Took Helen to A&E last night after i had finished work , she had been having a burning sensation in her head , and the left said of her face felt numb and had ever so slightly drooped, after four hours and just before midnight she was admitted to Hospital, and a bed found for her on the acute ward.They think she has had a mini stroke during the night but wont know for sure until they do more tests and scans take place hopefully by later today.

it was amazing how man people in A&E due to drink and drugs many mentioned when asked what medication they was on said booze and methadone one even turned up with a suitcase he knew he was going to get a bed and no doubt medication, shower food and clean sheets.

I got home this morning at half one and as soon as i walked through the door i was missing her , our rag-doll Harvey was also missing Helen and he knew something was a miss, he as been chatting away constantly like he is asking questions that he needs answers to he is a very loyal cat and will be with Helen and follow her around from room to room most of the day.

something like this is a massive wake up call and you realize what you would miss if its taken away from you , not that i don't realize i do , but it makes you want to walk on beaches see the sunrise and sunset and get closer to nature and to visit the places you always wanted to but never will .

we spend too much time worrying over stuff we cant change that we miss out on the simple pleasures we spend too much money on doing stuff we shouldn't be doing and need spend more time on getting out of the house to pastures new and chilling need to buy a bike rack so we can cycle we have mentioned this in the past and it never happened said we was going to bye a tent and some basic camping equipment this has never happened to buy a barbecue so we can eat alfresco we can do all of these and we haven't , we are just building regrets for when we are older if we have the means to do it then we should just do it.

cant afford to waste anymore time and but stuff off we might not ever get a second chance if we don't do things first time round then its our own fault.

everything i want to do i want to do it with Helen that's why i walked out of my home and marriage to start again, to get things right to make changes in the way i live and the way i do things to have a second chance and a new beginning. Helen basically did the same when she walked out of her house and marriage to be with me so its important that from this day forward we get it right and make changes which are so obvious we should be making.And why is it at times like these you realize that you haven't got enough photos of us as a couple something else i have known for ages and not done anything about

Went back to visit Helen this morning and to drop her some stuff off she needed her mobile charger and her Jim jams and book she is reading will go back at two this afternoon i have took the day of work.

The photo is of the chapel at St James hospital i grew up passing the clock every day going to and from school both primary and secondary.