenting Helen going shopping and hopefully breakfast at subway for sausage egg and cheese sub.might look at a speaker dock for my i-phone depending availability of monies looking at a gear 4 or a Sony also want to go to the charity shops to see if i can get some Richard Montanari paper backs there will always be some James Patterson ones maybe some i haven't read if all else fails.

watching - idiot abroad 2

film to watch - Son of Morning

listening to - The Manic Street Preachers and Miles Kane

Saturday we Went to Todmorden to visit centre vale park to pat the allegedly lucky dog which was featured on the Calender news programme featuring Derren Brown who is doing his own show on good luck and fortune , various people have had very good luck happen to them after stroking the statue of the dog , on getting home Helen did a scratch card she bought before we left she won £15 hehe who knows could do with six little numbers.After went to Hebden Bridge to visit all the hippy shops apprently in the 60's lots of hippys settled in the tiny village

thinking about Christmas already bought some one million aftershave its a while since i bought my self any new designer aftershave wanted a bottle for ages and as we were going out last Saturday night i though rather than buy a new shirt or jeans i get some one million and for some reason it got me thinking about Christmas be our third in this house. The fist year we didn't even have a cooker this year we have a new bathroom windows and central heating in the upstairs rooms , a lot has happened this year and no doubt next year is going to be just eventful as they say life goes on.

After I finish work this Friday I will have worked nineteen days without a day off , so I am really looking forward to this coming weekend .
Need to get out on the moors explore new Parts we have not walked on before take new photos and of course take Pip with us .Getting up at six every day has taken it's toll need to have a sleep in and have a relaxed weekend , Plenty of fresh air to clear my head of bleach and the smell of hospitals , I know i won't sleep in and I bet it will be raining but least it will be time of from work ,

Everything is fine for the past fourteen days i have done nothing but worked.life goes on day to day i rise at six to go to work and arrive home at two in the afternoon to go back at four thirty till nine.
.At least its helping me keep on top off bills and its not getting me down not having a full time job after being made redundant , even though helen is hating me being away all the time and me being permanently knackered.